the Misunderstander

alex // she/her // 31 // currently lost in the arctic

[brightbrutality]

[rustmarty]

rust + marty + kiss me

[merrymorningofmay]

something tastyyyyyy about marty and rust in ep4 where marty's losing the grip on his patriarchal status as a husband/father/macho, so when rust comes in like "hey fuck your feelings we have a job to do, also here's my gruesome undercover backstory" he's acting as kind of a masculinity role model for marty: someone who's done all this novel manly stuff like Killing People and Wearing Cool Jacket herding marty back to "being a real man" (which marty conceptualises as enduring the horrors for the greater good and being soo brave about it)

EXCEPT to rust, and to the viewer who's heard rust tell that same backstory in 2012, his time undercover was not about heroism or tough yet necessary choices but about powerlessness and humiliation and being given no choice. it was an experience he compares to prostitution specifically, with his body physically penetrated by bullets and substances (and possibly tattoo needles) and every hierarchy, both the gangs and the police, seeing him as less than human (prey or a tool respectively). the thing that in ep4 makes marty feel low-key envious of rust's manhood is the part of rust's life where he had to assume a symbolically feminine role

[montmorencyyy]

when do these guys stop living rent free in my brain. it's been months (years)

[gayboysteve]

I've cried a lot, very briefly.

True Detective Season 1 // Goatsong by Leila Chatti

[solucycanwait]

girls don't want a boyfriend they want to read the 450-page analysis that Matthew Mcconaughey wrote about "the four stages of Rustin Cohle"

[rylandgracie]

[preacherboyd]

With all the dick swagger you roll, you can't spot crazy pussy?

[fr1yys]

Thing idk if I'll finish

[autotomic]

what’s scented meat?

[teethburied]

1.01 "The Long Bright Dark"

[tvandfilm]

True Detective – Season 1 (2014)

[teethburied]

1.08 'Form and Void'

[rustmarty]

this is like a sex scene to me

[palmviolet]

“Fallen prey to his own beliefs [...] He’s a guy who’s resigned to his indentured servitude of being alive. But he despises the sentence and the penance. He will not accept defeat. He’s not going become a madman, he’s not going to kill himself. He wrestles the devil every day, and he realizes that this may last a lot longer than he ever hoped for.”

— Matthew McConaughey on Rust Cohle in 2012

[magdaliny-deactivated20191030]

“In college I had a physics professor who wrote the date and time in red marker on a sheet of white paper and then lit the paper on fire and placed it on a metallic mesh basket on the lab table where it burned to ashes. He asked us whether or not the information on the paper was destroyed and not recoverable, and of course we were wrong, because physics tells us that information is never lost, not even in a black hole, and that what is seemingly destroyed is, in fact, retrievable. In that burning paper the markings of ink on the page are preserved in the way the flame flickers and the smoke curls. Wildly distorted to the point of chaos, the information is nonetheless not dead. Nothing, really, dies. Nothing dies. Nothing dies.”

— Nicholas Rombes, The Absolution of Roberto Acestes Laing (via bobschofield)

[eroscestlavie]

you either get it or you gont

Say that shit my brother

[eroscestlavie]

you literally either get it or you gont