Smile, laugh, and be happy

Tobias.28.Dancer.MD/PhD.in.Progress Someone once told me, “You’re always laughing. You really love life, don’t you?” I thought it was the biggest compliment I've ever heard.

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I can't believe this needs to be said. I don't understand why this doesn't make sense to some people. Black lives matter does not conflict with all lives matter. And if all lives matter, then black lives need to matter. You cannot ridicule and condemn the outcries of the oppressed when you are judging them from a position of privilege. They are being suffocated by the very system that should be protecting them. The hypocrisy in this society is astounding. #repost @catscafecomics #blacklivesmatter #justiceforgeorgefloyd #icantbreathe #whitecoatsforblacklives https://www.instagram.com/p/CA4PrEzhqVa/?igshid=19cjcd9u61xqp

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apparently today is #internationaldanceday so throwback to when I used to wiggle on stage and that one time @thecorpsdancecrew performed at Wondercon and it happened to be when they had the Masquerade at the Microsoft Theatre so yea that was pretty cool #ipeaked #itsallbeendownhill #agentsofshield #thecorpsdancecrew #imissdance #allihavenowisbackpain #dodadansing (at Microsoft Theater) https://www.instagram.com/p/B_l8bjgh4fx/?igshid=17uf7igvu4bw

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a friend said I haven't posted lately, and asked if I was still alive. why yes, yes I am. I've just been busy STAYING THE FK HOME. except when I'm at work. which is still like. all the time. so yea. but stay home y'all. and wash yo hands. #didntsetoffthefirealarm #isthisadulting #forrealtho #stayhome #staysafe #imissdance #tol3inoms https://www.instagram.com/p/B_UF_O5BQnu/?igshid=7ff4rmxyiy85

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made a brief trip to SD yesterday to see my mom and my bro again. I've been on clinic all week and everything's been reorganized into telemedicine phone visits, so I haven't had any exposure that could potentially endanger my family yet. but I'm going back on wards this week, and then all bets are off and I really don't know when's the next time it'll be safe for me to see them again. I feel like I'm a lot less afraid of getting infected than I am of getting it and unknowingly infecting someone else. not that I'm not afraid at all. this is definitely a time of uncertainty and it's gonna get a lot worse before it gets better. but. it will get better. until then, it's gonna be rough. so if you happen to have spare surgical masks, N95s, or gloves, please consider donating them to your local hospital or go to www.donateppe.org. we need them. #socialdistancing #flattenthecurve #donateppe #imnotreadyforthis #butnooneeveris #so #onwardswego https://www.instagram.com/p/B-EQeSkhJ2h/?igshid=m7lybiew65yt

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when it's been a rough few days and you're mentally emotionally and physically exhausted to the point where spiders in the shower don't even scare you anymore but after the roughest day yet somehow you manage to get out in time on the same day @official_yutanakamura is teaching so you just eat some fruit for dinner and haul ass straight to @kinjazdojo to destroy your body even more and completely break your knees but it is always worth it to push through for these moments just to be able vibe and dance with the most incredible individuals and witness their movement #yummy #dancehealsthesoul #andfoodhealsmypain #mykneesjustcry #fkdaylightsavingstho #thathourofsleeplost #ineededit #giveitbacktome #dodadansing (at Kinjaz Dojo) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9iqCRLB79h/?igshid=16ros3548aliu

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when you haven't taken class in more than a month cause ICU was rough and you've been dying but somehow now that you're back on wards you get off early for the first time in forever so you bust a mission to @kinjazdojo and get your ass handed to you by @kevywinz and @deasevilla but they're just such wonderful souls and such incredible movers you can't believe you got this chance to dance with them again but of course since it's Thursday you have to stay for @apriljoy_ altho your body has been so deconditioned who knows why you thought you could take two classes in this state because now everything feels broken and is this really what stress fractures feel like because holy fk I'm in so much pain #sendhelp #pls #myknees #mythighs #myback #myspleen #everythinghurts #andimdying #itsbeenawhile #sinceivefeltthispain #butitwasworth #dodadansing (at Kinjaz Dojo) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9GtVaBBUoM/?igshid=14oye5ff1363m

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when today was just one of those MICU days where first thing you walk in and they're already actively coding a patient and then you literally go through three more codes before you even start rounds so you have no idea wtf is going on but somehow you make it through the day and you almost forgot you signed up for two classes at @kinjazdojo because you promised some friends you'd take @biancavallar's class with them so why not take @btek_benchung's class before that too except you got out late so you haul ass over there and somehow make it through both classes even though you're literally dying on the inside and your body is falling apart on the outside but you're off tomorrow so in the end it was definitely worth it but omfg everything hurts and I'm dying #needtoworkoutmore #soicandobetter #betterchestcompressions #everythinghurts #timetosleep #forawholeday #dodadansing (at Kinjaz Dojo) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7-bml2hXp-/?igshid=xb7mv1gl38gh

