stoner remus and reader where he sees someone slip something in her drink at a party and that’s how it becomes public knowledge bc he absolutely loses it 🫢
omgggg!! This is SUCH a perfect suggestion!! Thank you sm!! I hope you'll enjoy (it may be a little long, but it's worth it I promise! Ily). Also sorry I disappeared, I know I kept you waiting for too long, I hope you haven’t forgot about me 😭😭😭
I'm gonna take care of you-Remus Lupin x reader
pairing; fem!reader x dealer!remus
cw; angst, spiked drink, heavily intoxicated reader, jealous!remus; protective!remus, dealer!remus
masterlist; dealer!remus masterlist
Your relationship with Remus was at a dead end. You could feel it. After the last party he got suspended again, they caught him with some stuff in the parking lot, it was pretty bad. You tried to act natural as you subtly listened to his friends talk about it in class, he was grounded, his parents were thinking about sending him to a boarding school.
You would dig your nails in your pencil, squeezing your eyes shut, as a deep sorrow grew in your stomach. Luckily enough, his parents decided to give him one last chance, or at least that's what you heard, but since he had gotten back, nothing was the same.
He was always stressed and gloomy, and you could never catch him alone to talk, cause he would always be surrounded by his friends, and when he wasn't he looked unapproachable. You also thought about texting him, but you were too afraid that he wouldn't answer, you didn't think you could've handle it.
And he also wasn't exactly acting like he was missing you. In fact, you spoke like two times after he came back, about stupid stuff, and he looked like he wasn't interested in any more than that. So you just tried to to accept it, to get over it.
You did try not to think about it, convincing yourself that it was probably for the better, that it wasn't meant to be. But the truth was that you missed him desperately, and his absence made you realize that you actually wished for more. It made you realize that you really liked him, that you wished you had dated him.
But now it was too late, and it seemed impossible. You forced yourself to get over it, to stop thinking about it, and to go on with your life, to just forget it all.
So, when the next party came, the last before Christmas break, you agreed to go, even if you didn't feel like it, even if it felt pointless now, nothing really mattered, not even stupid school parties. The same you'd once waited for in excitement.
You and your friends arrived late, and already a little tipsy. You had decided that you'd have fun either way, and you promised yourself not to look for Remus, in any circumstance. But you knew, secretly, that there was that little hope gleaming from the back of your head. That hope of him coming up to you, of him looking for you.
Your friends dragged you to the dance floor, and in no time you were sweating and dancing to the music, your eyes closed, hoping that all that noise would stop your thoughts. A couple of songs later, you decided to have another drink. You went outside to the keg of beer, to pour yourself one, but what you saw made you stop in your tracks.
Remus was leaning on a wall next to the pool, smoking, more handsome than ever, while talking to Emily. 'Em. The girl from your english class. The one he wasn't apparently flirting with that time. She was talking to him about something, he was listening, a faint smile painted his lips from time to time. Your heart dropped to your stomach.
You felt like throwing up, but instead you just went inside, to the kitchen, grabbing the vodka from the counter and pouring yourself a big shot. You took it fast, swallowing your tears with it. Okay, there it was, it was over. You said to yourself while trying to regulate your breath.
You wanted to have fun. You had enough. So you made yourself a drink and went to the dance floor again. You went to your friends, hugging them, dancing with them. When suddenly you heard a familiar voice in your ear. "Y/n" you turned, it was your ex. You sighed "Hey".
"I wanted to say sorry for the last time" you shrugged, while continuing to dance "it's fine, it's been weeks now" your ex smiled "I'm happy that it's all good" you nodded, while taking a long sip of your drink "can we talk in a more private space?" he shouted in your ear, trying to make himself heard through the music.
You really didn't want to, but Remus hated him, and for some reason that made you interested in doing it. You shrugged "sure, let's go" you said, before following him outside. "Come, let's go sit there" you suggested, pointing at the chairs in the garden, that happened to be just in front of Remus and that fucking Emily.
You sat there, choosing the chair from where you could see Remus better, making sure he would be able to see you too. "So? what is it?" you said while your ex was sitting, "it's that after that night..." he started, you lighted a cigarette, cause you needed it, and cause you knew your ex hated when you smoked "could you not?" he said in fact, half jokingly.
You bumped his arm "come on, don't be a lame" he chuckled "okay...so, anyway, I guess that what I'm trying to say is that I'm sorry, and I hope we can stay friends" you nodded, while looking subtly at Remus. Your breath hitched, he did notice you.
