I've been struggling with executive dysfunction all my life, and let me tell you: the hardest part about my day while I was still in the standard school system was understanding that
1) not only do I have to get up earlier than my chemistry and get ready adequately enough to be present and neurotypically pleasing
2) I'd have to go somewhere for 6+ hours whether or not I had the energy or will to
3) I'd have to do classes I had practically no control over nor liked or cared about (that were nearly all boring and watched over by a teacher)
4) I'd have to do this 5 times a week
5) In order to keep up, I'd have to expend at least 3 hours of my time doing homework and only have maybe an hour to myself including lunch.
And that wasn't even the bulk of it.
It STILL surprises me how so many people get through the days like that.
School might not have given me my ADHD or my executive dysfunction, but I sure as hell don't suffer even half as much now as I did from being in that system.
Thankfully, I transferred to something more at home that accommodates me better, but I still struggle a lot knowing most of the work I do is practically useless to me and my life goals + my brain will only dedicate max an hour to it.
The standard school system pounds the mindstate into you that if you're not working yourself to the bone, you're not even really a person compared to the masses who can. And yea, of course that's gonna fuck you up, especially as a kid. It's not realistic, not for us anyway.
Now I struggle with studying the things I know I want to. It's put a whole boring damper on learning new things for me. I don't LIKE learning anymore. I don't LIKE learning anatomy for my art or writing creative stories because I was taught that learning HAD TO BE INSTITUTIONALIZED and HAD TO BE BORING and HAD TO GO AGAINST MY BRAIN.
I only draw to vent now. I only write for essays and assignments. I don't study psychology anymore because I was told my own was just me being dramatic, and that it doesn't pay well as a field to go into, so now I find it embarrassing. I don't even like learning about the lore of my favorite video games anymore.
The standard high school system has left me a husk of what used to be child-like wonder and of course I'm pissed off about it.
It traumatized me, and I'm so glad I left, even if I'm still struggling against myself and relearning what it means to love things passionately again (and adapting that to how my ADHD affects my attention span).