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reposting because I found an app to stabilize the video and the last post was making me kinda nauseous and I really liked this piece with @junquemado okay also I realize I've taken 7 dance classes in the last week and I am in complete physical pain why do I do this to myself #myback #myhip #myspleen #wellness #donefortheyear #everythinghurts #andimdying #dodadansing (at Kinjaz Dojo) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7wT1AdBN1R/?igshid=nge578v0ll46

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when it's been awhile since you've been to @kinjazdojo so you show up to take class with @itsjason217 but the whole piece is practically on the floor so you basically end up bruising the entire left side of your body but then the next class is a master class with @junquemado so you're thinking hell to the no but also why the fk not so of course you take that class too and now everything just fking hurts but on a scale of one to regret you have none because MICU is in a week so gotta get in all the dance you possibly can #noragrets #except #forthefullbodypain #cantwalk #ormove #itsfine #itsallfine #dodadansing (at Kinjaz Dojo) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7pzefZhNuL/?igshid=gftdf1cb6hi4

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I AM IN. PHYSICAL. PAIN. #itsbeenalongblock #imsotired #wokeupat6pmtoday #haventdanced #sincelastyear #lulz #isthiswhatnuchalrigidityfeelslike #ithinkipulledmyspleen #tomorrowisgonnahurt #dodadansing (at Snowglobe Perspective) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7iREroBJOw/?igshid=1minywp0lvz1a

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finally got a day off and pretty much all I did was sleep in until noon and then eat nonstop all day #SichuanImpression #SweetHoney #OneZo #CaliHotPot #FactoryTeaBar #itwasagoodday #stillsickanddyingtho #andnowbacktowork #forthenext8days #fml #tol3inoms (at California HotPot) https://www.instagram.com/p/B67enpJhw22/?igshid=1tzss9whk5giw

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I had this Matcha Iceberg at @milkcow_la like two days ago and honestly I'm still dreaming about it like holy fuuuhhhhh it was so fking good AND IT COMES WITH BOBA omfg I want it again #finallydonewithccu #allivelearned #istodiureseaggressively #unlessitshfpef #stillcantreadekgs #whatsafascicularblock #tol3inoms (at Milkcow Los Angeles) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6cZK7CBUtQ/?igshid=fp49kvual7ex

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when your friend is talented AF and she makes your dreams come true by making you into an anime character who looks cooler than you'll ever be??? like what??? I AM NOT WORTHY 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #bestgiftever #merrychristmas #ranmoriartwork #sarahouyangdesigns #imnotworthy https://www.instagram.com/p/B6U-htPh87a/?igshid=13cixk85dgv07

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hot curry on a cold day 🤤🤤🤤 but for real tho why is it so cold out lately lol even tho I'm just hiding in the hospital all day anyway and have no idea what's going on in the outside world hahaha can't wait for my day off tomorrow to just sleep all day like I am so excited you have no idea #ivebeenlookingforwardtothisallweek #tol3inoms (at Coco Ichibanya) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6SAd_GB9tU/?igshid=13np47r0frw54

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thankful. for family. for food. and for family that drives up through pouring rain to bring you food cause you can't be home for Thanksgiving. for being alive. for being able to do what you've spent your whole life working towards. for friends who always support you. for colleagues who are awesome. for dance. for being able to freely move and express and share with others. for life. #andboba #samething #basically #happythanksgivingyall #callyourmom #tellyourfamilyyoulovethem #happyfeasting https://www.instagram.com/p/B5bfDFnhPo0/?igshid=14hn4d8t4xsiu

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about to start on another week of ICU nights tomorrow so time to prepare like I always do by going to @watchsnowglobe and taking class with @anthonyvibal so I can wreck my body and get used to feeling physically and mentally overwhelmed all week long hahahaha fml I'm not ready for this #itsbeenawhile #sinceivefeltthispain #everywhere #myback #mylegs #mysoul #gonnagetowned #halp #howdoireadekgs #whataredrips #whatisacls #plzdontcode #dodadansing (at Snowglobe Perspective) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5UmbPXhuSq/?igshid=aytfed44ilrx

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and now that I've broken my streak of too many dance videos in a row, here's another dance video from class last week with @apriljoy_ if you've ever wondered what @kinjazdojo is like during Halloween lol #thisclasswaslit #butmykneeswerebroken #andfyi #iwasafigsmodel #tyvm #wearfigs #howmanytanjiros #canyouspot #dodadansing (at Kinjaz Dojo) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4cFN-jBbOV/?igshid=1jzx93j8crsf2