sarah ࣪ ִֶָ☾. 🕸️

aspiring art student trying to get her shit together.

[feathabrain]

[to-your-left]

sarah u low key a pick me and not a girls girl but we love you <333

ok ouch?! not sure what i did to warrant the label of “pick me” … but thanks anon, i suppose?

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

honestly bear are you and nikki actually even happy? i’m not trying to pry into your relationship dude, but you can’t deny she’s been super fucking weird since you got together. ian notices it too. i just think you need to make sure she’s not taking advantage of you, you know.

—sarah @to-your-left

Yeah, we are. She's just having personal issues right now. I need to be there for her is all. At least you aren't as bad as him with the prying, though. Ian's literally coming over to ou-... my house to talk about it like it's a fucking intervention.

[to-your-left]

ian’s a dick but i can’t blame him here. it’s weird bear, like seriously fucking weird how possessive nikki’s been. feels like she’s going to rip my head off or something if i even look at you for a second too long.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

We can have another hangout that's just us. We can get breakfast and shit again.

[to-your-left]

ok, yeah, *sarah cracks a cheeky smile,* just don’t tell nikki or she might freak and like, suffocate me in my sleep tonight or something. *she laughs, different from her usual laugh. that girlish sort of giggle that she only seems to reserve for bear.*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Don't worry, I think I could hold her back.

Bear grins. Has Sarah always looked this... pretty?

Maybe hanging out with me will give you some good luck with college. Raise your morale and shit.

[to-your-left]

oh it better, no way i’m putting my life on the line hanging out with our borderline-psychotic-break friend’s boyfriend for nothing, *sarah playfully nudges bear, smile still plastered across her face. it’s difficult to ignore the warmth that blooms against her cheeks when bear’s eyes linger on her for just a moment too long, but she tries to brush it off—even though nikki hasn’t been herself lately, sarah knows it’s too fucked up to try anything with bear right now, regardless of her own feelings.*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

No promises, but I'll try my best.

He gently shoulder checks Sarah, leaning against her slightly.

Have you applied to Luther yet? Heard you talking about it.

[to-your-left]

yeah, the last one i’m waiting on a response from. guess it’s luther or bust now. i’m surprised you even remembered with all the shit you’ve got going on lately. *sarah laughs dryly, a futile attempt to mask her anxiety about getting in*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Why wouldn't I remember? It's important to you. You're... important to me. So I'd obviously care.

He shrugs and sheepishly looks askance.

[to-your-left]

you’re a good friend bear, *her expression softens, and there’s a hint of longing in her tone— the word “friend” feeling heavy as it leaves her tongue—but she promptly brushes it off with her typical sarcasm.* look, if i make it big tattooing i’ll make sure to remember you, maybe even give you a free tattoo—just no “nikki freeman” inked across your heart, or like, a portrait of her face, or some shit got it? i don’t do that corny garbage.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Maybe I'd let you choose what to tattoo on me. I trust you to not, like... put a dick on my arm or something.

Bear shrugs. He pats her back, hand resting between he shoulders for a bit too long before he pulls away.

You'll get in. If you don't, it's their loss.

[to-your-left]

your faith in me is reassuring. maybe a bit stupid, but sweet. *when he rests his hand along her back she averts her gaze momentarily—an attempt to wipe the giddy smile off her face before bear can notice.* thanks for actually giving a shit, bear. i might even miss you guys a bit if i actually do get in.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Wow. You wound me.

He clutches his chest, turning his head away.

How could you say that my believing in you is stupid? You're an asshole. But you don't mean to thank me for wanting you to succeed. And, shit, it won't be the same without you. If you don't keep in touch, I might actually die.

[to-your-left]

*she lets out a laugh, playfully batting at bear’s arm* oh shut up! quit messing with me. you’re so dramatic. besides, you’ll have nikki to keep you company, so don’t sweat it too much. *she doesn’t say it aloud, but she’s already imagining life without seeing him (and the rest of their friends) everyday the way she does now. she’ll feel bear’s absence most, that’s for sure.*

[to-your-left]

yo, Sarah, can we chat?

