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i’d hold the gun if you asked me to but if you love me like you say you do, would you ask me to;
Elliot being whipped for his Livie Love
Adorable dork pulling an HB face for a silly picture and not warning me about it. I should have known that’s what she was planing when she said 'I know what I’m going to do'
“I love you, and I want you to wait for me, for us. For however long it takes. I need this work because I cannot imagine a life without you.”
Berena and the anastomosis: the unseen patient parallel storyline.
Holby love a good “patient parallel” storyline, and after doing a little thinking I believe that’s what we got with Berena last night, even though their patient was unidentified and we knew absolutely nothing about him… I reckon the highs and lows of surgery scenes with Berena operating on the unknown man from last night do actually serve as a telling parallel with the course of their storyline during the two-parter.
An anastomosis (the part of the operation they were carrying out which Bernie had to re-do inside the 30 mins time limit) is a surgical term for the creation of new connections between previously separate vessels- a very apt metaphor for the reunion of Berena from a long-term separation. The progression of creating a stable attempt at an anastomosis and the subsequent ups and downs of the procedure could be said to mirror the trajectory of the Berena storyline in the two-parter.
(1) Off to a good start, but trouble lies ahead
All seems to be going well at first (both with the reunion and the operation), and Donna comments that it’s like watching a ballet… a nod to the fact that whilst it may look beautiful and seamless, Bernie and Serena are still dancing around the unspoken issues that they’re facing.
Once they start to talk about Nairobi and Greta (and the “you’re not family” slip of the tongue), it all starts to fall apart in theatre once the first attempt at creating an anastomosis fails and a catastrophic bleed happens.
This event is later mirrored by the events of the “I choose you” scene- it’s a solution, but by no means one which satisfactorily deals with the unspoken issues that Bernie and Serena are facing and therefore doesn’t hold fast when tested when Greta is readmitted and Serena holds Bernie accountable for her actions.
The bleeding vessel in this instance is the aorta, signifying a “broken heart”. Despite all appearing to be well at first, when Serena cuts the ties on the stitches there is a tear and suddenly the cavity is full of blood. Bernie arrived at Holby with a “broken heart” both physically and metaphorically which was healed during her time there. She also went running off into the sunset wearing a charity bib which said “Holby Healthy Hearts” so there is a track record of using heart symbolism with Bernie.
Now that Greta has been readmitted and Serena is lashing out because she scared of what she might lose, she will end up pushing Bernie away through their arguments and leave them both “broken hearted”. The cutting of strings/stitches is significant as it hints at a cutting of ties. Whether these ties are Serena’s links to Holby, or her link to Bernie remains to be seen… it is possible that she presently views the situation that she can’t have one person without having to cut ties with the other hence the ‘choice’ that she makes when talking to Bernie in the office.
However, returning to the theme of threads, we know from the repeated references in this episode that Serena has been practicing knitting, and this involves joining threads into one united unit to make something greater than the sum of the original parts. So, there will be trouble, but Serena will play a role in ‘knitting’ together the damage she’s done in order to make amends and build something new. This may also be a literal play on words of the troubles of navigating a ‘close knit’ family?
(2) A timer is set for 30 minutes to redo the anastomosis after Bernie asks if Serena trusts her judgement
This is the amount of time left to fix the broken heart and points to the short amount of time we have for Berena to be fixed in the course of the following episode. Serena is adamant that she always believes in Bernie, but warns of the risk of long-term damage to the patient (paralysis) if the procedure isn’t completed within 30 minutes. Interestingly, paralysis was also the risk attached to Bernie’s operation when she first arrived at Holby with an unstable neck fracture (”I’d rather be dead than paralysed”), and is something that Bernie holds a greater fear of than death. Aware of the risk, Bernie proceeds. Whilst Bernie’s decisions appear rash to her upon her subsequent reflection in the office with Serena, Serena justifies her behaviour by stating that she was ‘being the greatest trauma surgeon the country has to offer’. This shows how high the stakes are, and what women both know (and fear) that they may stand to lose.
This concept of acting in the interests of one’s country/for a higher cause and acting rashly suggests that Bernie’s future actions may appear rash to an outside eye, but that she genuinely believes that she’s acting in the interests of the greater good, no matter the personal cost to her (something she’s more than used to from her military experiences). It could be read that in order to avoid having Serena make a choice between her or Holby, Bernie chooses to stand aside despite her own feelings in order to put Serena’s welfare above her own. Perhaps she decides to quietly slip away once the baby has safely arrived as she thinks Serena has already made her choice?
(3) We reach 15 mins to go and it isn’t looking positive.
In theatre, Serena reckons they won’t make it and Bernie asks if she believes in her. Serena replies, “Always”.
There will be a realisation at some point from Serena about her behaviour towards Bernie and she is distraught when she then reckons that she’s lost Bernie for good. However, if this is read as a parallel, it is we as viewers who are being reminded to believe in Berena as a couple who can withstand hardship and make it through together as they ‘always’ have.
(4) 2 mins to go and things are looking critical.
Bernie is frantically trying to complete the procedure in time. She quips about the countdown clock “who’s stupid idea was this?” and replies “you should have stopped me” to Serena and Donna.
This indicates a last minute attempt to salvage things, where Serena will have to find Bernie and stop her from leaving and carrying out her plan. She will stop her long enough for them to have a conversation.
In the scene, it is Serena who removes the clamp from the aorta (metaphorically representing her coming to terms with and expressing the truth and opening her heart) and this is mirrored by Bernie saying “moment of truth”.
