A BRAMBLE ROSE.

independent camilla macaulay from donna tartt's the secret history. narrated by ligaya. // i. ii. iii.

[zayniepottah]

I love you. I love you more than ever.

[memestockpile]

THE INTERESTINGS BY MEG WOLITZER  feel free to change pronouns and sentences as needed. brief mention of suicide. 

“ you don’t always need to be the dazzler. “

“ that is how friendships begin: one person reveals a moment of strangeness, and the other person decides just to listen and not exploit it. “

“ there is power in once having known someone. “

“ this is 92% stupid. “

“ good boy. you’re so brave. “

“ with love, apparently you didn’t necessarily feel the need to explain anything at all. “

“ most people aren’t talented. so what are they supposed to do – kill themselves? “

“ after a certain age, you feel a need not to be alone. it’ll grew stronger, like a radio frequency, until finally it is so powerful that you were forced to do something about it. “

“ i’ve always sort of felt that you prepare yourself over the course of your whole life for the big moments, you know? but when they happen, you sometimes feel totally unready for them, or even that they’re not what you thought. “

“ the reality is really different than the fantasy. “

“ we are so, so fucked. “

“ we are all here, on this earth, for only one go around. “ 

“ twitter. you know what that is? termites with microphones. “

“ you’re very talented. “

“ what does a woman have to do to be taken seriously? “

“ isn’t the whole point of being an artist, or at least part of it, being not having to wear a tie? “

“ you judged people not on their success, but their appeal. “

“ everyone simply has to wait patiently in order to lose the people they love one by one, all the while acting as if they aren’t waiting for that at all. “

“ the past is so tenacious. “

“ art is just as important as science. “

“ is there anything sadder than the scrawniest little piece of uneaten chicken at a dinner party? “

“ i feel content. “

“ that’s an old person’s word. “

“ let everyone who meets us fall down dead in our path from just how fucking interesting we are. “

“ go to your room. i’ll be there in a few minutes to talk to you. “

“ you’ve always been a very smart boy. “

“ nobody tells you how long you should keep doing something before you give up forever. “

“ sometimes a mindfuck is a satisfying and productive fuck, after all. “

“ we had a good marriage. i just always thought it’d last longer. “

“ it’s hard to understand at your age. “

[capulets]

she seemed not at all her bright unattainable self but rather a hazy and ineffably tender apparition, all slender wrists and shadows and disordered hair, the camilla who resided, dim and lovely, in the gloomy boudoir of my dreams.

[tarttdona]

In this swarm of cigarettes and dark sophistication they appeared here and there like figures from an allegory, or long-dead celebrants from some forgotten garden party. Their names were Charles and Camilla Macaulay.

art:hannahlucys

[dbo-050-deactivated20200512]

No one:

Henry Winter: I can read hieroglyphics

[todivine]

@greekdeath

[todivine]

as pretty as all the camilla aesthetics are, are we all gonna ignore the fact that she literally wears her brother’s clothes most of the time meaning she’s not a girly girl

[todivine]

and  if  beauty  is  terror,  then  what  is  desire ?   ------  TO  LIVE.   independent  &  low  activity  camilla  macaulay  from  donna  tartt’s  the  secret  history.

[bluebeardsbride-archive]

Camilla said that during part of it, she’d believed she was a deer; and that was odd, too, because the rest of us remember chasing a deer through the woods, for miles it seemed.

CAMILLA MACAULAY from The Secret History

[renissance]

The Secret History: characters 

“There is nothing wrong with the love of Beauty. But Beauty - unless she is wed to something more meaningful - is always superficial.”

[todivine]

rules

01. hello !!! so so glad you’re taking the time to read, or at least skim through this page. i’m ligaya and camilla is one of my many babies on this website. while i can’t expect everybody to remember every rule i’ll be listing below, please keep in mind that you can always revisit this page or send me a question if you’re unsure of something concerning one of these !

02. as much as i’d like it to be otherwise, the state of this blog is usually slow - reply and low activity. i’m a biology major who has classes 4 days a week, around 7 hours a day on average which means i’m almost always busy and on mobile. other factors to me not being around doing replies would be my personal life outside of academics, of course, and the writing highs and lows all roleplayers regularly have. however, just because i take long in getting to our thread, writing your starter or replying to you on IM / discord doesn’t mean that i don’t want to write with you ! life can just get really busy and tiring sometimes, i think we all understand that.

i won’t follow anybody who uses dove cameron or thomas doherty as a faceclaim. their anti- tags on tumblr say it all, and i know i can’t force anybody to do this but if you could tag them for me ( i.e. dove cameron // ) then that would be much appreciated.

i also will not follow anybody that writes INCEST, RAPE, NON-CON, UNDERAGE NSFW, OR GENDERBENDS. keep your ‘fiction isn’t / doesn’t affect reality’ argument to yourself, thanks !

that being said, i am not going to be acknowledging the incestuous part of camilla’s relationship with her twin brother, charles.

03. this blog is mutuals only so yes, that means we’d have to be following each other in order for us to interact. this isn’t me being prejudiced or elitist or anything; i’ve always been selective with who i choose and choose not to follow, and i do this for my own management and comfort.

04. i write camilla based off of what we see of her from the novel, but as she appears to be mostly romanticized in the eyes of the character narrating the story, my camilla’s very headcanon based as well. save for the incest and probably certain aus, this blog is pretty canon compliant to donna tartt’s writing. and if you happen to write camilla too, then that’s awesome ! however, i won’t be following any duplicates and i do ask that you don’t follow me as well.

05. feel free to tag me in random starters, send me random ic asks and such !! i love writing out starters and plotting but spontaneous interactions are the best. i track #todivine so if you ever wanna drop me a line make sure it gets into that tumblr tag so that i can see and get to it in time !additionally, i am always up for plotting things out so don’t be afraid to run something by me if you have ideas.

06. the only reasons for me dropping a thread would be that i A.) lost it somewhere along the way or B.) felt it had too little to go on. but if i do drop a thread, you are very very welcome to come plot another one with me ! i also don’t mind having multiple threads with somebody, so even if we’re in the middle of one and you wanna start something else then by all means, be my guest.

07. i do ships mainly based on chemistry and plotting, so don’t be afraid to reach out if you wanna ship with me! and i don’t just mean romantic shipping; i want all kinds of shipping ranging from love to hate and everything in between. and again, as stated earlier in this list, i will not be shipping camilla with charles.

08. nothing explicitly nsfw / sexual will appear on this blog. while i and this character are of age i’ve never been very big on writing smut, so it’s very unlikely that it will happen here --- though i do acknowledge that camilla has done certain activities. other triggering topics will be tagged accordingly.

09. i like knowing the people i write with, so if we’re mutuals then go ahead and introduce yourself to me any time !! tell me about your day or your dog, or blab on about how much you love your muse. let’s be friends.

10. i am not affiliated with my faceclaim or donna tartt in any way.