For how long? Your heart rate started increasing. He was nodding to something she was saying, but you could see, his hazel eyes getting darker, his jawline locking for the gritted teeth. You bit your lip, trying to hold back a smile. You took a couple more puffs of your cigarette, your gaze fixated on Remus, who was now looking at his feet. What is it? Can't handle it?
"Alright" you said, throwing the cig away "I'm glad it's all settled, now let's go back inside". You got up, walking towards the party. You couldn't stand that douchebag no more, and also you had just discovered that Remus was still interested in you. You knew that face of him too well, he was jealous.
Maybe you could tease him...just to see if- "Y/n!" your ex was calling you, you turned, he jogged to you "don't forget this" he said, handing you your drink, the one you left outside "thanks!" you said. If you wanted to tease Remus, you needed to be a lot more drunker, so, as you were going inside, you shot up a long sip of the drink, stopping just to gasp for air.
You spotted your friends in the crowd, and you were going up to them when you suddenly heard someone shout. "You fucking asshole" you turned confused, it was Remus' voice, and he was storming behind you. But it wasn't you he was speaking to, he was looking at someone in the crowd.
You followed his gaze, he was looking at your ex. He went up to him, suddenly angry, more than you had ever seen him. Your heart started pounding in your chest, you were getting scared. "What the fuck do you want?" your ex scoffed, rolling his eyes at Remus.
But before he could say anything Remus was tugging him from the collar. At that point everyone had noticed. You got closer to him, confused, scared, and you saw that your friends had gotten closer too. "What the fuck did you do?" Remus groaned "I saw you" your ex pushed him away "what the fuck is your problem?"
Remus pulled him from his shirt again, only this time he slammed him into the wall. You looked at your friends, they were whispering to each other wide-eyed, gasping, everyone suddenly worried about what was happening.
Your legs felt weak, you were sweating, you were feeling nauseous, was that a shock reaction or something? You tried composing yourself, trying to remain calm, to not intervene, nobody knew about you and him. You couldn't do anything.
"What the fuck did you put in her drink?" you frowned in confusion. What drink? Your ex went pale all of a sudden "what?" Remus got closer to him, three centimeters from his face "I fucking saw you" "I don’t even know what the fuck you’re talking about" your ex looked around, his face flushed again, then he looked at Remus, lips curved into a smug smile "and also, mind your fucking business".
It was a matter of seconds, and your ex was on the floor. Remus had punched him. You suddenly felt like fainting, as you saw a stripe of red blood dripping from your ex's nose, and maybe also lips, drowning his teeth in red. You almost threw up right there and then. What the fuck was going on?
"Guys, fucking chill" the host of the party intervened, pulling Remus aside, as one of your friends helped your ex up. Someone had stopped the music, and you now felt like crying. Remus was red, his hair messy "he fucking spiked y/n's drink!" he shouted, as the party host was trying to drag him outside.
Wait, what? That couldn't be. Right? You looked at your friends, suddenly looking at you worried, trying to get to you through the crowd. "You did what?" you murmured, your heart in your throat, your hands suddenly shaking.
Nobody heard you, as two of your friends went to your ex suddenly livid, his face red with embarrassment, and the people around you started to grab you, touch you, trying to assure you were alright.
Their voices in your ears were mixing together in a muffled and distant sound, your vision was blurry and you felt like you couldn't breathe, panic taking over you as the realization of what happened started hitting, and your limbs started feeling heavy.
You were heartbroken, scared, confused. You felt ill, and the people around you were only making it worse by touching you and speaking all over each other, their words incomprehensible in your ears. You tried to speak, you wanted them to back off, but the words were coming off slurred.
You felt your ears ringing, your tears blurring your vision, as waves of heat made you sweaty and nauseous. In that overwhelming confusion, you finally heard a familiar voice. "Back the fuck away from her" Remus yelled suddenly, to your ex? To the crowd? You couldn't say that, cause everything was blurry, and his tall frame was only a distant shadow "stop touching her!".
"Let her breathe!" he continued angrily, and as his frame got closer to you, the crowd finally began moving away slowly, making room for you to breathe, your heart was still pounding, but you finally felt like you could breathe again.
"I swear none of you dickheads have any idea of what you’re doing" Remus mumbled angrily, going up to you. He suddenly wrapped his hands around you, holding you up. Your heart skipped a beat and as his familiar scent enveloped you after what felt like a million years, and his warmth surrounded you, you felt so relieved that your legs gave in, and tears started spilling from your eyes.
