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✦ i'm in a winter mood, dreaming of spring now. ・

[tragicknown]

✦ ・𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓰𝓲𝓬𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀𝓷 : a dependent multi-muse. do not interact if not affiliated with wilmafm. muse(s) include: celeste rose & jude lee.

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[userjoel]

230413 / STEVEN YEUN ON CBS MORNINGS

[illmind]

will  leans  back  against  the  bricks  of  the  building  while  lighting  up  his  cigarette.  “  mm.  “   nods  until  he  takes  the  bud  from  between  his  lips.  “  night  shift  is  a  mood  killer  sometimes,  huh  ?  “  one  that  he  knew  of  all  too  well.  it’s  never  really  a  mood  killer  when  it’s  the  two  of  them  and  their  guitars  staying  up  late  but  this  ?   –  the  works  situation  ?  different  story.  “  sure.  “  will  blows  out  some  smoke.  “  what’s  up,  bud  ?  “   glances  over  to  his  friend,  one  hand  in  the  pocket  of  his  jacket,  the  other  one  holding  the  cigarette.  “  fair  warning  though  –   i’m  a  couple  of  beers  in.  “

[tragicknown]

✦   ・his  focus  blurs  a  bit  as  he  looks  toward  the  street,  over  at  the  building  across  from  them.  his  eyes  don't  look  at  will,  but  he  listens.  jude  was  good  at  that,  listening.  advice  ?  probably  not,  but  he  had  two  good  ears  and  he  sure  as  hell  used  them.  “  totally  —  i'm  exhausted,  too.  that  never  fucking  helps,  ”  he  let  out  a  sigh,  clearly  annoyed  by  the  length  of  the  night.  he  let  the  cigarette  find  its  place  between  his  lips  and  he  inhaled  the  sweet  burn  then  exhaled  slowly.  “  no  worries  at  all.  who  isn't  at  this  place  ?  ”  he  teased,  the  stick  resting  between  two  fingers.  “  i've  had  a  rough  few  nights  with  ewan.  he's  not  sleeping  well.  he  can't  seem  to  stay  in  his  own  bed.  i  know  you  don't  have  kids,  man  but  i'm  at  a  lost  here.  y'think  could  the  move  have  been  too  much  for  him  ?  his  mother  isn't  here  and  i'm  sure..  i'm  sure  that's  taking  a  toll.  "

[andremichaux]

Kathryn Hahn photographed by Daniel Dorsa for The New York Times (2021)

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𓂅 𐫱 ❛ she was still adjusting to life in the town, more  so,  she  was  still  trying  to  familiarize  herself  with  the  people  she  came  across.  carly  was  not  accustomed  to  seeing  familiar  faces  so  frequently.  taking  a  stroll  down  the  streets  of  dauntridge  was  vastly  different  than  walking  in  california.  thus  far,  most  of  the  people  she'd  met  had  been  kind,  jude  included.  nobody  there  seemed  to  carry  themselves  with  arrogance,  and  she  truly  loved  that.  this  place  was  a  beautiful  change  of  pace  for  her,  and  she  was  soaking  up  every  moment.  “  i  get  what  you  mean  by  that,  ”   she  empathized,  a  slight  nod  following  her  words.   she  fully  understood  how  his  thoughts  could  operate  that  way.  anxiety  was  not  an  easy  thing  to  deal  with,  and  she  knew  that  all  too  well.  “  hey,  as  long  as  you  don't  give  up  hope  …  it'll  happen  for  you  eventually,  ”  she  told  him,  doing  her  best  to  remain  encouraging.  she  nodded  at  his  words,  listening  carefully.  “  is  it  busy  in  there  tonight  to  at  least  keep  you  busy  ?  or  is  it  just  one  of  those  nights  ?   ”  she  questioned.

