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[torihaizu]

hey 👉👈 pls send some asks 😳🥺 havent been here in years... kindly fill me in on what's been happening on tumblr dot com

[radiofreeslowzone]

god I dont wanna fuckin go on dates or try to sell myself or expose myself to an unending list of potential heartbreaks i just wanna skip to the part where someone is holding me and i am cozy. fuck this bro

[sacrificialle-deactivated202111]

*gets addicted to literally anything that distracts me from the fact i exist*

[torihaizu]

i wanna um disappear lol life is a big gross i hate being stuck like this, its so hard to get out by myself im just trying my best so why is everyone yelling at me and why is everyone expecting me to be something, im just a speck of dirt !! an atom !!! i wish i could dissolve !!!

[torihaizu]

change of plans, no longer want to be an art student, ill be a virtual farmer instead :D

[torihaizu]

me: /steps out of my comfort zone/

me: this is so uncomfortable

[torihaizu]

lately i've been really happy with things. i feel like i have a dream again, and i'm allowing myself to dream again, little by little. work (making my animated short + illustrations) has been so enjoyable, especially since i really feel like im learning through experience. i found out that animating really is insanely tedious but crazy fun at the same time, and all this while i've been scared of getting into it! i'm so excited for the future, for my growth, and for what comes next!! this is probably the most upbeat i've been in like a year, and it's really all because i feel like i've come to love art again, and that just makes me feel happy.

[torihaizu]

when friends eventually pair off and find the one for them, it makes me feel so very small and lonely, even though i will always wish happiness for them. i feel as though i dont deserve to feel lonely since it's not like they're leaving me, but i still do and i think it's impt to accept feelings like that. i just feel so very alone now, and somewhat betrayed, if it makes any sense at all. i dont resent them but i do feel afraid of being left behind. i end up feeling like i regret investing time and emotions into the friendship, if they're going to "leave" anyway. i know it's unhealthy to cling on people like that, so i wont, but these conflicting feelings still reside within me.

[torihaizu]

Do you take request?

hi! as of now, I don't, but I'll be opening up commissions soon, so please do look forward to that !! （＾Ｏ＾)/

[torihaizu]

passion is so darn fickle!!!! one day i'll be excited to work on my art and be productive and the next i'll feel terrible, like my work has no meaning and everyone is going way too fast and im a slow loser. ive been down about my art for the longest time, and recently ive gotten into the groove a bit and i sorta set up my art twt and kofi already, but yea lots of uncertainty and doubt and "am i doing okaY???? HOW DO I Know" going on. im sure everyone feels this way sometime or the other, but it sure feels lonely when you're experiencing it by yourself.

[torihaizu]

me n my life have 1 thing in common: dumb and ugly

[kuizu-deactivated20190823]

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[torihaizu]

haha so after 3 whole days i finally finished OZMAFIA!! and got completion to 100%, i may or may not have a social life yee yee 😔🤪😔👈😃🤘🤘🤠🤠👌😎😎😎😎 (top faves: axel, scarlet, and caesar)

[torihaizu]

thesis defense tomorrow yee yee 😎👍 wish yo gal luck 😔😔😔

[081098]

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purple // sohlhee ft. taeil

[toshio]

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[torihaizu]

passion w/o perseverance is merely a dream w/o reality, and i know i dont have either, so what am i still doing here? is existence my only goal? will success make me happy? wht is success, even????? how do you define when "you've made it"?? and is it even achievable?