Remus took your face into his cold hands, cooling your flushed skin off, making you feel better. You were light-headed, confused, hazy and sleepy. You tried moving your head, it felt like it was made of stone but you could see the blurred crowd surrounding you two from the corner of your eye.
A single clear thought lit in the confused fog of your brain for a moment "Now they'll know". But the thought disappeared as fast as it came, as Remus reassuring voice filled your ears "Baby look at me" your heart filled with warmth, a warmth that felt so liquid and narcotic in that confusing moment. You missed him so much, you couldn't stop tearing up.
"Hey, look at me" he repeated, wiping your tears with his thumbs, his fingers gently trying to force your eyes open. As your lids fluttered open you tried focusing your gaze on him, blinking slowly
"Do you see me?" your vision un blurred slightly on his familiar features, his furrowed brows, his hazel eyes, the slightly crooked bridge of his nose covered in freckles. He was looking at you worriedly, his eyes focused on your face, studying your reactions.
You tried answering him, but your tongue felt so heavy, and words weren't coming out, so you tried nodding slightly. "Good girl" Remus sighed, slightly relieved. "Do you hear me?" the sound was still muffled, but you heard his voice, you nodded again, slowly "how are you doing baby?" he continued, you tried shrugging, but everything felt heavy, so maybe you didn't really do it.
You couldn't keep your eyes open, and with Remus holding you, you couldn't fight against the haze, your legs feeling like jello, your mind clouded up in confusion. "I might need you to walk" he said gently “do you think you’ll be able to do that for me?”.
You shook your head slowly, cause your eyes felt like they were glued together, your legs were so heavy, and the only thing you could let out from your lips was a desperate sigh. Remus took you by the hips, holding you steadily "Okay baby, don't worry, I've got you" he murmured in your ear.
You finally let go, and as you collapsed in his arms a wave of relief washed over you. "Hey, do you need any help?" you heard someone say. "No, I've got it" he said, picking you up in his arms. He wrapped your arms around his neck, and you rested your head in the crook of it, taking in his scent, feeling safe in his hold.
"Hey, wait, where are you taking her?" you heard your friend's voice in the distance, one of them was probably going up to him. "She's gonna be safe, I swear, we're together" in all that confusion, you still felt your heart skipping a beat. "What?" your friend exclaimed in disbelief "yeah, I'm gonna take care of her, I promise" he simply responded "maybe we should just take her home" she tried again "no, trust me, let me handle this".
You wished you could just tell her that it was all okay, to just let you go, but you didn't know how, you couldn't speak, you couldn't even think really, and for a moment you actually thought that maybe you were imagining everything, that you were still there by the pool, maybe passed out.
You blacked out, and when you came to your senses again you felt Remus carrying you, the cold breeze against your skin made you think you were probably outside, the noise of the party a distant sound.
You didn't know how Remus convinced your friend, maybe it was something he said to her, maybe it was the fact that she always suspected something, or that you seemed actually relieved in his arms. But he apparently convinced her, cause he was now gently placing you on the passenger's seat of his car.
The scent of it was so familiar, it was there that it all began after all, and you sighed in relief, even if you felt like you were in a feverish coma, even if you felt like you were trapped in your body, unable to do anything, almost like you were in a sleep paralysis.
Remus started driving, his hand holding yours reassuringly. "You did so well for me" he said gently, stroking your hand with his thumb "are you still there?" you nodded slightly "it's okay, you're safe, I'm gonna take care of you" he whispered.
You kept slipping in and out of consciousness during the car ride, your lids sometimes opening slightly, the blurred road glowing with car headlights. When Remus picked you up again, you suddenly felt a sense of nausea take over you.
You gagged, but nothing came out. "Feeling nauseous?" you nodded slowly, "good, cause we're gonna have to make you throw up" you didn't register his words, and you slipped out of consciousness again.
When you came to your senses again, Remus was holding your hair in a ponytail, your cheek pressed to the cold material of what you would later register as the toilet seat. "Okay baby, I'm gonna help you out okay?" you blinked, unable to do anything. You suddenly felt his slender fingers in your mouth.
You whined, suddenly panicking "I know baby, I'm gonna make it quick, I promise" and as the tip of his fingers brushed the back of your throat, you felt a wave of bile coming up. Remus removed his hand just before you threw it all up.
"Good girl" he said, another wave came out "you're doing so good" he repeated, his cold hand pressed on your forehead, his other hand keeping your hair out of your face. You started tearing up again.
