FORLORN;;

indie sel. priv. horror oc. 18+. 

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person: why are you gradually ruining your life and throwing away your future while simultaneously pushing everyone you love and care about away and shutting yourself off from the outside world

me: i'm coping

[muse-with-fuse]

Ahahahaha !! I’m the killer with a crazy grace,

           I’m your worst nightmare, with a pretty face !!

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stranger.

She hated how curious she was about him.  It was faint, but it was there.  It was probably the only reason she hadn’t actually walked away yet, and if it had been anyone else, if he hadn’t had striking enough an appearance to stop her in her tracks like that, then she WOULD have walked away.  She would have already been down the street, around the corner, going on with her uneventful day.

But instead, there she was.  Talking to him.  And she didn’t really know why.  Maybe it was just how much she reminded her of him.  The way he carried himself, the way he spoke.  As though he were nice.  Normal.  Cared.

“You don’t know me.  You don’t CARE.  Nobody just cares.”

❝ ever heard of expectations?? no, really. i’m a very caring person. i totally understand you wanting to be closed off, not let anyone come near you.. i’ve experienced similar things. people come, betray you, leave you to rot. metaphorically speaking, of course. ❞  he let out a laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. it was demanding, really, having to act out a role like this. in reality, he didn’t give a single damn about who she was, what she did. but she caught his interest in another way - - she was quite UNLUCKY to meet him today.   ❝  i, erm --- suppose you don’t wanna talk about it. whatever that guy who.. looks so much like me did, i hope karma’s gonna get him. a lovely young lady such as you doesn’t deserve that. ❞

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elena.

His touch was getting her by surprise but she did not move away from it, she swallowed hard, as she felt her heart racing on his words, her eyes look over at his, she always went by the rules, always following them thinking they would bring what she needed and they never did, “ I want revenge, I want them to feel the pain they have inflicted on others, I want them hurt , I do not even want an apology , because I know it will not come, “ she is sucking in a deep breath as she is carrying on to reply, “ I want them to pay , help is very welcomed”.

kain took in her little outburst of emotions quite happily. everything was going after his little evil plan he had figured out some time ago, he just had yet to find a fitting person for it - - - apparently, he finally was lucky.  ❝ i’ll gladly help, elena. we’ll just need to do some sort of plotting, you see. can’t just walk up to them in the middle of the day. ❞  he laughed somewhat, before his head tilted to the side lightly,   ❝ i’m sure you’ve got an apartment or house or anything around here . . ?  ❞

[anartchism]

Cute first date idea: spitting bubble-tea bubbles on pedestrians

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anna.

                    “at least it’ll be jerking off material,” she merely shot back with a raised eyebrow. he was so close to her she could feel his chest brushing against her erect nipples, and she could smell his scent, strong, almost overpowering. she found she liked it. there was silence from her part, then, as he kept talking and talking, until it ended in a question, and she just gave him a small, almost sad smile. “go right ahead.” it probably wasn’t what he was expecting, but then again… she rather liked being the unexpected. “i’ve got nothing to lose and death doesn’t scare me. but it wouldn’t be fun, now, would it ?” she mused out loud, leaning forward ever so slightly, until the pressure against her windpipe was almost unbearable. “i thought you wanted me broken. can’t happen when i’m dead.”

kain let out a huff, brows furrowed. he was obviously dissatisfied with her reaction, but he quickly brushed that off.  ❝ i said i COULD do it. not that i will. i’d let you suffer first. there are SO many ways to do that ! ❞  he sighed in bliss, staring off into blank space above her for a couple of moments before he took a tiny step back, his grip however not loosening even a  bit.  ❝ it seems you’re into pain after all, so that shouldn’t alarm you too much now, right? ❞  his free hand went behind his back, only to pull out a small knife.  ❝ tell me, which body part of yours do you most savior? ❞  truth was, kain wouldn’t do shit inside a damn changing cabin. that was way too unaesthetic & boring. he just wanted to earn some respect, even if he had to return to pretty direct methods.