@iaintsayinshesagolddigger

-ian

yeah, what’s up ian. if you’re just looking to complain more about missing hooking up with nikki, forget it. i don’t wanna hear about it anymore. go find another girl to stick it in .. and preferably one whose not a part of the friend group this time.

[iaintsayinshesagolddigger]

geez Sarah, why don’t you tell me how you really feel next time. no, it’s not about that. look, i know you and bear have been spending time together recently. i’m not about to shit on you for that- you do what you want, you’re a free agent. it just seems like both of them are having a mental break or something and we’re the only ones who are seeing it happen. i mean, i guess other than your dad. he emailed me, by the way. which was weird.

[to-your-left]

i know, but you’ve seen how defensive the both of them get whenever you bring up any shit about their newfound “romance”. *she rolls her eyes, the word “romance” leaving a bitter taste in her mouth.* i don’t see what else we can really do other than hope whatever fucked codependent relationship they’ve got going on crashes and burns soon. i want things to go back to normal just as much as you do.

[iaintsayinshesagolddigger]

remember when Nikki fuckin friendzoned him when talking to you at work? called him her brother or whatever, i don’t remember. it just seemed like it wasn’t going to happen.

we talked last wednesday too and really i don’t think he would’ve had the guts to ask her out. even if he did, she wouldn’t go for it.

honestly, i think she’s trying to get back at me for something. it’s the only thing that makes sense to me. she’s using him to make me jealous.

[to-your-left]

i remember her mentioning it once during our shift, i didn’t think too much about it at the time .. but nikki being all head over heels for bear out of fucking nowhere just like the flip of a switch? it just doesn’t sit right with me. it’s weird. maybe you’re onto something. kinda looks to me like she’s taking advantage of him.

[iaintsayinshesagolddigger]

yeah, i mean i don’t know how much she’s taking advantage of him beyond his stupidly obvious crush on her, but he’s obviously not going to say anything.

look, don’t tell him i said any of this, okay? i don’t want him getting all weird on me, I’m gonna try and talk to him. maybe you could talk to Nikki or something. if she’s mad at me, i won’t get anywhere with her.

and maybe don’t do anything stupid with Bear either. he’s being weird as hell.

[to-your-left]

what the hell are you trying to get at? *sarah shoots ian a sharp look, clearly vexed by his vague implication about her and bear.* i’ll try to reach out to nikki, but it’s not like she’ll even respond unless bear is somehow involved. i’ve been steering clear of her lately if we’re being honest. she’s been a total fucking nutjob lately.

[iaintsayinshesagolddigger]

ok, calm down. geez i’m not… i’m not getting at anything just- don’t do anything i wouldn’t do. don’t go to his house, don’t try to meet up. if Nikki’s acting psycho, either she’s having some kind of mental break and she might hurt someone, or she’s trying to get back at me for some reason, and who knows what kind of manipulative bullshit she’ll try and pull.

to be honest this is so not Nikki i don’t know what the fuck to think. there are about a million red flags going off right now.

maybe-

maybe try to just get a feel for where she’s at right now. like- if she’s mad, or having some kind of crisis, or somehow actually in fucking love with Bear.

i’m kind of freaked out.

*he seems more concerned than he’s letting on, but a bit embarrassed that he’s concerned for them at all*

[to-your-left]

there’s just no way she’s that into bear all of a sudden like this. something is for sure wrong with her. i don’t know what it is but i’m concerned about both of them. i mean i don’t know how bear even feels safe around her right now with how unhinged she’s been. just keep an eye out on her, and bear too.

[nikkifreemans]

the dumbest person you know is saying nikki was possessed by sandy

[to-your-left]

yo, Sarah, can we chat?

@iaintsayinshesagolddigger

-ian

yeah, what’s up ian. if you’re just looking to complain more about missing hooking up with nikki, forget it. i don’t wanna hear about it anymore. go find another girl to stick it in .. and preferably one whose not a part of the friend group this time.

[iaintsayinshesagolddigger]

geez Sarah, why don’t you tell me how you really feel next time. no, it’s not about that. look, i know you and bear have been spending time together recently. i’m not about to shit on you for that- you do what you want, you’re a free agent. it just seems like both of them are having a mental break or something and we’re the only ones who are seeing it happen. i mean, i guess other than your dad. he emailed me, by the way. which was weird.