You gagged a couple of times, but nothing was coming out anymore, so you rested your face on the toilet seat again, your whole body shaking. "You're the bravest girl ever" he whispered, wiping your tears, caressing your back reassuringly. You felt slightly better, but you were so tired, you couldn't even stand or open your eyes.
"Let's get you cleaned up" he said, caressing your cheek. You let him force a toothbrush in your mouth, he brushed your teeth gently, the taste of mint was nice and refreshing. He then washed your face, cleaning your eyes from the clumped up mascara, the grey tears-stained cheeks. The soap was soft and foamy, the scent of it familiar and soothing.
You blacked out again, and then Remus was placing you gently on a soft bed, you tried to open your eyes. You were surrounded by warm-toned fairy lights, blurry and comforting. You knew it from the scent, you were in Remus' bedroom, who was now taking off your shoes.
"Come on darling, one last effort for Rem" he helped you sit up. "We're gonna get you changed to something comfier" he said tugging your sweater off. You tried raising your arms, but they felt so heavy "don't worry, I got you" he said taking off your sweater and tugging your shorts and tights down.
You heard him open his closet, then rummaging through his clothes. You couldn't open your eyes, and you tried fighting the dizziness, which was making you unable to sit still. You shivered, feeling suddenly cold in your underwear.
"Are you cold love?" Remus asked, as he put you in what you believed to be a t-shirt. You nodded, or you thought you did, cause your body wasn't really responding to commands. "I know, but you're being so good for me" your cold feet were suddenly wrapped in warm soft wool as Remus slipped them into a pair of fuzzy socks.
Remus helped you lay down again, moving you on your side, he brushed the hair out from your face, his touch was still so familiar to you. He pressed two fingers against your wrist, then against your throat, counting, for what seemed to be hours.
You heard him sigh, half relieved "you really scared the shit out of me" he whispered, caressing your cheek, as he finally covered you with the comforter. He stood up, but you tugged him by the sleeve, "what is it darling?" with all the strength you had left you fluttered your lids open.
He was towering over you, the lines of his frame blurred and foggy. You couldn't speak, so you just looked at him in desperation, a whiny sound the only thing you were able to let out. Please, don't leave me. Not again. Remus gaze softened, he lowered himself to you, and he kissed your temple gently.
"I'm not going anywhere" he whispered in your ear before standing up again "just let me get ready and I'll be right back" he said, stroking your hair. You closed your eyes again, reassured. While waiting for him the dizziness took over you completely, making you fall into a semi-sleep.
You woke up again as he finally laid down next to you under the comforter, his warm body against yours. "C'mere love" he said wrapping his arms around you. You felt your heart flutter as you found your place again against his smooth and warm torso, his flannel boxers brushing against your thighs.
"Everything's fine" he said stroking your hair gently, "now get some sleep" he whispered, and as you felt his breath against yours, you could finally pass out, feeling safe in his embrace, your heart filled with joy, besides everything.
You opened your eyes in a dream-like state, thinking about Remus, a feeling of happiness lingering. Did you dream him again? As you gained full consciousness a sudden panic took over you. You looked around. Where were you? What time was it? What had happened? You were hot, and you couldn't move.
You started to breathe heavily, you were confused, you felt strange, dizzy, sweaty. You sat up, panicking. "Hey, hey, baby, it's okay" Remus' voice made your heart drop. It wasn't a dream.
You turned to him, he was sitting up, rubbing his eyes. He placed a hand on your back, rubbing gently "calm down" you tried regulating your breath "good girl, breathe for me, everything's fine, you're safe".
When you finally calmed down, you tried remembering the night before, but everything was blurred out, some individual scenes played in your head, but they were confused, with black parts in between each other.
You probably looked confused and scared, cause Remus started reassuring you "Don't be scared, it's normal to not remember anything" "what happened?" you said, your voice feeling weird, speaking was weirdly tiring. "Why don't you lay down again, and I tell you everything that happened?".
You did as he said. And he told you everything. He told you about how he saw you at the party, how he saw that your ex spiked your drink, but when he tried to warn you it was too late. He told you about the fight, how you blacked out.
He told you how he talked with your friends, how he told them everything, how they couldn't believe it. How did he get them to trust him, giving them his number, explaining to them he knew how to handle this type of intoxication. He told you how he made them text your mom that you were staying at theirs, so that she wouldn't be worried.
He told you how he took care of everything, how he made you throw up, how he made sure your vitals were good, how he wanted to take you to the hospital, but luckily you only had one sip from the drink, and you could recover by sleeping it off.