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anna.

                    she didn’t know what she had been expected, but it wasn’t this. and yet. yet she was backed up against the wall, naked save for a pair of thin panties, his large, warm hand travelling up her side and briefly brushing agaist her rounded breast. it sent a shiver down her spine, one she couldn’t hide, and her green eyes widened when his hand wrapped itself around her delicate neck. “oh, you have no idea of how kinky i am,” she breathed out finally, pushing her throat ever so slightly against his palm. he could definitely feel her heart beating wildly, but she didn’t care. much. “i don’t want you to fuck me.” lies, lies. but he didn’t have to know that. “mind going to get me that bra in the right size now ? it’s pretty. i like it.”

brows rose at her comment. how could she reject him ?? for all kain knew, he was handsome & irresistible. usually he didn’t have many problems with seducing women. apparently, she’d be a bit harder to crack open, but at least that was also what made her so very exciting and different from the rest.  ❝ and people call ME cruel? it’s rather rude to excite me like that for nothing. ❞  he didn’t make a single intention of moving away or letting her go. instead he got even closer, his eyes burning into hers as he took in her scent; sweet & flowery.  ❝ i don’t like the tone you’re using around me lately. ❞  the pressure on her neck deepened lightly, and his former seducive grin now gradually turned into a dark, creepy one. he loved the feeling of her pulse around his fingers, so very fast & traitorous.  ❝ i think i need to remind you... where you’re at. look, one single movement and that pretty little neck of yours i’d just LOVE to cover with bruises would be broken. you want that ? ❞

[drakomalfoyyy-deactivated202006]

sometimes people will disagree with u but that’s ok bc u can just kill them

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anna.

                    the only reply she gave was her raised middle finger, and she let herself fall onto the nearest seat, arms and legs crossed, fingers tapping at her bicep rather impatiently. she only got up when she saw his tall frame reappearing, following him into a changing room… until she saw the ridiculously small bra he was exhibiting. there was silence, for a while, as she stared at it– until she decided to close the door behind them, locking them in the small space, with no care in the world about how that could be seen. instead she just huffed, loud, undoing the zips of her dress and letting it fall to the floor. she stood half-naked in front of him, clad only in a pair of panties, hands on her hips. “does that look like 34A to you ?” she hissed, low, the piercings adorning her nipples catching the hard neon light. “huh ?”

confusion spread throughout kain as she suddenly closed the door, having both of them now incredibly close in a rather small place. if anything, he thought she’d only like him the furthest away possible. confusion switched to SHOCK once she unzipped her dress however, and for a couple of moments, kain was simply speechless. eyes slightly widened, mouth formed into an o-shape he stood there, seemingly frozen on his spot. it took him a few seconds until he was over this shock, and soon a wide signature smirk was visible on his features. he stepped closer & closer, until she was pushed up against the fragile wall hiding them from the other people in the store.   ❝ how kinky. ❞  one of his hands travelled along her side upwards, coming dangerously close to a piercing of hers, until it suddenly found itself wrapped around her throat tightly.  ❝ i hope you DO get how dangerous this is. ❞  his smirk widened, turned into a grin & he shortly exposed his uniquely long canines, his tongue running along them briefly.  ❝ i really wonder - - - how DESPERATE does one have to be to do that?? if you wanted me to fuck you, you simply should’ve asked nicely. though, that’s one interesting way to signal that...   ❞  obviously, he’s gotten the wrong signals from her. but by now he had totally forgotten she only did that to prove something.

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anna.

                    oh, if he only knew. still, anna kept quiet, scowling rather furiously but following him nonetheless– but she couldn’t help herself at his stupid comment about her youthful looks and her supposed lack of curves. she hit his arm with her closed fist, hard, her scowl only deepening. “i’m twenty-two, you shithead ! besides, you never saw me naked, so what do you know about my assets, huh ?” she wasn’t flat at all. she had curves, and nice ones, she just liked flowy dresses she could twirl into. “34C bras, size 2 or 4 for panties. don’t mess up.”

❝ twenty-two ? how adorable. ❞   he didn’t comment further on her words though, simply gave her a warning glance before he scooted off finally, leaving her alone. kain’d have to pay back for her hitting his arm just like that, usually nobody even DARED to do that - - - it was quite infuriating. a dark expression was visible on his face once he returned to the cabins where she waited, his arms filled with various pairs of underwear he personally found rather enticing. most of them lacy, little see-through things, but some of them were also somewhat decent. he even managed to get the correct sizes. except for one. just to anger her, and after he’d put the pieces up on hooks in the changing cabin, he pulled out one bra, a 34A.   ❝ honestly, judging by what i’m able to SEE i’d say that’s your size. ❞ 

[seesgood]

                                                              let it be known,                                                       IT DID NOT BREAK HER. 

