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a place for me to learn more about myself ♡

[tofugawa]

bitches be sad over their ex bfs who own body pillows. thats me, im bitches. he sleeps with not just one but TWO :)))))

[tofugawa]

i still dont understand how i knew you for YEARS and somehow you mamaged to find every single girl prettier than me like what the fuck. youd literally find any reason to just put me down. and no i have a million insecurity issues because i kmownyou think this girl and this girl and this girl and this girl has *insert quality here* tht u like. ( 99% all visuals). like? i dont remember a single thing or time you said you liked anything abt me other than my body. i just..... yknow like

[tofugawa]

tbh i miss my ex a lot. not exactly him but... just the memories. but even though we're not together anymore not a single day goes by that i dont feel burdened and extremely pained by the things i had to endure in our (almost) 3 years together. im just very very traumatized.. with all the things ive seen and found out that i was never supposed to see. it... hurts.

[tofugawa]

being in pain and having absolutely no one to talk to sucks ass haha. i asked for this tho. (purposely isolated myself to test my independence) but i still i feel like im going crazy

[rozazhari]

social media has ruined everything... standards... mind sets.. goals.. society

[tofugawa]

guys r rlly out here causing trauma then dip out when they dont know what to do huh

[tofugawa]

i love you.

[tofugawa]

[tofugawa]

u make me feel so uwu and butterfly ✨✨✨>v<

[tofugawa]

i want to be with you forever.

but..i feel so temporary to you. will i still be your best friend when you meet someone better? probably not, huh.

[tofugawa]

i love u... but like 70% of my nightmares are about my triggers...all because of you. will things ever truly be the same? its been 2 years. will i ever really heal from all this? im not trying to hold a grudge against you...but.. i find a lot of the time, i really am. even right now. im sitting here, angry and frustrated with you. im frustrated that you caused me so much pain and a whole list of triggers to live with and here you are, living life. as nonchalantly as ever.

[tofugawa]

i told you "just watch, im gon have another nightmare 😒" and guess what happened?.. i had another.fucking. nightmare.

[tofugawa]

im srry u had to hear me cry from howl's moving castle. the movie is just very special to me 💖

[tofugawa]

star crossed lovers.

[tofugawa]

black tee shirt AND you got the minhyuk haircut? it finally feels like you're actually trying... for me ❤ so cute >< ❤❤❤

[tofugawa]

ik i joked about this earlier but i do really love you very much because youre my best friend. im not just saying that, i promise.

[tofugawa]

05/28/20. 12:22AM

ive always been good at enduring mistreatment. but now that ive been so spoiled with care and love i feel like things are going to be difficult for me from now on...