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the worst part about ocd and ocd-like tendencies is that you think hyper-analyzing your thoughts and constantly psychoanalyzing yourself will fix you but that's actually part of the disorder. it's the disorder. disordering.

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Touch me and see what happens. Engraved kitchen knives, 2022. (ig @jannekemakes)

@pessimisticfvck my internet friend.

on this day 8 years ago we spoke for the first time. I was 15, you were 17, and you quickly became the person I would go to. i would talk to you about things that i didn’t feel like i could talk about with the people i had in real life. you were my corner of the internet, the void i could shout into (sometimes the void is your friend and it shouts back) and someone who made me feel safe when i didn’t think i would be ever again.

i could let out all of my shame and all of the things i thought would make people see me differently. i wont EVER forget the way being friends with you made me feel, the things it taught me about love, trust and even anger when it was hard for both of us. i learnt so many valuable lessons because of you. ill always cherish the stupid jokes and the FaceTimes and the drunk calls.

your portrait will forever be under the paint at my dads house. you won’t be alone there because you’re next to oatmeal (LOL).

i hope that you feel safe and loved and beautiful wherever you are. i really wish you could have felt that here. i love you so fucking much and i miss you dearly.

happy happy birthday.

#suicideawareness #suicideprevention #miss you my friend #jenny <3

geryone

Fauna, Richard Siken

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Aleksandra Waliszewska (Polish, 1976) - Untitled (n.d.)

i miss my friend. i loved and still love you so SO much. i wish you didn’t take your life and im so sorry that you did. im sorry that im angry about it too. i wish i had been there in that moment or been better or that you had trusted me or that you just didn’t do it, even through i know that you were in pain. my friend, my love, the person I would go to. i miss you. i wish you were here.

#grief #jenny <3