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Expect Nothing, Appreciate Everything…

about last month….and the past 6 months~~~~

I’d forgotten for way too long, what it feels like when you really like someone.

miss hanging out at jungkooks home 😌

Long story short, i survived. Welcome back home my best friends, the ones who keep me sane. Life is indeed worth living 💜

When you hold the world, yet no hand but your own, When the nights grow heavy with thoughts unknown, When trust is given, only to fall through, And low hopes still betray you too... Tell me— Where do I go from here?

and just like that, 2024 almost ends.

The first quarter of 2024 was quite depressing for no particular reason. Maybe it was just my overthinking mind. Life felt boring—repeating the same routine was kind of scary. So, I decided to tackle something I never thought I’d finish: getting my driver’s license.

Driving has always been fun, but the thought of the complicated exams terrified me and caused me to fail so many times. But then, I gritted my teeth, pushed through, and finally succeeded.

In one of the most random moments, when everything started to make sense, I decided to do something else I’d been dreaming of: laser eye surgery. The cost always held me back—it’s incredibly expensive in Germany. Funny enough, getting a driver’s license here costs almost as much as a car, and I blamed myself for that. Initially, I thought I’d wait another year to save up more, but out of nowhere, I decided to just go for it while on holiday.

The experience was wild. After being practically blind for almost 15 years, I could suddenly see—like a normal person—in HD, without glasses. It’s incredible how much we take for granted, not realizing the small things we should be grateful for.

Fall ended in the blink of an eye, and now, the first snow of November has arrived. I’m looking forward to seeing what 2025 will bring.

When you believe you've been living with a stable and sturdy mentality, but life keeps testing you. You think you're strong enough on your own, that you can get through everything by yourself, that nothing can break you down. But in the end, it turns out that was just what you thought.

In 2016, I started the long journey of trying to get my driver’s license. However, I found myself dragging it out year after year due to the demands of school, work, and a part-time job. It went on for so long that I lost count of how many times I tried and failed. Eventually, in 2019, I decided to stop trying.

I regretted stopping halfway, especially after spending so much money, time, and energy on it. Five years later, feeling that my life was boring and dull, I decided to give it another shot. The process started smoothly, and I thought, “Okay, this time will be easy.” But once again, I failed repeatedly.

Feeling frustrated, disappointed, and angry, I realized I couldn’t stop here again. I gritted my teeth, pulled myself together, and pushed forward. Finally, after all these years and all the money spent, I succeeded. I finally got my driving license.

HEHE :(

When things get a little heavy, I hope you keep holding my hand and never let go, so I can keep going and try to live for another day.