fuck my chungus life

anon stripper & tumblr vet just looking for somewhere to vent

[tiredstripper]

my chud bf is addicted to watching tiktok slop fuck my chungus life

[tiredstripper]

i feel like such a deadbeat chud when i'm too sick to go to work...just sitting on the couch, getting high and snacking while watching youtube. i hate missing out on money but i just can't get myself to do it tn. i feel guilty staying home for some reason, even tho that's the best thing to do when you're sick

[tiredstripper]

do y'all remember the guy on reddit who randomly tried heroin for fun & got fully addicted to it for like over a year? that's me with online gambling i fear

[tiredstripper]

i love my bf but i need to have more space from him in the next place we move to. i'd love my own bedroom, just somewhere that's truly mine. my own bathroom would be nice too. so at least 3 bds 2 ba, which would be much more that what we're paying now in rent. we can afford it but i'm still nervous abt our expenses going up when the time comes. i think i'll always worry abt money, no matter how much of it i get

[tiredstripper]

i kinda got scammed by my state's lottery app but it was totally my fault i feel like a chud

[tiredstripper]

the line on my stonks is going down instead of up. fuck my chungus life i wanna gamble abt this

[tiredstripper]

i just need a place where i can yell into the void and no one in my real life can see. so here i am, back on tumblr dot com where my social media brainrot first began.

i'm now 25, which i think is the age where you start seriously questioning your whole life and future and relationships and sense of self. basically what i'm saying is that i feel directionless & i'm gonna use this blog to try and sort out these thoughts and feelings i have.

i'm also a stripper of over 7 years. yes, that means i started at 18 and while i'll never regret doing it, it does kinda change you on a fundamental level. i actually do enjoy it most of the time, and not just for the money. you have a lot of freedom and you can meet a lot of interesting ppl, for better or worse. but stripping is very much still a job, and all jobs get boring & monotonous at some point. i have a lot of conflicting feelings about this and the sex work industry in general so i'm gonna post about them on here.

that's pretty much it, i don't expect anyone to even read this, i just need to articulate my thoughts on a platform more tangible than my notes app. ok bye for now diary