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anna.

                    “how about you shut the fuck up already ?” the blonde retorted, obviously not in the mood. family problems was a well-known code in her group of friends, usually meaning greek mythology shit, i’m probably on a quest, don’t panic and don’t look for me. which meant louis wouldn’t go in his usual overprotective drive. at least not right now. with a sigh, she slipped into the store right before the door closed, giving him a frankly suspicious look as soon as he spoke again. “hades, no. you’d be capable of bringing me the kinkiest shit you could find in this store, and i already said no.”

❝ hades ?? you think you're edgy with saying that, huh. kids these days... wait, before i go on & all, you ARE off age, right? ... see, you have a baby-face, i'm not too sure right now. ❞   he rose an eyebrow as he eyed her up & down more thoroughly, his gaze lingering on certain areas a tad longer than needed.   ❝ plus ya ain't got that large.. assets. if you know what i mean. ❞  he winked at her before raising his hands in defense,   ❝ KIDDING! kidding, don't freak out. i'll get you something decent. WAIT FOR ME. ❞   the tone he used made sure he wouldn't accept any complains about it. it might draw unnecessary attention towards them, and the last thing he wanted was being found out.

[perseannabeth]

My two moods while reading my writing:

This is actually very good! Did I really write this?

This is absolutely the biggest shit I have ever read, what the fuck, I can’t write, I suck at life

[thedevilsbartender-deactivated2]

please DO NOT assume that just because my character is doing something that i as the writer

approve of it

am romanticizing it

have a kink with regard to it

think it is okay for anyone to ever do ever

because sometimes my character does things that I absolutely cringe at and which are almost painful to write.

but my writing a villain does not make me a villian

understand that it is fiction and I do not condone the wrong actions that sometimes are written out on my blog for in-character purposes.

[labors]

i have no obligation to move on. i do not need to forgive and forget. my anger is valid. shut the hell up

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stranger.

Catching sight of a familiar-looking profile getting into a cab, he had to jog to catch up. Slipping into the seat next to him, he told the driver, “It’s fine. We’re together.”

He leaned his head back for a moment to catch his breath from the mad dash here, then he glanced at the man next to him. “Wait, you’re not- I am sorry, I thought you were someone else.”

now kain usually wouldn't really use public transportation services for him to move from A to B. but sometimes he was a lazy person, and cabs were normally a quiet and at least somewhat relaxing way to travel. to say kain was surprised when suddenly an unfamiliar figure got in, telling the driver that they were together would be an understatement.

kain had no idea who this person was - - did he know ?   was this a setup for something? kain eyed the stranger suspiciously, trying to figure him out until he said he mistook him.   ❝ huh. thought i was someone else? ❞   he just repeated, brows raising.   ❝ . . . where you heading, though? i assume your destination is not the same as mine.❞

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stranger.

His question and even moreso, his SMILE, caught her by surprise.  Because she didn’t expect people to give a shit and when they did, there was always a reason.  There was always a reason and that reason was never for her own good.  Because the real truth of the world was that people were out for themselves.  Themselves or for their own delusions.

“I dislike most people,” Emma said after a moment as though avoiding having to answer the question at all.  It wasn’t necessarily a lie, though, either.  What was the use in pretending?  She didn’t care enough to put on a show, pretend she was fine, pretend she was somehow a friendly, stable person.

❝ that makes two of us. most people are just so very, VERY bad for us. ❞   kain said, faking empathy as he let out a sigh. something about her was off, she seemed downright terrified for a minute there. he was used to seing people like that - - - but rather when HE was the cause for it and not something, or someone else.    ❝ i don't mean to bother you or something. it just saddens me to see you so freaked out because someone did something so bad to you, apparently. i thought i'd ask because you didn't look too well. you don't need to talk to me about it though, simply consider me as someone who CARES.  ❞