[tragicknown]

✦   ・he  understood  the  allure  of  dauntridge  all  too  well.  it  was  a  kind  town  and  it  welcomed  him  with  open  arms.  at  least,  that's  what  it  felt  like.  he  and  ewan  needed  the  change.  at  times,  jude  felt  like  he  was  running  away  and  other  times  he  felt  like  it  was  simply  a  fresh  start.  him  and  his  son  needed  to  get  away  from  the  bullshit  that  revolved  around  his  ex.  he  didn't  let  it  affect  his  time  in  town,  either.  anxiety  was  a  damning  thing,  too.  he  dealt  with  it  on  a  daily  basis  and  he  absolutely  despised  it.  brows  furrowed  at  the  thought  of  his  own  anxiety,  but  when  the  woman  spoke  —  he  couldn't  help  but  direct  his  entire  focus  onto  her,  to  listen.  “  it's  not  too  bad  in  there.  we  get  a  lot  of  people  who  need  to  vent  and,  yeah  —  sometimes  i  can't  handle  it.  i  needed  a  breather  from  it,  is  all.  not  sure  if  that  makes  me  a  terrible  person  or  not,  but  god.  it's  difficult  when  your  mind  isn't  in  a  good  place  to  be  an  ear  for  someone..  or  three  in  one  night.  ”

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𓂅 𐫱 ❛ fortunately for carly, she knew what it was like to have a kind hearted boss. she genuinely liked celeste, and she got the sense that most people in dauntridge shared the same sentiment. kind people were not always easy to come by, and she knew that from her own experiences. carly  loved  that  she  always  felt  appreciated  by  her  boss,  because  she  knew  that  many  people  certainly  did  not.  she'd  seen  and  heard  many  horror  stories  regarding  the  worst  possible  bosses  out  there,  and  felt  fortunate  she'd  never  experienced  it  for  herself.  “  thank  you,  celeste,  ”  she  said,  her  smile  bright  as  ever.  it  meant  a  lot  to  her,  knowing  the  woman  thought  she  was  amazing.  carly  felt  the  same  way  about  celeste.  “  i'm  glad  you  think  so,  ”  she  told  her,  a  soft  laugh  escaping  her  lips.  “  i've  been  making  coffee  for  such  a  long  time,  so  it's  nice  to  know  my  skills  haven't  gone  unnoticed.  ”  she  was  rather  passionate  about  her  coffee  after  all.  she  could  appreciate  effort  put  into  decorating.  seeing  the  decorations  around  the  shop  reminded  her  a  bit  of  home,  considering  her  own  mother  always  went  all  out  on  decorating.  she  knew  where  she  got  that  from.  “  it  does.  i  had  to  go  all  out  for  my  first  halloween  here,  ”  she  told  the  other  proudly.  carly  nodded  at  her  words,  smile  still  present  on  her  features.  “  oh  ?  now  you've  got  me  really  curious,  ”  carly  told  her,  intrigued.  “  i  bet  it  looks  amazing.  ”

[tragicknown]

✦   ・the  full  moon  was  supposed  to  be  a  safe  space.  whether  it  be  for  her  employees  or  her  customers,  it  was  meant  to  offer  comfort.  she  was  glad  to  know  that  carly  felt  sense  of  it  when  working  with  celeste.  it  truly  made  all  the  hard  work  worth  it.  she  loved  the  book  shop  with  all  of  her  being  and  she'd  do  anything  to  keep  it  maintained  and  running.  good  people  like  carly  helped  make  it  happen.  smiling  over  at  the  young  girl,  she  couldn't  help  but  to  feel  joy.  “  you're  so  very  welcome,  dear,  “  she  spoke  with  that  same  smile.  despite  their  age  difference,  they  were  friends  and  cel  adored  it.  the  coffee  was  good  and  cel  took,  yet,  another  sip  of  the  warm  liquid.  it  was  refreshing  and  soothing.  it  was  definitely  a  need  after  a  long  day  of  working.  “  please,  i'll  forever  compliment  your  ability  to  make  coffee.  especially  if  you  keep  making  it  for  me,  “  her  nose  wrinkled  as  she  chuckled,  teasing  at  carly.  “  but  yes,  it's  very  good,  ”  she  spoke  more  seriously,  though  that  grin  did  not  fade  for  a  second.  “  would  you  like  to  come  by  sometime  ?  i  wouldn't  mind.  i  don't  get  visitors  that  often  !  i'll  return  the  favor,  too  —  i'll  make  you  a  cup  of  my  favorite  brew.  ” 

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𓂅 𐫱 ❛ ryan knew it probably looked pretty bad, spending as much time at the bar as he had when he wasn't even working, but he didn't care. he doubted anyone would find the courage to say anything to his face, and if they somehow did, he wouldn't react kindly. he had a reputation of sorts, of course. he didn't back down, he wasn't someone who cowered away from a confrontation. he did as he pleased, and he wouldn't stop doing that to appease anyone else. if people didn't like his decisions, they could keep it to themselves or regret saying anything to his face. ryan looked at him skeptically for a moment, head shaking slightly. “  well, i get needing a break,  ” he told him, shrugging. ryan took frequent breaks, dipping out to have a quick smoke or breather when he had someone else there with him or when there were no patrons. “  okay, well, that's probably for the best,  ” he said, nodding. not that he'd care if jude did judge him anyways.

