unfollow dangit

NOT USING THIS ANYMORE just gonna keep it around as an archive cuz' i dont wanna let go of memories lol

[tohandsbetweenlegs]

wtf 149 why the heck y'all still following this account /waves at menacingly with broom

shoo, shoo

[tohandsbetweenlegs]

Please unfollow this account. I will not be coming back to RP here.

[tohandsbetweenlegs]

[[ thinking of just throwing everything to the wind. Let's face it, I'm never gonna be able to go back to that plot I wanted to explore. SO.

I will either be picking this blog back up for silly RPing, or change to a different character. Not necessarily because I can't RP Cor, but because it would be difficult to keep her both here and in PP. I mean, it's kinda frustrating that she has a story, a really good one, that I can't tell due to my own inability, and instead have to settle with doing an AU setting, but... I guess that's just how life is. So yea, I'll decide sometime soon hopefully. ]]

[almondhaze]

What does the ‘R’ stand for?

[tohandsbetweenlegs]

[askcyan]

[[ This should be here too. Cor/Gordon otp 2k13/7 ]]

[tohandsbetweenlegs]

[[ gdi ]]

[askcyan]

[pokemonplatform]

Hello PP’ers!

Liked the Celebration Cup-Tournament last year? Then this is your event!

Check out the link for how to join and what the Backstreet tournament will be like!The dead-line for the entry is 22nd July! Gogogo!

(Self-explanatory, the tournament is only open to members of Pokeplatform. Wanna join the group? Here’s how to.)

[tohandsbetweenlegs]

MAN I JUST I don't know what to do anymore at all

I mean, I was honestly excited to do stuff here in the blogs- to actually RP and do silly anon magics and reply to asks and doodle things and talk to people and learn about other's characters I'd been snowballing since the beginning of the school semester, but I think I just fell off a fucking cliff come mid-February.

I was so so so excited to do a thing I was... planning to do a comic for Cor's birthday. A couple pages- three, maybe four, with a lot of effort going into it It would've been about how she spent her birthday on the 16th- I even did a post to lead up to it- and cancelled all RP plans until I finished it and had it posted. But then I just... I cracked? It was going to involve another OC that trust me if you know me you know who I'm talking about, but then I think I just reached a fucking meltdown point. I had been so excited for it, I swear. I had sketched all over my notebooks- panels, ideas, the outfits, the setting, the layout, all of it. I had it planned so well, even what would happen after, and I just. I had a fit- I lashed out at someone who was just trying to support me on it, and even said they would be sad seeing me drop something I had been so excited over. I'm sure I talked their ear off about it the whole time I planned, but... I dunno. I just cracked. And it wasn't really over the process of doing the comic or 'stress' of making it, but still I threw everything off the table and just said no and didn't do it and let all my planning go to waste

So I guess after that I just. Lost all muse whatsoever to continue with her plot. I'd stopped trying to RP to get the comic done, but I couldn't bring myself to continue trying to RP again.  I had made PP an AU because I had things planned for this blog, to continue her plot and go through events that would radically change her, reason being why I made PP an AU. So I could still freely RP her current attitude without problem and do silly fun things without worrying about how OOC it would be for her to be in the island. I was thinking of just keeping PP on the side for silly things and doing everything serious to her character development I'd been intending to do for a very, very long time....  But wow. Look at where that got me. I'm in the PP chat half of the day without even RPing at all, and doing absolutely nothing here except maybe post a lazy drawing and reblog something stupid. I'm so fucking frustrated.

And I just. I dunno. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to want to do things, but I'm just stuck wishing things would move and everything's frozen and my plan's gone to shit and I hate my character and I hate where things have gone and I hate that I'm sitting here day in and day out doing nothing and wishing I was doing something but still not doing a thing at all to reach that goal. I'm just. So angry at myself and others. Mostly myself though. I kinda dug this hole myself and dragged others thin, then got pissed at them when they didn't know how to pull us both out and got out on their own.

Ugh. Characters, man. Literally ruining my life. But then again, I guess I wouldn't have clung to this crumbling thing so desperately if I didn't care about it. But now I don't know what to do with this broken, useless thing.

[tohandsbetweenlegs]

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[did-you-know]

Source

[theblatheringpeacock]

“Had me from the first hit”

[tohandsbetweenlegs]

f1ghtme said: ur ass is grass

r u gonna mow it? B)

[tohandsbetweenlegs]

if you were a salad would you be caesar or house

Salad?Fuck salads, I’m the main course.

[formerlyagnesnutter-deactivated]

[askcyan]

[[ It’s been a wild night-morning in PP ]]

[theblatheringpeacock]

fINALLY new battlecard jfc about time I redid it

[tohandsbetweenlegs]

#that too. #he needs cor's services]]

[[ exqueeze u?? ]]