camden's cupid

sugar, spice, and everything nice.

[the-unconquerable]

Scared? How dare you?

Haven’t you been watching, love? How she has flirted with other men not long after I was gone. I know that you know, Amy, and so do I. Don’t take me for a fool. I am not scared, I am angry and I am trying to keep my head clear—do not push me in the opposite direction. I have not felt this furious in thousands of years and I don’t know what I would do if you forced me to deal with my feelings.

I might regret it in a hundred years, but I’ve piled regrets through the centuries before; if this is a regret I must suffer so I won’t experience a worse one, then so be it.

I know what family is, it is you and Adam, Kader and Beatrix, Thais and Arthur and Dalia. It’s just us, forever. I don’t need anyone else.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

No, she didn't. I know her feelings; I know her thoughts. Why won't you believe me? Of all of us, I was the one who was always by your side. And now you're just... ignoring everything I say. This isn't you. 

Lost brother: if found, please return.

[the-unconquerable]

A victim? Of what, my brother’s love? What is it that she has been victimized with? She wanted to hate me before he lied to her; she still wants to hate me now. If her heart wasn’t so keen on it, she wouldn’t have believed a word that left his mouth. Her affections confuse and overwhelm me in a way I can’t describe. When I have so much to do and thoughts of her trouble me, I wish to wipe her off my memory. However, it is not a hurt that can be simply replaced or forgotten. I’ve risked so much, too much, for her—from day one. Perhaps I’ve done all that I could in her life and it is time for me to move on.

But how can I fix myself? I have chosen; I will always choose my family. I don’t need to think about it, I’ve always known. If she mattered so much to him, he should’ve told me clearly and honestly, and I would have stepped back. I speak no riddles, but if I did, could you blame me? I am hurt by this… betrayal. I don’t want to speak of it anymore.

I know what I feel, Amy, as confusing as it is for me to tell the feelings apart, and it is not hope, but resignation. I have accepted my predicament. I am sorry to let you down, I know how much you wanted this for me… since the last time. But I can’t. I can’t go through with it, if I do, I’m afraid the outcome will be much worse. I’ll try to look at this as a good thing…there is no other way I can look at it.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

No, his lie. Of course she did, hate is much easier to deal with than love. People get scared, defensive, like Cameron or Tristan. Like you. But she doesn't hate you, I know. If they confuse you, maybe you should ask her to explain. I think you're scared. 

You're not broken, brother. You don't need fixing. This... this is what I'm talking about. He betrayed you and you're taking it out on her. You were gone... she was fragile... if I had told her you went on a trip to the end of the rainbow, she would have believed it. Any explanation, even if terrible, is better than no explanation. I just think... I think you will regret this. In a hundred years, you will think how you wish she were here. Family is not necessarily people who are related to you, I learned that from mom. You know she would kill any of us if she could, just to... to ruin the world. 

[the-unconquerable]

I can’t put a bandaid on my feelings and just try again, can I? I feel overwhelmed with anger for Adam, for Stephanie, for what I allowed our family to become. I am sick to my stomach to think he would pick her over me; he would lie to her to spare her feelings and compromise my reputation in the process. I am sick of not knowing what is about to happen, even when I am aware of everything that is going on. I feel disgusted by my own neglect for, even now, all I can think of is how all of this is my fault. Had I been around, I would’ve fixed things in time before they could’ve gotten this far. Don’t look at me, sister, right now I feel less than human. It isn’t a good sight.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Of course you can. Maybe not a bandaid, but trying again would replace the hurt with happiness. Why would you feel anger towards her? She's just as much of a victim as you are. I— I don't want you to hate Adam either, but... what he did was wrong. Maybe... maybe he thought he could mend things with you later. We have a lot of time... she doesn't. 

You can fix things now. It's never too late. Don't throw away four hundred years with her or millennia with him. You don't have to choose... you can have both. You just need to leave the riddles aside and talk to them; tell them how you feel.

I would know, people most of the time say something when they feel something else. 

[the-unconquerable]

I remember that. I didn’t interfere since you turned her down, but I would have if you hadn’t. I don’t need anyone to get between me and others, much less our dear sister. I understand where she came from, but that’s no excuse. It doesn’t change how I feel, however. I’m not… cut out for this, Amy. I am not good… with love. One mistake was enough; I should have learnt. If I had, I wouldn’t feel like this right now. I feel sick and disgusting. I don’t want to feel like this again.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

I wasn't good with skateboarding and it hurt when I fell, but I didn't throw my skateboard away because of it. I kept trying... and practicing... and asking for help. One mistake is never enough. Humans make those over and over again, and it's still never enough. Why do you feel like that?

