crude and unusual

[tolivethisway]

He does not mean that it does not hurt.  He does not mean that we are not frightened.  Only that: we are here.  This is what it means to swim in the tide, to walk the earth and feel it touch your feet.  This is what it means to be alive.

Circe, by Madeline Miller

[twloha]

[constructionpaperandtears]

[apoemaday]

If I Should Die

by Thomas Gray

If I should die and leave you Be not like the others, quick undone Who keep long vigils by the silent dust and weep.

For my sake turn to life and smile Nerving thy heart and trembling hand to comfort weaker souls than thee. Complete these unfinished tasks of mine And I perchance may therein comfort thee.

[tolivethisway]

I am done with the shame, the cage of self hate, the lie that this is weakness when I am certain it is the mightiest proof of my strength.  How hard it is to live knowing there is a promised jaw outside my front door, and still I step toward the horror, still I say, 'here I am world.' Let's make relaxation look like a crime we'll never get busted for.  Let's hyperventilate like it's 1999.

Andrea Gibson, Ode to the Public Panic Attack

[tolivethisway]

It is we who nourish the Soul of the World, and the world we live in will be either better or worse.  And that's where the power of love comes in.  Because when we love, we always strive to become better than we are.

The Alchemist

[tolivethisway]

Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself.  And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with god and with eternity.

The Alchemist

[tolivethisway]

If you pay attention to the present, you can improve upon it.  And, if you improve ont he present, what comes later will also be better.  Forget about the future, and live each day according to the teachings, confident that god loves his children.  Each day, in itself, brings with it an eternity.

The Alchemist

[tolivethisway]

This song is blatantly from the point of view of a person with anxious attachment in a relationship with someone with avoidant attachment.   Oh.

A white blank page and a swelling rage, rage You did not think when you sent me to the brink, to the brink You desired my attention but denied my affections, my affections

Tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart

[tolivethisway]

[buttonpoetry]

Don’t worry,’ the medic said, ‘It’s just a panic attack,’ as if that would comfort me, to know I am the enemy, my body––its own stalker.

Andrea Gibson, from Lord of the Butterflies  (via buttonpoetry)

[twloha]

(x)

[teardropsonmyguitar]

l o o k i n g  at it now …

[tolivethisway]

SELF-CARE

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

10 Rules for Coping with Panic

1. Remember, feelings of panic are just exaggerations of normal bodily stress reactions.

2. Sensations are neither harmful nor dangerous - just unpleasant. Nothing worse will happen.

3. Stop adding to the panic with frightening thoughts of where panic will lead.

4. Stay in the present. Be aware of what is happening to you rather than concern yourself with how much worse it might get.

5. Wait and give the fear time to pass.

6. Notice that when you stop adding to panic with frightening thoughts, the fear begins to fade.

7. Focus on coping with facing the fear rather than trying to avoid it or escape from it.

8. Look around you. Plan what you will do next as the panic subsides.

9. Think about the progress made so far, despite all the difficulties.

10. When you are ready to go on, do so in an easy, relaxed manner. There is no hurry.

Each time you cope with panic, you reduce your fear.

Source: http://www.panicsupport4u.com/coping.htm

[just-shower-thoughts]

There is probably a tree out there somewhere now that is growing the wood for your coffin

[tolivethisway]

The best of the best and the worst of the worst Well, you can never know The places that I go I still like you the most You'll always be my favorite ghost