I believe that this indicates an honest, heartfelt discussion where they finally let things go and properly sort things out between them.
(5) All is well!
Meanwhile, the patient lives! And in this parallel, Berena live! The cheering and clapping in the scene are not only the theatre staff, but thousands of invested Berena fans getting their just reward for making it through the angst fest!
Serena and Bernie leave the theatre staff to wrap things up and slip off to one side. Serena puts her arm over Bernie’s shoulder.
We know from the promo photos that they leave the hospital together, presumably with a clear way ahead of them!
All in all, if I’m anywhere near right, Patrick Homes is one clever writer to write that level of parallel!
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if u stanned rosalie or alice during the whole twilight thing was going on ur now a lesbienne or a bisexuelle
I honestly believe the whole “adults require less sleep” thing is honest to god probably a myth created by capitalism
It is.
i honestly believe that sleep deprivation is the biggest ignored/neglected root cause of health dangers that prematurely kill adults
ask me sometime about the role of sleep in the leptin ghrelin cycle and how its interruption destabilizes weight homeostasis
or about the new research showing that heart disease is not caused by fat, like we thought for years, but by inflammation in the circulatory system whose root cause is unknown but one of the prime suspects is, you guessed it, sleep deprivation
but nobody wants to hear that lack of sleep is killing people. employers don’t want to hear it. and god knows that having sold their waking hours to capitalism to survive workers don’t want to lose the only time they have left to them to live their lives, mostly stolen from sleep
i mean even i don’t want to do anything about it and i love sleep, i just love overwatch more
this this this this this
our society places almost zero value on sleep
on enough sleep
on uninterrupted sleep
on regular, predictable, cycling sleep
all the evidence we have suggests sleep is really, really, really important to the processes of the human body, including both mental and physical health, and yet when was the last time you heard somebody suggest that people had a *right* to sufficient, regular sleep?
Reminder that
- Humans are not meant to sleep for extended periods of uninterrupted sleep.
By this I don’t mean “humans shouldn’t have 8+ hours of sleep a night”; I mean that we are supposed to sleep for four to five hours (ish), then get up and do something relaxing like reading for a half hour to an hour, then get another bout of four to five hours. This is what our bodies were designed for.
Sleeping the whole night through was a fad started with the advent of the lightbulb. Sleeping the whole night through is so recent (and artificial) that First Sleep and Second Sleep are mentioned in Dickens’ novels.
- Lack of sleep for even a single night severely compromises your immune system.
If you’re planning on getting little sleep or pulling an all-nighter, make sure to eat lots of fruit and veggies/take vitamins that day. Or even better, get yourself some bee propolis. It’s a natural remedy used for thousands of years in Latin America and is insanely good for boosting up compromised immune systems (if you get the drop kind, put 3 to 4 drops in a spoonful of honey and mix well with a 2nd spoon to mask the strong taste). It has no side effects and is all but impossible to overdose on.
- According to several government bodies around the world, chronic lack of sleep is literally tied for 1st place as the worst kind of torture (the other is solitary isolation)
- Expecting a teen to get up for 8:30 classes is the equivalent of expecting an adult to be at work at 4 am.
After babies, teens are the age group that needs the most amount of sleep. Puberty is exhausting, and the body needs time to recharge. Ideally, a teen should be getting between 10 to 12 hours of sleep at the bare minimum. Most teens are lucky if they manage to get 8. And that’s a gigantic problem; not only does lack of sleep affect mood (which is extra significant when your hormones are already riding a rollercoaster to begin with), but also has massive effects on growth, which is kinda what the whole puberty thing is supposed to be about.
- According to research “starting work before 10 a.m. is tantamount to torture and is making staff sick and stressed”
- Humans were not designed to have the same sleep cycle across the species. Much the opposite in fact.
Night owls and morning people are an actual thing. Because we’re pack creatures, Nature came up with a clever way for our ancestors to always have someone on the lookout for predators and threats: make people naturally alert at varying times so that there’s always someone alert to keep watch.
Forcing night owls to follow morning people’s sleep cycle means night owls live with what researchers have referred to as “permanent jetlag”.
i cant believe americans on tv really say rock paper scissors like???? its paper scissors rock omg do u irl americans actually say rock paper scissors????
rb this with whether u say paper scissors rock or rock paper scissors
me normally: linguistic differences are so interesting and cool! I love hearing different dialectal variations.
me, reading “paper, scissors, rock” with my own two eyeballs: the lord is testing me
Happy 53rd birthday! 🌟 [Jemima Rebecca Redgrave, 14 January 1965]
Kate Stewart in the Tardis
Everyone wants Kate to get her Tardis moment and I am totally down with that, but I think it’d go a little differently. She walks in and the Doctor is waiting for the stuttering “it’s…” etc but Kate KNOWS it’s bigger on the inside. So she just strolls in and is like, come on then, let’s get going. And the Doctor has her arms spread wide like “did you notice anything?” and Kate “hmm?“s impatiently and the Doctor says “anything… surprising?” And Kate looks around and finally says “Well, I thought you’d have found somewhere a bit more private to dry your bras, but I guess the novelty hasn’t worn off yet.” Cue the Doctor hastily shoving her bras into a side room and starting the engines.
I want Kate to enter and say: I have to say I’m disappointed, I thought it would be bigger than (points around) that.
This is how you do it, you big berk!