You listened to him, growing more and more shocked as you put all the pieces together. You were speechless. You never thought your ex could ever do that. You tried not to think about what would've happened if Remus wasn't there for you.
You sat up, a sharp pain in your temple making you lightheaded, Remus promptly wrapped an arm around your shoulder, helping you adjust "you'll feel out of shape for a bit, don't move too quickly".
You looked at him, and something about his face, his room, the way he was being so caring made you burst into tears. Remus looked stunned, then worried, then sorry, as he hugged you tightly. Stroking your hair gently, rubbing your back, reassuring you with his whispers "Shhh, it's fine, I know darling, I know."
"It's just-" you sobbed "it's just that-what if-what if you weren't there" Remus hugged you impossibly tighter "I know. I know love. But I was, okay? I was." You sighed "and him-i could've never imagined that he-" Remus stroked your hair "he wanted to-" you couldn't even say it.
"Hey, look at me" he said breaking the embrace, you kept sobbing, unable to stop "look at me" he took your face in his hands "I handled everything, you're fine, he'll never come close to you again" you frowned in confusion "what? how?"
"First of all everybody knows what he did, so he would never try again, and also.." "what?" Remus sighed "my boys handled it, okay?" you frowned "wait...how?" "he'll never ever look at you again, I promise. I swear" you sighed in relief, you didn't want to know anything else, they could've beaten him to death and you wouldn't feel sorry. Not anymore.
"You scared me so bad" he said, caressing your cheek "my poor baby, you wouldn't speak, you wouldn't open your eyes, you were gone" you didn't know what to say, everything was so weird, just the night before you were convinced everything between you was over.
"I've seen a ton of people get roofied, it's always scary, but with you..." your eyes locked together "my heart almost stopped, seeing you like that" you lowered your gaze, your cheeks flushing with embarrassment.
"I was so scared to lose you" you bit your lip, then looked at him again. "You were?" "of course I was" you clenched your fists, then you looked at him again "then why did you acted like that...all these weeks" Remus sighed "Okay, I was excepting it...I deserve it, I know".
"Just give me a reason" "y/n...I screwed up. After everything went down with my parents and all, they gave me no choice but to stop with everything...selling stuff, skipping lessons, getting distracted..." you dug your nails in your hand "so, that's what I was, a distraction"
"No! No, please, don't think that" he said, his hands on your shoulders "I just wanted to keep them as calm as I could, so they wouldn't kick me out, and in the rush of doing so, I treated you as some bad habit of mine"
"But your parents forgave you, am I right? You smoke again, you still sell. Is either that, or you were just hanging out with 'Em yesterday". Remus sighed "you're right, they're not mad anymore, they haven't been for a while"
You shrugged "so you couldn't text me?" "You're right, I thought about it, I swear, every single day, but I felt like too much time had passed, I was scared to text you and discover that you had moved on, I don't think I could've handled it, so I just convinced myself that it was for the better, and all that crap".
You nodded slowly. All that time, you guys were thinking about the same thing, scared about the same stuff. And now? "So?" "So.." he said "I think we can pick up where we left off" he smirked. You could hardly contain your excitement "and I also think we don't have too much choice at the moment" he giggled.
"What do you mean?" Remus shrugged "well, yesterday I flipped out...like I lost it..badly, in front of everyone, so...I wasn't very subtle..about how I feel, about you" you turned red, as you remembered, him, your friends, everything "...my friends..they all know" Remus squinted "yeah...sorry about that..I know you wanted to keep it private...and everything"
You laughed "Rem, seriously, I couldn't care less, I owe you everything!" you exclaimed, throwing your arms at his neck. Remus laughed wholeheartedly, lighting up your heart. You rolled on the bed, entangled in his embrace, giggling and kissing his face, nose, eyes, everything.
"It was so worth it" he mumbled against your lips "what?" "everything. every single thing I did for you since we met" you felt your heart filling with love "the same goes for me" you whispered.
"What time is it?" you asked, suddenly worried "like noon" "I have to go!" you said, trying to stand up, Remus pulled you back in his arms "nu huh, you're not going anywhere" "but my mom-" "is all settled, she thinks you're at your girlfriends' house, she probably thinks you guys are still asleep"
You laid down again, smiling relieved "so what do we do know?" you teased "well, first of all we're getting you some breakfast" he said, tickling you jokingly "and then, I get to enjoy some time with my new girlfriend" he said, kissing you on the cheek.
Girlfriend. Your heart was probably about to explode.
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