二人踊るよ星の下で @toshiki - Tumblr Blog

Even if you grow to love someone else, please don’t forget about me, because I’ll never forget about you. You made my life worth living, and I wish only the best for you. I love you, so, so much, and when my time comes, that love will die with me too. It was so special that only you and I truly knew about it. Maybe just me, actually.

Don’t forget about us, because that’s the only thing that can crush me completely, irrevocably. Knowing that I cherish the 4 years we spent together and you think of it as like a stain on your shirt. Your influence has weaved itself into my everyday; am I the same to you? God I hope so.

Goodbye my love. I love you so fucking much

What would you say if you spoke to me again? Would you acknowledge your mistakes? Would you have really changed? Has the way you felt about me changed, for better or worse? My mind drones on just thinking of things that will just never happen. I tell my friends I’ll k*ll myself if you don’t text me back, but that’s not true. I think that despite us being apart now, that it might make you sad, if you ever found out. I just live with my heart crumpled up like a ball of paper, and even though I’ve unfolded it the creases and wrinkles will never come back out.

Sorry to bother you with my needs. I’m sorry for having needs. I’m sorry for wanting to see you and touch you and hear you and look at you, have you face to face in front of me, looking at me like I’m the most treasured person in the world, and I’m sorry that I loved you too much and you didn’t love me enough. You’re too proud to apologize, always have been, so I’ll do it for you, every time. For anything. I hope you wonder if if I’m dead

I’m so lost. My life has been one disappointment after another since we broke up and I know it was for the best but I thought we were soulmates. I really thought I found my person. But the walls were closing in and I had nowhere to go, just suffocating in resentment. If god is real, he’ll bring you back to me