I bled out of time

A drop in the ocean A change in the weather I was praying that you and me might end up together It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert But I'm holding you closer than most

[thousandmusings]

𝐿𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑒 𝐼'𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑒𝑒

𝑌𝑜𝑢'𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑊𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑛 𝐼'𝑚 𝑔𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑢𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑟

𝑇ℎ𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑝𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝐼'𝑚 𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝑘𝑖𝑛 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑣𝑖𝑙 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛

[thousandmusings]

𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑔𝑔𝑙𝑒, 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑑𝑖𝑒 𝑅𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑤, 𝐼'𝑚 𝑖𝑛 𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑏𝑙𝑒, 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑔𝑔𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑣𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑡𝑜 𝑗𝑢𝑔𝑔𝑙𝑒, ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒

[thousandmusings]

𝑀𝑎𝑦𝑏𝑒 𝐼'𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑙𝑎𝑚𝑒, ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑎 𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑦 𝐹𝑜𝑟 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑖𝑔𝑛𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑟𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑖𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒'𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑝𝑢𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑒𝑚𝑝𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑦

[thousandmusings]

𝐹𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒: 𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑠𝑎𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑓𝑖𝑐𝑒

[thousandmusings]

𝐼'𝑚 𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑜𝑥𝑦𝑔𝑒𝑛 𝐼'𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑛𝑜𝑤

[thousandmusings]

𝐴𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑚𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑠 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝐺𝑢𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑚𝑦 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑠 𝑎 𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑜𝑛 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝐼'𝑚 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑔𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑜𝑢𝑡

[thousandmusings]

𝐼'𝑚 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑐, 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝘩𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝘩 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑐, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑚 𝑡𝑜 𝘩𝑒𝑙𝑝 𝑆𝑜 𝐼'𝑙𝑙 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝘩𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑎𝑑𝑚𝑖𝑡 𝑡𝘩𝑖𝑠 𝑖𝑠 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝘩𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑡 𝐼'𝑚 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑝𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑐, 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝘩𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝘩 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓

[thousandmusings]

𝑊𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦

[thousandmusings]

𝑊𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝐼𝑓 𝐼 𝑘𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢.ᐣ 𝑊𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝘩𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑚𝑦 𝘩𝑎𝑛𝑑.ᐣ 𝑇𝘩𝑒𝑦'𝑟𝑒 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑢𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑊𝘩𝑒𝑛 𝐼 𝑘𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢

[thousandmusings]

𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝐼 𝑏𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝐼 𝑏𝑎𝑟𝑘 𝑌𝑒𝑎ℎ, 𝐼'𝑚 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑠𝑎𝑦

[thousandmusings]

𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑘 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑁𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑤𝑎𝑦

[thousandmusings]

𝑇𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑒 ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑢𝑔𝑙𝑦 𝐼 𝑎𝑚, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑒

[thousandmusings]

𝑂ℎ 𝑚𝑦 𝐺𝑜𝑑, 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟 𝑊ℎ𝑜 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝐷𝑒𝑐𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟

𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑒.ᐣ 𝐻𝑜𝑤 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝐼 𝑔𝑒𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒.ᐣ

[thousandmusings]

𝐼 𝑑𝑜 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑏𝑎𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑑𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑤𝑒𝑙𝑙

[thousandmusings]

𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑛𝑜𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑒𝑙𝑠𝑒

[thousandmusings]

𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝐸𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝐼 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝐼𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑦

[thousandmusings]

𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝐼'𝑚 𝑑𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑀𝑦 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑙 𝑖𝑠 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑑, 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑑