feel Free

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trying to play Free Fallin on the xylophone he got for me

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Thinking about school and all the work I have to finish TODAY because I'm a waste of space who couldn't get it together and work on more of it earlier is intensely crippling and I'm getting the same old end of semester dread that I'm going to fail my courses. I probably (read: hopefully) won't fail but I do know my GPA is going to take a hit and I wish that didn't matter! But it does! But I can't even distract myself from the dread of school with thinking about the larger picture because the world is terrifying and I feel completely helpless and useless to change anything. But is school even going to matter in four years? One? Everything could implode in January, who knows! And I know those types of concerns have a basis but I don't know how much I'm blowing it out of proportion maybe. I don't know how to help anything, not even myself, but lately I've literally been thinking a lot about the merits of school and if it will matter because if the world is ending I want to close to the people I love for as long as possible instead of working at a degree that won't mean anything if the world goes to hell, politically, environmentally, WHATEVER, and I know this probably sounds insane and people would tell me to calm down but I have to write it down anyway because if it stays too much in my head I'm going to lose it even more! I'm embarrassing. At least there's one constant.

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Not to sound too emo but why does your mouth taste like it's full of blood when you start crying?? Assuming that is a thing that happens to everyone? Why don't they teach you more about THAT kind of stuff in biology class?

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when your boyfriend's roommate is looking out for you and sends snaps of your boyfriend being cute as heck

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(from last night)

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why isn't there a butterfly emoji

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I redid the pink and it’ll probably fade again next time I shower, but that’s okay

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wrapping my head in saran wrap is my favorite part of the dyeing process because it makes me feel like a weird alien princess

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Daaad

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i came across a collection of pictures i took of my first car’s dashboard i’m sure there are more out there but they may be lost to me i cried when i found these

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I don't really know how to say much about anything lately in a way that does it justice Last night I had a dream I don't remember much of but at the end you hugged me and it was a lot and after I woke up it still took me a long time to figure out that it hadn't actually happened But maybe if I am lucky it will actually happen

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(from last night)

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yeah because I'm a total loser who made a shortcut for it in my phone but hey ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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Untitled (This is It. The Big Time) (ink on paper, 1986) – Raymond Pettibon

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cheers to submitting assignments five minutes before they’re due