“Thinspo” Blog

PLEASE BLOCK, DON’T REPORT I AM BEGGING YOU!!! THIS IS MY ONE AND ONLY SAFE SPACE I am not pro, just having a hard time SW: 110 lbs CW: 93 lbs UGW: 78 lbs I want to be able to say my weight out loud and not feel shame. I want to be able o wear what I want. I want to feel as light as a feather. I want to be noticed. I want people to say “wow, look at how skinny she is”.

[tobeawillow]

I just love how my body is just out here trying to survive, and my ED is just like “no, fuck you bitch. You have the AUDACITY to weigh more than -4 lbs and you expect to EAT??? I don’t CARE that we’ve been fasting for a day and a half, you’re out here committing these HATE CRIMES of having ORGANS and BONES and you want me to ‘have mercy’??? WACK. Now go use the elliptical for an hour and a half. Maybe I’ll let you have a carrot and not guilt you until 30 seconds later instead of 5. Sounds MORE THAN FAIR TO ME!!!!”

[tobeawillow]

Yo, I can actually touch my belly button doing the arm behind the back thing. And I have some pretty short arms.

[tobeawillow]

When you’re starting to do better and then casually get hit by a wave of

“starve or die bitch ✨”

Then do nothing but play just dance sweat mode for 5 hours straight with no stopping other than the seconds between songs while eating nothing because the voice in your head is just intense meanspo

On a side note: y’all are amazing and deserve to not starve and suffering sucks ✌️

[tobeawillow]

The worst part about calories and body image and weight ruling my life is that it feels like it’s all I have. If I try to recover, I feel like I’ll have NOTHING.

I’ve been battling this for years and turned to tumblr as a way to express myself in a way that doesn’t make anyone around me worry. I’m scared.

Some days I’d rather die than recover. I came to that realization, but I don’t actually want to die. Either way I’m going to end up killing myself, whether it’s down this path or a different path, I think I’m a goner any way I go. I’m barely 17, I wish I wasn’t dealing with this. I wish that none of you guys would have to deal with this.

I don’t know what to do. I’m absolutely terrified, I wish I didn’t hate myself so much. I wish I wasn’t so easily manipulated, so then what do I do? I manipulate myself instead. Part of my sees the light, but the other part of me refuses, so ignorant to the truth. And it’s the ignorant side that has my hands tied behind my back completely helpless. I don’t want to live like this forever.

I’m so tired. I’m so worried for those around me, that I follow, that follow me. I want recovery, but I’m afraid of what it’d do to me. This has been the normal way of life for me since I was 12 and it’s been in my mind since I was 8. That’s absolutely insane. That’s a good portion of my lifetime.

Please, try to seek help. I want you guys to be free. I want to be free. Please please PLEASE consider my words if you’re in the same/similar place as me. I want you to live a fulfilled life and this will hold you back from that.

I hope this hits someone in the heart, to break through that shell of lies your ED has created. We can get better.

[tobeawillow]

Every year for my birthday, I wish that I was dead. Everyone claps when I blow out those candles, they have no idea.

[antigreentea]

Why is anorexia called "Ana"? That bitch deserves a name like robert

[goddamnskinny]

why is this so funny 

[thisis-your-fault-deactivated20]

trying on clothes is really hard when you hate yourself. liking someone is really hard when you hate yourself. eating is really hard when you hate yourself. life is really hard when you hate yourself

[fennecandco]

Trauma didn't make me nice, I consciously made me nice because I don't want anyone else to suffer like I did. Trauma didn't make me strong, I made me strong. Don't you dare ever tell me my trauma made me anything but scared, broken, and confused. Don't give credit to the abusers for me being a good person. They didn't make me good, I made myself good.

[tobeawillow]

I’m so tired

[tobeawillow]

Guess who almost has a thigh gap 🤞

[bands-and-random-stuff-inactive]

Just a gentle reminder for tumblr users with anxiety, panic disorders or who get nervous quickly: 

- Chain mail, “reblog this or..” posts etc. don’t work. They’re not real. Nothing bad will happen if you don’t forward that mail or reblog that post. 

- “If you don’t reblog this, you’re a bad person” is a lie. You’re not a bad person for not clicking a button. 

- You are allowed to unfollow blogs that post triggering contents. 

- You’re not weak or a crybaby for avoiding things that are triggering. Far from it, you’re taking care of yourself. That’s amazing! 

[tobeawillow]

Needed this

[ethrelustful]

Reblog if your pro recovery. Whether you’re in it or not

[silver-hair-rainbow-eyes]

always. ALWAYS.

[t-h-i-n-wannabe]

If you’re not, please leave my blog

[p3rs0nalh3ll]

always.

[angrylittleskeleton-deactivated]

🌸🌸🌸

[tobeawillow]

Fast was successful, I’m back in control.

[tobeawillow]

I know none of you really know what I look like, but should I cut my hair? Because it’s way too long for me to manage anymore.

I’m thinking like this, especially since I want to donate my hair.

My curl pattern and hair color are extremely close to the picture, I just kinda want outside opinions.

Is this a stupid idea? I’ll probably delete this post tomorrow or something, idk.

[tobeawillow]

I want to apologize for reblogging a certain post, I didn’t know OP was trying to recover. I’m really really sorry.

[tobeawillow]

What if I just locked myself in a bathroom for a week??? I might do that, not gonna lie. It seems like a good solution.

Or I could throw myself into my schoolwork and refuse to eat because “I need to focus, I’ll eat later, PROMISE”. That worked last year. Although my grades still sucked because I’m a fucking idiot. I need to find my village…

Or lock myself in my room. I already do that, but now I have an excuse to (school) and I can finally win against my mom.

I don’t get it, a few days ago, restricting was SO easy. It was, and still is, my guilty pleasure. But now, I keep cracking under pressure.

Should I pick up yoga again? My mom would love that.

[tobeawillow]

Guess who’s doing a shit ton of exercise and ingesting nothing except coffee, green tea, and water tomorrow because she binged yesterday AND went over my calorie limit today????

I’m a failure ✨

Someone just end my existence now please.