Time-is-Lost

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[time-is-lost]

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[neckkiss]

“the saddest thing in life is seeing the person you love, happy with someone else”

— (via hatin)

[esgotada]

[lightheartedsuggestion]

Stop convincing yourself you’re wasting your life away. The time you’ve spent resting and healing was and is necessary. You’re not a waste of a person if you find yourself struggling right now. Healing, recovering, sitting with your pain is foundational. It’s not a waste. You are still whole.

[thehopefulquotes]

“I take great care of myself by carefully shutting myself away”

— Vincent Van Gogh (via meineluft)

[i-just-want-to-disappear]

“But what is it that I wait for? I mean, why do I keep trying to make it through the days. Why do I want to survive all these miserable days. What do I think is at the end of all these survived days that makes it worth it? I just don’t know why I keep pushing through these pointless days. None of this has any meaning anymore.”

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[dark-soul9]

sometimes you hide your feelings from yourself too

[finding-myself-17]

[sad-butsassy]

“You’re starting to give up on me”

— Six word story #14 (via slutty-butsassy)

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I have issues and I'm damaged

These are facts I scream out loud

You can't claim you didn't know

I'm no cotton candy cloud

It's as bright as a neon sign

As clear as crystal glass

Maybe you should talk to me

Before talking out your ass

I've reasons for everything I do

All I do or do not say

My silence is a part of me

In so many different ways

This is why I choose alone

Over human interaction

Because no one ever understands

And I'm all out of traction

Trying to make myself make sense

Is a lifelong losing war

And, as this life has shown me,

It's not one worth fighting for.

~Mandy Kocsis©2021~

"Soul Survivor"

[fadedheartbreq-blog]

“I don’t know how to stop looking for escape routes. I find them in the smallest of areas, I find them in the safest spaces. I find them in your laugh, I find them in the way you hold me, I find them in the way you always let go of my hand first. I can’t stop looking for a way out when we’re in the happiest places. I don’t understand it, I have myself question my feelings for you in any inconvenience I find. I keep trying to put out the flame before it catches everything on fire, because it will. It will burn out, or it will set everything on fire, there is no other conclusion. I can’t help but question every moment we felt and if its enough. Is it ever enough to stay? It feels like I’m a ticking time bomb that’s counting down the days to leave and destroy everything in front of me. I keep everything to myself out of fear of driving you away, yet I jump at the keys every chance I get to be the one who drives away. I don’t want to lose you but I keep lookin for ways you can lose me. “leave before being left” “leave before being left” “leave before being left” plays in my head even when I hit stop. I look for escape routes everywhere I go, I look for emergency exits in every room I enter, not because I’m going to use it but because I need to know its there. I need to know I can. I have too many tattoos to think I have commitment issues, but I can never stay in a place too long, I can never linger in a restaurant once the tab has been paid, I’ve never had the same coffee order. I don’t know what you would call that.”

— dressed up commitment problems