[tragicknown]

✦  ・when  starting  the  job  at  the  pub,  jude  was  secretly  given  an  idea  of  who  ryan  was  simply  through  the  whispers  that  formed  such  a  reputation.  he  didn't  judge  him,  no.  he  couldn't.  there  was  no  way  that  jude  wanted  to  assume  the  worst  out  of  someone  he  didn't  know.  that  didn't  mean  he  was  pushing  to  be  his  friend  or  to  know  him,  but  regardless  of  what  had  been  said,  jude  was  going  to  respect  him.  he  expected  respect  back,  too.  as  long  as  that  was  silently  noticed,  then  all  would  be  good.  so,  even  while  ryan  spent  a  lot  of  time  at  the  bar  whether  clocked-in  or  not,  jude  didn't  judge  nor  minded.  “  it's  loud  in  there  tonight.  i  have  a  lot  on  my  mind,  ”  he  also  shrugged,  not  bothering  to  further  the  statement.  “  i  suppose  so.  ”

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𓂅 𐫱 ❛ books were just not his thing, neither were people. still, ryan knew that at some point, he was required to deal with people whether he liked it or not. perhaps if he hadn't been so hellbent on at least attempting to fix his issues on his own, he wouldn't have even put himself in this situation. he was just too stubborn and didn't want to deal with even more people. he didn't like his space being invaded. ryan nodded slightly, following the woman as she lead him to the proper area of the shop. “  uh, how to fix a sink.  ” he wouldn't get into all of the details of it, as he didn't feel like it, and she probably didn't want to hear it, either.

[tragicknown]

✦  ・she  understood  that  books  didn't  have  the  same  appeal  for  others,  but  she  loved  them.  they  were  her  favorite  hobby.  that  much  was  known  by  the  entire  town,  as  her  store  reflected  that  adoration.  it  helped  that  the  townsfolk  supported  the  creation  of  full  moon,  too.  it  was  a  comforting  thing  to  experience.  she  liked  the  people  in  dauntridge.  more  often  than  not,  they  were  kind.  ever  since  moving,  everyday  started  to  feel  worth  it  all.  “  okay,  let  me  see,  ”  eyes  scanned  the  row  of  books,  pulling  out  a  fix-it-yourself  book  that  specialized  in  kitchen  and  bathroom  plumbing  and  handing  it  over  to  ryan  with  a  small  smile.  “  look  through  this,  ”  she  offered.

[illmind]

the  rain  was  close  to  soaking  through  the  pair  of  sneakers  on  her  feet.  it’s  early.  not  too  early,  more  so  too  late  …   10ish  am  ?  much  earlier,  much  later  than  it  should  be  considering  she’d  worked  the  bar  all  night  and  was  only  now  on  her  way  back  home.  mm,  the  thought  of  home–  of  a  shower,  of  her  bed  …   frustrating  to  find  herself  stumbling  into  the  book  shop  instead,  seeking  shelter  from  the  pouring.  hopefully  it’d  stop  in  a  moment.  “  hey  …  “   seren  grinds  out  between  her  teeth.  “  sorry  i–  …  just  browsing.  the  rain  is  crazy  today  …  “

[tragicknown]

✦  ・a  nod  was  given  towards  the  other  woman,  her  smile  not  disappearing  as  she  tried  to  keep  the  vibe  as  a  welcoming  one.  “  no  worries  !  let  me  know  if  you  need  any  help,  okay  ?  ”  she  promised,  shoving  a  book  in  its  new  place.  slowly,  cel  was  unpacking  new  inventory.  it  was  tedious  sometimes,  but  her  organization  was  important.  she  looked  over  to  the  windows,  eyes  squinting  a  bit  as  a  reaction  to  the  rain.  “  it  has  gotten  pretty  bad  out  there,  wow.  any  idea  of  when  it'll  calm  down  ?  ”

[thecinematics]

First look at Steven Yeun in The Humans (2021), dir. Stephen Karam

[dailyfilmactors]

Kathryn Hahn for the New Yorker (March 2021)

[kathrynhahnsource]

