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🪾made this account to post random things i like🪾 she/her 21

[totallynotesylah]

made this account to be my diary, i just want a place to dump random thoughts, i can't on my social media account cuz everyone knows me , and i can't use chat gpt like most ppl do cuz im anti ai , so here we are :)

[themooninthestars]

[totallynotesylah]

WE ARE SO BACK OMG SHE CALLED ME LOVE AND WE'RE NOT ARGUING ANYMORE!!!!!

[totallynotesylah]

how to get her back no borax no glue

[moonvera]

[riacain]

[fawnzquee]

#stayweird

#staywoke

#staywhimsical

#stayniche

#staynerdy

[cherryglittrbomb]

[ultimatelustforlife]

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[totallynotesylah]

I had a dream last night about me and my gf ... i was sitting next to her in a place that seemed to be our dorm room , but there was other ppl just there doing thier own shit ... we were chatting (i don't remember the topic but there seemed to be a test online that tells u about ur personality and everyone seemed to be doing it so we did it and keot discussing our results... and one of our mutual friends results (let's just call her nunu) and i remember specifically saying "i don't think she's really like that i think she forgives ppl for being mean cuz she believes they didn't mean it " then there was some awkward silence cuz we are having a big argument irl about the fact that she keeps being mean to me and i keep forgiving her cuz she says she doesn't mean it but i had enough and i flipped on her and this whole thing led us to almost breaking up and we've been arguing for 4 days none stop now with no solution) ...and smoking, i noticed that she's not looking at me she was fixated on something else directly Infront of her so looked there and it was another girl sitting with a group of her friends and she was looking our way too , they were looking at eachother and i got uncomfortable

i wanted to light a cigarette so i took one of my pack and she noticed that and since she's done smoking she held the butt of her still lit cigarette to the start of my cigarette to light it but i was laying down and i got scared that the ash will fall on me so i sat up straight, the cigarette had a capsule and i haven't popped it yet so i took it out of my mouth and turned my head to the side to see but she didn't notice any of that and was still holding the butt of the cigarette very close to me which led her to burn my cheek , i screamed and she got scared and i think my scream drew some attention but i didn't care i grabbed some tissues and started wiping my face , and then i woke up ... even tho i woke up i still touched my cheek to check cuz that felt so real im genuinely tweaking rn

[totallynotesylah]

i broke no contact and things aren't going well we had an argument and a while after she kept calling and asking where im at ... so should i tell this bitch that I've been busy cuz i kinda lowkey wanted to take myself out of the fucking world because of what's been happening between us lately or should i find some excuse?

[totallynotesylah]

3 likes and im breaking no contact

[3theodore]

“when were you the happiest?” ohh idk when i was lying on their chest listening to their heartbeat

[totallynotesylah]

i had a dream about her last night, i barely remember it but something bad was happening and she was there for me .... god i miss her i want her back i want the fights to be over I can't live like this

[s1lentsin]

[chxrry985]

like, case gets it.

edit by me :3

[totallynotesylah]

took this pic while out with my girl a while ago