[to-your-left]

i know, but you’ve seen how defensive the both of them get whenever you bring up any shit about their newfound “romance”. *she rolls her eyes, the word “romance” leaving a bitter taste in her mouth.* i don’t see what else we can really do other than hope whatever fucked codependent relationship they’ve got going on crashes and burns soon. i want things to go back to normal just as much as you do.

[iaintsayinshesagolddigger]

remember when Nikki fuckin friendzoned him when talking to you at work? called him her brother or whatever, i don’t remember. it just seemed like it wasn’t going to happen.

we talked last wednesday too and really i don’t think he would’ve had the guts to ask her out. even if he did, she wouldn’t go for it.

honestly, i think she’s trying to get back at me for something. it’s the only thing that makes sense to me. she’s using him to make me jealous.

[to-your-left]

i remember her mentioning it once during our shift, i didn’t think too much about it at the time .. but nikki being all head over heels for bear out of fucking nowhere just like the flip of a switch? it just doesn’t sit right with me. it’s weird. maybe you’re onto something. kinda looks to me like she’s taking advantage of him.

[iaintsayinshesagolddigger]

yeah, i mean i don’t know how much she’s taking advantage of him beyond his stupidly obvious crush on her, but he’s obviously not going to say anything.

look, don’t tell him i said any of this, okay? i don’t want him getting all weird on me, I’m gonna try and talk to him. maybe you could talk to Nikki or something. if she’s mad at me, i won’t get anywhere with her.

and maybe don’t do anything stupid with Bear either. he’s being weird as hell.

[to-your-left]

what the hell are you trying to get at? *sarah shoots ian a sharp look, clearly vexed by his vague implication about her and bear.* i’ll try to reach out to nikki, but it’s not like she’ll even respond unless bear is somehow involved. i’ve been steering clear of her lately if we’re being honest. she’s been a total fucking nutjob lately.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

honestly bear are you and nikki actually even happy? i’m not trying to pry into your relationship dude, but you can’t deny she’s been super fucking weird since you got together. ian notices it too. i just think you need to make sure she’s not taking advantage of you, you know.

—sarah @to-your-left

Yeah, we are. She's just having personal issues right now. I need to be there for her is all. At least you aren't as bad as him with the prying, though. Ian's literally coming over to ou-... my house to talk about it like it's a fucking intervention.

[to-your-left]

ian’s a dick but i can’t blame him here. it’s weird bear, like seriously fucking weird how possessive nikki’s been. feels like she’s going to rip my head off or something if i even look at you for a second too long.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

We can have another hangout that's just us. We can get breakfast and shit again.

[to-your-left]

ok, yeah, *sarah cracks a cheeky smile,* just don’t tell nikki or she might freak and like, suffocate me in my sleep tonight or something. *she laughs, different from her usual laugh. that girlish sort of giggle that she only seems to reserve for bear.*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Don't worry, I think I could hold her back.

Bear grins. Has Sarah always looked this... pretty?

Maybe hanging out with me will give you some good luck with college. Raise your morale and shit.

[to-your-left]

oh it better, no way i’m putting my life on the line hanging out with our borderline-psychotic-break friend’s boyfriend for nothing, *sarah playfully nudges bear, smile still plastered across her face. it’s difficult to ignore the warmth that blooms against her cheeks when bear’s eyes linger on her for just a moment too long, but she tries to brush it off—even though nikki hasn’t been herself lately, sarah knows it’s too fucked up to try anything with bear right now, regardless of her own feelings.*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

No promises, but I'll try my best.

He gently shoulder checks Sarah, leaning against her slightly.

Have you applied to Luther yet? Heard you talking about it.

[to-your-left]

yeah, the last one i’m waiting on a response from. guess it’s luther or bust now. i’m surprised you even remembered with all the shit you’ve got going on lately. *sarah laughs dryly, a futile attempt to mask her anxiety about getting in*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Why wouldn't I remember? It's important to you. You're... important to me. So I'd obviously care.

