Couldn’t Tell Ya

Basically this is a personal blog for me to vent and post whatever i feel

[girlonline]

[bpdtaem]

???

[yesbpdbabe-deactivated20210115]

the BPD Experience ™ really is like..... i hate you! until you show me the slightest bit of affection again and now i love you

[sacrificialle-deactivated202111]

YES i am desperate for friends. YES as soon as i think they don’t like me as much as i like them i ghost them out of fear. WE EXIST

[soittareine]

remember that they owed you unconditional love and you did nothing to betray that, you were a child. you will always have deserved better.

[dollieblush]

i found this on facebook and i relate so much.

[ambiguouslydisordered]

being a csa survivor is like *isolates self* *doesn’t trust strangers* *has nightmares* *has intrusive thoughts* *worries about becoming abuser* *doesn’t trust strangers* *worries older friends are going to take advantage of you* *writes poetry to cope* *doesn’t talk to parents about trauma* *is angry* *has nightmares* *has meltdowns over small things* *is angry* *has intrusive thoughts* *Isolates self* *reads to cope* *cries too much or not at all* *is angry*

[yvvxv-deactivated20180523]

*stares at selfies until they turn ugly* I knew it

[urlcrying-deactivated20180915]

[ptsdying]

[mohsie]

me, splitting: dont you dare talk to me don’t even look at me don’t think about me forget i even exist. i never want to see you again and i wish you’d just die

also me, splitting: how dare you ignore me when i’m clearly upset with you you should be trying to fucking fix things i bet you don’t even care that you upset me

[actuallyunempathetic]

having a fp is really just *falls in love* *splits* *fears abandonment* *splits again* *frantically apologises* *is fine for a day* *spli

[confusedchildinside]

someone fuck me so i feel less empty

[toxic-memories]

i’m tired of feeling this way. my heart hurts, but i’m only doing it to myself. i can’t stop

i don’t know how..

[traumathoughts]

[greelin]

*feels nothing* mmm, don’t like that *feels something but like, too much* mmm not a fan of that either

[heavensghost]