[the-unconquerable]

What are you talking about?

[trainwrecked-mernick]

S-She wanted to sabotage your relationship. She wanted me to... do what I do. 

[the-unconquerable]

I didn’t say love, I said feelings… in general. Kader was right. She was right all along, I can’t do this. I let them get to me and it hurts. I was so arrogant.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Kader... she was... she wanted to plot against you. She wanted to take your happiness away, she asked for my help. How can you— 

I— I said no.

[the-unconquerable]

He could.

More than humans? Are you sure? For I doubt that. I might as well give up on feeling altogether. It doesn’t work out well for me.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Are you... really... telling me... you're giving up on love?

[the-unconquerable]

I’m not sure if I want to know why she had a shovel…

My thoughts have said I’m a foolish timeless creature who shouldn’t have tried to feel more than it could.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

He could. You're not an it, Pierre.

You can feel as much as you want to. If that, you can feel more than humans can. P- Please tell me you're not giving up.

[the-unconquerable]

Does Halloween candy count?

Oh, you know Thais, she barks more than she bites when it comes to us. It’s for Arthur that you should watch out. I don’t have a good explanation, Amy, I just needed some time alone with my thoughts. I’m sorry.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

...Maybe.

She chased me with a shovel! And actually hit me when she found me. And... what did those thoughts say?

[the-unconquerable]

Someone who clearly doesn’t deserve you.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

That depends on whether you brought me a present or not.

And if you have a good explanation. How could you let me deal with Thais alone? She almost killed me! I had to hide for three days, once.

[the-unconquerable]

Trust Camden to persevere. It’s nice to see how much it defies change. Such a sweet and terrible thought. I wonder if this is what home feels like… but I wouldn’t know.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

I'm sorry, who are you?

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Now... I just need a girl to kiss.

[jamie-blackwoods-deactivated201]

Kissing is messy, but it can be beautiful as well.

Well, to each their own. I respect that if its what you don’t want to do. 

…Pardon? I don’t understand how you.. would even know about that.. or about her.. please tell me you aren’t a demon or an imp. I’ve had enough of both to last me more than one lifetime.

Amy.. alright.. well, I’m a little unsettled. But it’s lovely to meet you Amy— at least I think it is.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Imps are only boys. I'm not an imp! I'm Love.

I know because I made you two love each other. That sounds a bit wrong... but it isn't, I swear. It's how things are.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Now... I just need a girl to kiss.

[jamie-blackwoods-deactivated201]

Oh wow, so now you need to go back to school in your late 20’s under the guise of a teenager, meet a teacher, fall in love and declare that love then when he rejects you go stand on the center of a baseball field with thousands of viewers, give him 5 minutes to come tell you he loves you too and then… the magical first kiss and true love before living happily ever after!

No, actually you’re pretty than her. So I think you did an amazing job at doing something better. 

I’m Jamie by the way.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Oh, no, but I don't want to be kissed! I don't really do those things, you know. I don't date, I can't. But it's beautiful when other people do, it was beautiful when you and Sophie did.

Oh my Santa, thank you. I know; I'm Amy.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Now... I just need a girl to kiss.

[jamie-blackwoods-deactivated201]

Then why do you even need to k— ohhhh.. you’ve never actually kissed one! I see! I thought you just wanted like.. an arm ornament or something of the like. 

So which version of Katy? The pinup one?

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Oh, no, I've never kissed anyone. Well, once, but it was more like someone kissed me. It was weird. And wet. 

Yeah... can't you see? Did I do a horrible job? 

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Now... I just need a girl to kiss.

[jamie-blackwoods-deactivated201]

Well that shouldn’t be too hard! Just find a pretty girl or dress a bloke up as one and there you go love!

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Oh, but the fun is that I'm Katy Perry! I want to sing about it. I almost went for the "Roar" thing, but I ended up looking a bit like Tarzan instead. And I don't think I can walk on all fours the whole day... 

You just called me love. That's funny.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Now... I just need a girl to kiss.

[trainwrecked-mernick]

Amy as... Katy Perry.