He shrugs and sheepishly looks askance.

[to-your-left]

you’re a good friend bear, *her expression softens, and there’s a hint of longing in her tone— the word “friend” feeling heavy as it leaves her tongue—but she promptly brushes it off with her typical sarcasm.* look, if i make it big tattooing i’ll make sure to remember you, maybe even give you a free tattoo—just no “nikki freeman” inked across your heart, or like, a portrait of her face, or some shit got it? i don’t do that corny garbage.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Maybe I'd let you choose what to tattoo on me. I trust you to not, like... put a dick on my arm or something.

Bear shrugs. He pats her back, hand resting between he shoulders for a bit too long before he pulls away.

You'll get in. If you don't, it's their loss.

[to-your-left]

your faith in me is reassuring. maybe a bit stupid, but sweet. *when he rests his hand along her back she averts her gaze momentarily—an attempt to wipe the giddy smile off her face before bear can notice.* thanks for actually giving a shit, bear. i might even miss you guys a bit if i actually do get in.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

honestly bear are you and nikki actually even happy? i’m not trying to pry into your relationship dude, but you can’t deny she’s been super fucking weird since you got together. ian notices it too. i just think you need to make sure she’s not taking advantage of you, you know.

—sarah @to-your-left

Yeah, we are. She's just having personal issues right now. I need to be there for her is all. At least you aren't as bad as him with the prying, though. Ian's literally coming over to ou-... my house to talk about it like it's a fucking intervention.

[to-your-left]

ian’s a dick but i can’t blame him here. it’s weird bear, like seriously fucking weird how possessive nikki’s been. feels like she’s going to rip my head off or something if i even look at you for a second too long.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

We can have another hangout that's just us. We can get breakfast and shit again.

[to-your-left]

ok, yeah, *sarah cracks a cheeky smile,* just don’t tell nikki or she might freak and like, suffocate me in my sleep tonight or something. *she laughs, different from her usual laugh. that girlish sort of giggle that she only seems to reserve for bear.*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Don't worry, I think I could hold her back.

Bear grins. Has Sarah always looked this... pretty?

Maybe hanging out with me will give you some good luck with college. Raise your morale and shit.

[to-your-left]

oh it better, no way i’m putting my life on the line hanging out with our borderline-psychotic-break friend’s boyfriend for nothing, *sarah playfully nudges bear, smile still plastered across her face. it’s difficult to ignore the warmth that blooms against her cheeks when bear’s eyes linger on her for just a moment too long, but she tries to brush it off—even though nikki hasn’t been herself lately, sarah knows it’s too fucked up to try anything with bear right now, regardless of her own feelings.*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

No promises, but I'll try my best.

He gently shoulder checks Sarah, leaning against her slightly.

Have you applied to Luther yet? Heard you talking about it.

[to-your-left]

yeah, the last one i’m waiting on a response from. guess it’s luther or bust now. i’m surprised you even remembered with all the shit you’ve got going on lately. *sarah laughs dryly, a futile attempt to mask her anxiety about getting in*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Why wouldn't I remember? It's important to you. You're... important to me. So I'd obviously care.

He shrugs and sheepishly looks askance.

[to-your-left]

you’re a good friend bear, *her expression softens, and there’s a hint of longing in her tone— the word “friend” feeling heavy as it leaves her tongue—but she promptly brushes it off with her typical sarcasm.* look, if i make it big tattooing i’ll make sure to remember you, maybe even give you a free tattoo—just no “nikki freeman” inked across your heart, or like, a portrait of her face, or some shit got it? i don’t do that corny garbage.

[to-your-left]

yo, Sarah, can we chat?

@iaintsayinshesagolddigger

-ian

yeah, what’s up ian. if you’re just looking to complain more about missing hooking up with nikki, forget it. i don’t wanna hear about it anymore. go find another girl to stick it in .. and preferably one whose not a part of the friend group this time.

[iaintsayinshesagolddigger]

geez Sarah, why don’t you tell me how you really feel next time. no, it’s not about that. look, i know you and bear have been spending time together recently. i’m not about to shit on you for that- you do what you want, you’re a free agent. it just seems like both of them are having a mental break or something and we’re the only ones who are seeing it happen. i mean, i guess other than your dad. he emailed me, by the way. which was weird.