Kathryn Hahn for Emmy Magazine 2024 Photographed by Elisabeth Caren

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𓂅 𐫱 ❛ she knew not everyone was like her, that some people truly valued being alone. carly might not have fully understood why, but she was respectful of it. she smiled, a slight nod following. “ okay, cool, ” she replied. she liked keeping people company, she was someone who valued being in the presence of other people. it wasn't her place to comment on his smoking habit, even if she knew it was absolutely terrible for him. she wouldn't judge him, she knew that wasn't her place. if he wanted to smoke, he was allowed to do that. after all, he was a grown man who was more than capable of making his own decisions. “  you don't need to apologize to me,  ” she assured him. sure, it was a kind gesture, but she found it entirely unnecessary. carly listened intently, knowing full well how difficult it was to walk away from bad habits. “  don't give up on trying to quit. maybe one day it'll be easier,  ” she told him, a sincere smile forming on delicate features. “  i'm okay. i can't really complain. how are you ?  ”

[tragicknown]

✦   ・he  didn't  mind  either  or,  to  be  alone  and  to  be  in  the  presence  of  others.  as  a  father,  he  didn't  get  to  be  alone  often  as  his  spare  time  was  spent  caring  for  a  toddler.  it  was  a  life  of  getting  used  to,  but  he  took  in  every  moment  of  it,  loving  his  son  more  than  anything  in  the  entire  world.  on  the  rarity  of  being  alone,  jude  didn't  mind  it  and  he  didn't  necessarily  mind  someone  coming  into  view,  no.  he  was  slowly  getting  to  know  the  people  of  dauntridge,  so  he  accepted  any  sort  of  company  from  those  who  lived  within  city  limits.  “  i  worry  that  i'm  a  nuisance  with  it,  but  that's  my  own  anxiety  trying  to  poke  at  me,  ”  he  let  out  a  small  laugh,  trying  to  keep  the  smoke  from  wafting  in  the  other's  direction.  “  it's  harder  than  I  thought,  but..  one  day,  ”  there  was  a  nearly  sigh  there,  but  he  swallowed  it.  smoking  was  something  he  picked  up  as  a  teenager  and  never  really  tried  to  stop  it.  “  i'm  great.  i'll  be  even  greater  once  this  shift  ends,  ”  a  thumb  extended  to  gesture  back  to  the  pub  behind  him.  “  got  a  couple  of  hours,  i'm  counting  down  the  minutes.  ”  in  truth,  he  wanted  to  see  his  son. 

[jensenalvarez]

the bar was a place where jensen went when she had a tough day at work. the alcohol was something she used to ease her mind. it probably wasn't the best coping mechanism but whatever helped, right? the surgeon had grown to know half of the bartenders and workers there, she considered them her friends. maybe a few of them but not many. whoever made her drink right on those shitty nights were a friend. jesen was looking for jude, and the brunette found him outside smoking a cigarette. something she also used to do as a coping mechanism. taking a deep breath she pushed her hair out of her face "you have an extra one of those?" she questioned while raising her eyebrows and then folding her arms across her chest "what's going on, is everything alright?"

[tragicknown]

✦   ・he  met all  kinds  of  people.  from  locals  to  tourists,  jude  was  an  ear  to  plenty  of  persons.  he  didn't  mind  it.  he  expected  it  upon  becoming  a  bartender.  sometimes  he  needed  it,  too.  he  didn't  judge  nor  would  he  ever,  everyone  had  their  issues  and  if  talking  helped,  he'd  listen.  simple  as  that.  sometimes,  however,  he  needed  a  small  break  from  it.  hence  why  he  took  a  spot  in  front  of  the  bar  with  a  cigarette  between  his  fingers.  when  she  asked  for  one,  he  nodded  and  reached  for  the  pack  in  his  back  pocket.  “  here  you  go,  ”  he  offered  her  one  then  a  lighter  to  follow.  “  that's  been  giving  me  a  hard  time.  if  you  have  trouble  i  can  grab  some  matches  from  inside,  ”  a  figure  gestured  to  the  door.  “  but,  i'm  good  —  yeah.  i  needed  a  bit  of  a  breather.  you  ?  are  you  doing  okay  ?  ”  he  asked  with  geninue  concern. 

