so its been about 2 months since me and my ex split and up till now its not been the best break up, on ether side there has been words, nasty words at that. I for one take the blame for my actions and words and understand that, they did hurt, unfortunately I seem to be the only one who’s taken any of the blame. I once got told that “when you point a finger at someone there are always 3 pointing back at you.” I am ashamed to say I lost the meaning of these words, I’ll be the first to admit that, the relationship wasn't the best one due to my stupid actions it started off on rocky ground and gradually got worse from there onwards, i wont defend my actions as they were stupid but, leaving my actions and words aside I wanted to look at her actions or to be accurate , her final words and actions, its not about, letting boys openly flirt with her over facebook then acting innocent when i got annoyed about it, its not about your “friend” sending her random dick pics from random boys and having a good look at it, never mind your boyfriend, the guy you claimed to love was sitting or laying next you, its not about forcing me to get rid of any girl you think i may have slept with or fancied before id even met her but, refusing to get rid of a guy who mentally and emotionally abused her for over a year claiming he was “just a friend, so it was ok”. its not even about moaning for days that we were “drifting apart” and that “i never wanted to spend time with you”, so we arranged a night in, just me and you with films in bed, then at 11pm getting a message off the same “friend” inviting her to a party and, instead of saying no, jumping out of bed rushing to get dressed and rushing off to go and get drunk with a guy who mentally abused you (amongst other things) and leaving your boyfriend at home alone. its not about making sexual advances towards me even after we’d split, giving me a tiny flicker of hope that you may still want me, even though you knew this break up was hard for me. Then dropping me as soon as you met a new guy (who fucked you over, karma). Its not about you giving me a solemn promise that we could still be friends because you still cared enough about me to want to be friends, then suddenly changing your mind, strangely after her friends had given me attitude, It’s not about any of these, no, instead its about how, even after iv done all but physically crawl on me knees in front of you, even after you seem to think that my emotions are yours to fuck up even more, no matter if it be, ruining a potential new relationship for me or, using my personal photos to goad people into bullying my appearance or taking away 3 of the rats we bought together splitting them all up and then refusing to give them back or to even let me see them. I dread to think what’s next, im on pills to help me sleep, im on pills for depression, im in counselling for self harm and the worst part is, you believe yourself to be the only victim in this, you bitch and moan about what iv done or said and vie for the attention of anyone who will give it to you, no matter who that is, you blog about me to try to get attention (yes i see the irony of this). you go on about me being twisted with hate and that may be but you are drowning so much in your own hate you fail to see it, you point your finger at me but you forget, there are always 3 pointing back at you.