[to-your-left]

i know, but you’ve seen how defensive the both of them get whenever you bring up any shit about their newfound “romance”. *she rolls her eyes, the word “romance” leaving a bitter taste in her mouth.* i don’t see what else we can really do other than hope whatever fucked codependent relationship they’ve got going on crashes and burns soon. i want things to go back to normal just as much as you do.

[iaintsayinshesagolddigger]

remember when Nikki fuckin friendzoned him when talking to you at work? called him her brother or whatever, i don’t remember. it just seemed like it wasn’t going to happen.

we talked last wednesday too and really i don’t think he would’ve had the guts to ask her out. even if he did, she wouldn’t go for it.

honestly, i think she’s trying to get back at me for something. it’s the only thing that makes sense to me. she’s using him to make me jealous.

[to-your-left]

i remember her mentioning it once during our shift, i didn’t think too much about it at the time .. but nikki being all head over heels for bear out of fucking nowhere just like the flip of a switch? it just doesn’t sit right with me. it’s weird. maybe you’re onto something. kinda looks to me like she’s taking advantage of him.

[to-your-left]

yo, Sarah, can we chat?

@iaintsayinshesagolddigger

-ian

yeah, what’s up ian. if you’re just looking to complain more about missing hooking up with nikki, forget it. i don’t wanna hear about it anymore. go find another girl to stick it in .. and preferably one whose not a part of the friend group this time.

[iaintsayinshesagolddigger]

geez Sarah, why don’t you tell me how you really feel next time. no, it’s not about that. look, i know you and bear have been spending time together recently. i’m not about to shit on you for that- you do what you want, you’re a free agent. it just seems like both of them are having a mental break or something and we’re the only ones who are seeing it happen. i mean, i guess other than your dad. he emailed me, by the way. which was weird.

[to-your-left]

i know, but you’ve seen how defensive the both of them get whenever you bring up any shit about their newfound “romance”. *she rolls her eyes, the word “romance” leaving a bitter taste in her mouth.* i don’t see what else we can really do other than hope whatever fucked codependent relationship they’ve got going on crashes and burns soon. i want things to go back to normal just as much as you do.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

honestly bear are you and nikki actually even happy? i’m not trying to pry into your relationship dude, but you can’t deny she’s been super fucking weird since you got together. ian notices it too. i just think you need to make sure she’s not taking advantage of you, you know.

—sarah @to-your-left

Yeah, we are. She's just having personal issues right now. I need to be there for her is all. At least you aren't as bad as him with the prying, though. Ian's literally coming over to ou-... my house to talk about it like it's a fucking intervention.

[to-your-left]

ian’s a dick but i can’t blame him here. it’s weird bear, like seriously fucking weird how possessive nikki’s been. feels like she’s going to rip my head off or something if i even look at you for a second too long.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

We can have another hangout that's just us. We can get breakfast and shit again.

[to-your-left]

ok, yeah, *sarah cracks a cheeky smile,* just don’t tell nikki or she might freak and like, suffocate me in my sleep tonight or something. *she laughs, different from her usual laugh. that girlish sort of giggle that she only seems to reserve for bear.*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Don't worry, I think I could hold her back.

Bear grins. Has Sarah always looked this... pretty?

Maybe hanging out with me will give you some good luck with college. Raise your morale and shit.

[to-your-left]

oh it better, no way i’m putting my life on the line hanging out with our borderline-psychotic-break friend’s boyfriend for nothing, *sarah playfully nudges bear, smile still plastered across her face. it’s difficult to ignore the warmth that blooms against her cheeks when bear’s eyes linger on her for just a moment too long, but she tries to brush it off—even though nikki hasn’t been herself lately, sarah knows it’s too fucked up to try anything with bear right now, regardless of her own feelings.*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

No promises, but I'll try my best.

He gently shoulder checks Sarah, leaning against her slightly.

Have you applied to Luther yet? Heard you talking about it.

