cwjbhn — jake scott, josie dunne. ( sun in cancer, venus in leo, moon opposite venus. )
even if it doesn’t work out / even if it doesn’t make sense / and you never see me again / can we just be happy now ?
middle children have a tendency to be overlooked and seek comforts somewhere outside of their home. madeleine avery had her first significant other at thirteen, because she had so much love to funnel into someone that she would give it to anyone who would receive it from her. it seemed that she was always in the company of someone and there would be constellations of adoration welling in her eyes. it didn’t matter what they looked like or the family they came from, or if they were from a house that her parents considered worthy of associating with, she didn’t care if — in the morning — her life would go up in flames. for just a few moments she was willing to beg anyone for happiness, because she didn’t know how to give it to herself.
21st century machine — catie turner. ( chiron in aquarius, moon in aquarius. )
someone tell me if this is all an illusion / or if i’m just a cog / in the 21st century machine
madeleine has always had trouble in self expression when her emotions come into play, distancing herself further and further until faced with the reality that she can’t ever fully detach herself from them. there is no spell to remedy all her feelings, nor a spell to teach her how to align with herself fully. so many people in her life have taught her how to feel, how to carry herself, the kind of person she should be, and there was very little room until very recently that she needed to fill in those blanks herself, not the people who didn’t have to live in her head for so long. until rather recently, madeleine had a habit of looking at her life as though she were a third party mediator and not the pilot of her own actions.
civil war — andy grammer. ( moon in aquarius, ascendant in capricorn, mars in virgo. )
what'd you make me that way for ? / that i'd be a civil war / i’m ashamed, i’m amazed, i’m afraid of the wicked i need.
in war there is no balance, there is no understanding, there is bloodshed, tears, and grief, and for a long time that was how madeleine had lived. underneath that polished daughter who did not cry and had no cracks in her porcelain mask existed a little girl who wanted nothing more than to be loved and cared for. she did not want to be strong, she wanted to be loved and when you are fourteen and crying in front of a portrait of helga hufflepuff, sometimes that’s all you need. the fat friar found the little slytherin girl in her puddle of tears and returned with a hufflepuff prefect who brought her into the kitchens. there, they had one of the first honest conversations that madeleine had ever had and came away with one resentful thought: children do not need to fight wars, but it seems as though some of their parents have forgotten the lessons that war taught them.
pierre — ryn weaver. ( mars in virgo, jupiter in capricorn. )
i danced in the desert, in the pouring rain / drank with the devil and forgot my name / woke with somebody when the morning came / no one there to shame me for my youth.
in the household she grew up in, there was no room for an ounce of failure. even as a middle child, the occasionally forgotten straggler, the one who felt as though she was starved for love and attention from the moment she’d been made an older sister, madeleine was keenly aware that she would succeed or she would no longer be a member of the family. the fear of being blasted off of the wall kept her in line for a time, her romantic proclivities in school a minor distraction and no real stain on her name. by the time she’d graduated, her need for rebellion was at a fever pitch and she may or may not have ditched the ministry secretarial position that had been arranged for her in favor of approaching her grandfather and making a simple request: make her the next owner of his apothecary, make her the heir of the reliquary. she made a deal with the devil, and now she’ll take over the world.
levitating — dua lipa. ( ascendant in capricorn, mars in virgo, jupiter in capricorn. )
i believe that you're for me, i feel it in our energy / i see us written in the stars / we can go wherever, so let's do it now or never
much of madeleine’s chart tells of a young woman who loves grand romantic gestures and travel. in taking on her grandfather’s business and evaluating the finances, she made the decision to open the third ever location of the verdant reliquary ( as one already exists in the family’s hometown and in carkitt market ) in the 6th arrondissement of paris. it was here that she was reminded of who she had the potential to be: flirtatious, charismatic, an individual and not one in a set of three. something happened, in the years between seventeen and twenty one — when she returned to england to live full time instead of week long business where the reliquary was more important than her friends or family. paris was initially an escape that became the most wonderfully transformative experience. “i see us written in the stars” is not about another person, but madeleine serenading herself: happiness is hers to take, and she has gripped it with both hands. she will not be letting go of that any time soon.
