Writings Of The Half-Asleep

Oliver 16 Sometimes I write and this is what happens.

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October 29, 2013 "We met on railroad tracks and cellphones, in a car full of helium and a fist full of pills, in a goodbye letter and smeared snot, in our mothers’ fury and blankets on the floor. We met at the healing end of a loaded gun.

You watched as I stitched myself back together, with patchworked knees and overused lungs.

I watched you try to find god,  and fail.

When we met again we still weren't completely whole, so we filled each other’s empty bones, and laughed until our scars fell off."

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January 15, 2014 "Today I burned your letters in the sink,  Let the smoke replace your laughter, And fill my healing bones."

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And I’d choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I’d find you and I’d choose you.

the chaos of stars   (via homemayde)

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John Knowles, A Separate Peace

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some soul for your soul hon

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Things I say in the morning while you are still asleep

Your heart is heavier than your sleeve.

Hold on tight.

I want to tell you while you are still asleep that you are perfect.

The sun is in your eyes.

When you blink it takes eight and a half minutes for me to know that you have gone.

I have to give myself to some things. It doesn’t happen overnight.

I will keep on drinking until it is over.

Don’t frown so hard.

Everything you want is in a dream you forgot ten seconds after waking up.

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[innsmouthconsul]

I can list off 38 words that mean ‘chaos’ but the only working definition I’ve been able to find would be the way my stomach flips when I catch your eyes wandering over me for much longer than a moment.

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don’t be too clingy don’t be such a ‘girl’ be a woman but be hairless like a child

don’t wear skimpy outfits don’t be such a ‘slut’ be modest but take it off when i ask don’t assert yourself don’t be such a ‘bitch’ be nice to me but don’t be a fucking doormat don’t be ignorant don’t be such a ‘bimbo’ be intelligent but don’t argue your opinion with me don’t wear make-up ever don’t be so ‘insecure’ be yourself but don’t complain if i don’t like it

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There Is A Hymn On My Breath

There is a hymn on my breath that reminds me of you, that reminds me there are expectations I’ll never live up to. There is a hymn on my breath and it tastes so bittersweet, that tells me there are certain standards I simply cannot meet. There is a hymn on my breath but it sings no song of praise, it reminds me of the love I spent on warmer, better days.

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