[jensenalvarez]

jensen was looking for a good book to read. she hasn't read anything in quite sometime and the brunette knew there were many good books out right now. full moon book store was one of her favorite places to go to in town aside from the bar and having some time before work, she found herself walking in. it was early, really early and jensen smiled softly and said "thank you!" she pushed her hair out of her face and continued with "ive been in a huge reading slump, do you have any suggestions? i mainly read thriller, but i think i want to get into fantasy?"

[tragicknown]

✦   ・seeing  a  frequent  customer  was  always  a  wonderful  thing.  she  felt  a  feeling  of  accomplishment,  too.  if  someone  kept  coming  back,  she  was  doing  something  right.  “  reading  slumps  are  the  absolutely  worst,  yeah,  ”  celeste  spoke  as  a  sigh  followed.  “  it's  a  real  struggle,  ”  was  continued  as  she  gestured  over  towards  a  general  area,  hoping  that  jensen  followed.  “  our  fantasy  section  is  one  of  our  biggest.  there's  a  lot  here.  i  try  to  get  what's  popular—  especially  on  booktok.  ‘a  court  of  thorns  and  roses’  is  one  of  our  populars.  as  well  as  ‘fourth  wing’.  "

[thedarkredliquor]

“i was just looking for you. noticed you weren't in your usual spot at the bar.” keira points out. she pulls a cigarette and a lighter from her purse, then lighting her own cig before putting the lighter away. she immediately noted that he seemed like he had a lot on his mind -- which wasn't unusual, for him. “tell me what you're thinking.”

[tragicknown]

✦   ・"  was  due  for  a  break.  “  he  spoke  plainly  to  kiera,  a  half-smile  given  as  she  approached  him.  “  i  didn't  know  you  were  around  tonight.  how'd  i  miss  you  ?  “  jude  let  out  a  small  chuckle  before  taking  another  inhale  of  his  cigarette,  exhaling  the  smoke  only  for  a  cough  to  interrupt  promptly  after.  ”  thinking  about  ewan—  like  always.  i  worry  i  can't  provide  for  the  kid.  i'm  struggling.  "

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𓂅 𐫱 ❛ carly never minded staying after hours, she found the bookstore to be quite peaceful when it was just her and celeste. of course, she enjoyed their customers as well, but there was something different about the near - emptiness. being surrounded by books and a boss she admired was quite the experience. she knew there were countless people with long lists of complaints about their bosses, and she felt fortunate that she wasn't one of them. she grinned at the woman's words, a low laugh escaping shortly after. “ you know, i might've started to lose count, but it doesn't mean i'll ever get tired of hearing it. ” she teased. carly nodded at her words, glad she could be of assistance. “  you know, i've always felt like coffee is just one of those things that can almost always guarantee to pick up someone's mood.  ” that was, of course, assuming the person in question was a coffee drinker. which, she didn't know how someone couldn't be. carly pursed her lips, studying the area carefully. “  no, not at all. i think it's the perfect amount of decor,  ” she told her, the words sincere. “  i do, too. my apartment looks like jack skellington threw up all over it,  ” she said with a laugh.

[tragicknown]

✦   ・the  company  of  one's  employee  might've  been  a  drag  at  other  places  of  business  but  it  wasn't  like  that  here.  celeste  adored  carly,  all  of  her  employees,  with  a  big,  honest  heart.  she  was  clear  about  what  she  wanted  done  and  they  all  listened.  besides,  it  was  nice  to  have  somewhat  of  a  personal  relationship  with  the  employees  that  wanted  to  have  one.  she  didn't  force  it,  no.  it  just  made  it  feel  like  they  were  close,  like  family.  she  liked  that.  family  was  important  to  her.  carly  was  definitely  family.  “  well,  i  one-hundred  percent  mean  it  !  you're  amazing.  ”  her  smile  remained  itself  upon  her  features,  keeping  the  mug  close  to  her  lips  before  taking,  yet,  another  sip  of  the  warm  drink.  “  this  is  a  good  coffee,  ”  she  commented  as  eyes  kept  themselves  on  the  display  of  books  with  a  touch  of  autumn.  the  display  itself  consisted  of  books  that  revolved  around  fall,  halloween—  just  to  stay  in  season.  “  does  it,  now  ?  i  may  have  you  beat  with  my  house,  but  that'll  be  a  score  we'll  have  to  settle  later,  ”  celeste  teased,  definitely  joking.  “  i  need  the  girls'  help  with  putting  some  more  things  out  around  the  living  room,  but  otherwise  my  house  is  all  decorated  ”