Still understanding

[lookforher]

[tht-vic-chick]

Over thinking the minor words… the flow and timing of each text matters in the way of flirting. Nerves get in the way of banter and flow and it’s been like this for a year with this person

Last night you dreamt they sucked your finger then removed it in disgust, you also had a tampon on and had to remove it in secret in the corner.

Clearly I’m insecure with this person. This loving supportive hot person. I just need to start feeling more relaxed more playful. I need them to be mean to me and tease me. We’re so sweet n loving to each other and of course it’s a blessing but at a point it can cause a cringe

I want to lay in ur solo apartment and eat food while you move around your space and sit down to watch some garbage. I want to cuddle on the couch kiss and go back to watching and moving seamlessly around each others bodies. I need this comfort to dive into a deeper fuck, if and when I get there

[tht-vic-chick]

i see myself to be more compatible w abby in terms of lifestyle and people we surround ourselves w but im having trouble deepening that relationship...

is it because i spend so much time w swan? no space to nurture the growth

or is there just not the vibe?

is it possible for me to deepen relationships w people who i dont interact w daily?

i did it w emily.. it was hard for me still tho. but it happened

was it because we knew we were the only gays as hot as we were within our radius?

or did we actually have a connection?

nonmonogomy - something i strongly believe

how does it play out for me tho? realizing im not one that is capable of dating many people

but just give me the space to exist as me and lets break away from the relationship ladder we think were too follow

[tht-vic-chick]

its to the point where you imagine fucking her.. and i mean really fucking her

dick strapped to ur pussy kinda fuck

before you just wanted to cuddle

genuinely

a progression from touch to pull

[tht-vic-chick]

going home...

[tht-vic-chick]

in about 48 hours i will be in FL

[tht-vic-chick]

Two bitches

I got twooo bitches

Both incredibly contrasting

Femme and a stem

Both of them want me

And I want both of them for the most part

Think about you as I start to touch myself, usually ur shirts around and then it starts to get real heated and then Abby comes in.

W thst dirty mouth of Hers and climaxing energy

Swans there for the build up, the beginning tension

Both of them completely necessary and important

Not one better then the other, just different

Well.. one I feel a lil codependency

We’ll work on that

[tht-vic-chick]

I deserved me a freak

I deserved to be put down n dominated

I deserved that long gaze and ur spit on my tongue

Ur fruit tastes exceptional.. all of them, and I’m talking bout the one on ur hip too

[tht-vic-chick]

Year of the tiger, year of regeneration and healing

Facing what we have put off and doing what makes us stronger

[tht-vic-chick]

Ooooooooooh ya. Makes sense

[57onred-deactivated20251201]

🧡

[tht-vic-chick]

Tumblr boy ❤️

Sometimes I can connect w boys

Do U wanna have a threesome in front of that mirror?

[tht-vic-chick]

A year ago I was getting ready to move. I didnt know it yet, but a year ago I was about to emerge into the hot bitch I am today

[thevaginedream-blog]

Celebration over the days of Corpus Christi in Cusco Peru

[tht-vic-chick]

Aw man i miss photography i was so happy when I took these

[tht-vic-chick]

i feel lonely even tho one of my best friends wants to hang out with me so much. unf, you too gave me an ick. you gave me an ick when you made me feel bad for setting boundaries for my recharge time.

and now thats hard for me to get past

and im feeling lonely

even tho every weekend is incredibly social for me

even though im bonding even more with sweet teddy

im lonely

van is falling in the consumption of their new partner

and oliver is consumed by work and his bf

its almost as if i miss the easy casualty of a romantic relationship

but is it easy?

hm

its almost as if i can forget things i maybe shouldnt forget

i am my girlfriend

and i loveeeee me as my girlfriend so delicious and peaceful but i cant make it past the mirror to taste and hold

its almost as if life is cruel

[tht-vic-chick]

i need this stability, these walls are good for me

this location is sweet

the price, sweeter

but living with two white gay democrats that pretend to give a shit about marginalized people but decline housing to a virtual sex worker and stigmatize me and their bipoc roomie for being stoners. fuck off

unf im no good at pretending. cant pretend to care about ur day cant pretend i want to spend time with you cant pretendd

but i need this housing. but i cant pretend

[tht-vic-chick]

these days

life is good

but when its hard. its. hard.

housing insecurity even with housing

it seems in most of my relationships the ick i get comes back to social justice. things that are obvious to me.

why do people ignore the obvious. why is it so hard to respect the marginalized and colonized?

why does it affect me so much and not others? why is it hard for me to be in a relationship with people who dont feel the same?

but maybe i can ignore better then i think. ya i get upset internalize and probably isolate myself for a while. but usually my love for the person overrules their shit

however if I dont love you. if your my resented roommate or supervisor, youll get the shoulder

[iliothermia]

pity  [id: an angel, eyes leaking tears, gazes upon the small curled body of a man in pain resting in the palm of his right hand. The angel’s right arm is wrapped with tefillin, his left weaker and scarred from another time. His hair curls and coils toward the small man’s. The image is framed by torah scrolls showing a censored portion on the sides, above and below decorated with yadim and the heads of two eagles with bells dangling from their beaks. ]

[tht-vic-chick]

so ya.. angela white has seen my naked flesh blah blah big deal we get it you loveeee her