[to-your-left]

yeah, the last one i’m waiting on a response from. guess it’s luther or bust now. i’m surprised you even remembered with all the shit you’ve got going on lately. *sarah laughs dryly, a futile attempt to mask her anxiety about getting in*

[to-your-left]

sarah do u like bear

oh come on, bear is with nikki. have you not yet had the displeasure of being subjected to her hundreds of posts about him? i’ve always thought that he should be with someone more chill though.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

honestly bear are you and nikki actually even happy? i’m not trying to pry into your relationship dude, but you can’t deny she’s been super fucking weird since you got together. ian notices it too. i just think you need to make sure she’s not taking advantage of you, you know.

—sarah @to-your-left

Yeah, we are. She's just having personal issues right now. I need to be there for her is all. At least you aren't as bad as him with the prying, though. Ian's literally coming over to ou-... my house to talk about it like it's a fucking intervention.

[to-your-left]

ian’s a dick but i can’t blame him here. it’s weird bear, like seriously fucking weird how possessive nikki’s been. feels like she’s going to rip my head off or something if i even look at you for a second too long.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

We can have another hangout that's just us. We can get breakfast and shit again.

[to-your-left]

ok, yeah, *sarah cracks a cheeky smile,* just don’t tell nikki or she might freak and like, suffocate me in my sleep tonight or something. *she laughs, different from her usual laugh. that girlish sort of giggle that she only seems to reserve for bear.*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

Don't worry, I think I could hold her back.

Bear grins. Has Sarah always looked this... pretty?

Maybe hanging out with me will give you some good luck with college. Raise your morale and shit.

[to-your-left]

oh it better, no way i’m putting my life on the line hanging out with our borderline-psychotic-break friend’s boyfriend for nothing, *sarah playfully nudges bear, smile still plastered across her face. it’s difficult to ignore the warmth that blooms against her cheeks when bear’s eyes linger on her for just a moment too long, but she tries to brush it off—even though nikki hasn’t been herself lately, sarah knows it’s too fucked up to try anything with bear right now, regardless of her own feelings.*

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

honestly bear are you and nikki actually even happy? i’m not trying to pry into your relationship dude, but you can’t deny she’s been super fucking weird since you got together. ian notices it too. i just think you need to make sure she’s not taking advantage of you, you know.

—sarah @to-your-left

Yeah, we are. She's just having personal issues right now. I need to be there for her is all. At least you aren't as bad as him with the prying, though. Ian's literally coming over to ou-... my house to talk about it like it's a fucking intervention.

[to-your-left]

ian’s a dick but i can’t blame him here. it’s weird bear, like seriously fucking weird how possessive nikki’s been. feels like she’s going to rip my head off or something if i even look at you for a second too long.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

We can have another hangout that's just us. We can get breakfast and shit again.

[to-your-left]

ok, yeah, *sarah cracks a cheeky smile,* just don’t tell nikki or she might freak and like, suffocate me in my sleep tonight. *she laughs, different from her usual laugh. that girlish sort of giggle that she only seems to reserve for bear.*

[to-your-left]

yo, Sarah, can we chat?

@iaintsayinshesagolddigger

-ian

yeah, what’s up ian. if you’re just looking to complain more about missing hooking up with nikki, forget it. i don’t wanna hear about it anymore. go find another girl to stick it in .. and preferably one whose not a part of the friend group this time.

[carefulwhat-youwishfor]

honestly bear are you and nikki actually even happy? i’m not trying to pry into your relationship dude, but you can’t deny she’s been super fucking weird since you got together. ian notices it too. i just think you need to make sure she’s not taking advantage of you, you know.

—sarah @to-your-left

Yeah, we are. She's just having personal issues right now. I need to be there for her is all. At least you aren't as bad as him with the prying, though. Ian's literally coming over to ou-... my house to talk about it like it's a fucking intervention.

[to-your-left]

ian’s a dick but i can’t blame him here. it’s weird bear, like seriously fucking weird how possessive nikki’s been. feels like she’s going to rip my head off or something if i even look at you for a second too long.

[to-your-left]

seriously can’t believe i’m crawling back to tumblr in 2026. the shit waiting on college acceptances and dealing with a totally fucked friend group has me doing.