omg u have to make a part 2 to the scenario where u lose interest in seungyoon and have feeling for jinwoo !! MY LIFE FEELS INCOMPLETE ! btw u are jjang <3
Part 1
“You’re still awake?” Your boyfriend’s voice rang against the walls, making you jump.
He entered the bedroom, his feet taking him to you. His body landed next to yours, an arm around your shoulder. A sigh escaped his lips.
“I missed you so badly.” He leaned over to kiss your cheek.
It felt right, but also wrong. You liked him, of course you did, but maybe a little less. Did you actually have feelings for Jinwoo, or was he just a way for you to get over Seungyoon?
“I missed you too.” You answered softly, giving him a sweet peck on the lips. “Are you going to sleep in here, tonight?”
“How can I not? I want to wake up next to you again.” He paused. “Why? Is there something wrong?”
“No, it’s just…” I’m not sure if I still like you as much as I did before “So many things happened and it’s hard to take it in right now. I might need a few nights on my own.”
Seungyoon gave you a tired smile, nodding his head. “Of course. Rest well, all right? Let’s go get your things tomorrow.” He stood up then bent down to give your forehead a kiss. “I love you.”
“I love you too.” Do I really? You gave him the same smile, then he turned around to leave.
You were greeted by a sunny morning and the creaking of your bedroom door. Your eyes slowly opened themselves, seeing your boyfriend smile as he looked at your sleeping position on the bed.
“Did you sleep well?” The sweetness of his voice made your heart a skip a beat.
Who’s Jinwoo? The only man you love is Seungyoon. It’s like you feel in love all over again. You finally found out why you were in love again. It was the smallest things Seungyoon does that makes you love him. How much he cares about you, his voice, his actions, his words.
You sleepily walk up to him, holding him tight as the smell of his detergent flings you into a sea of memories, before all those things happened. “I did.”
“Perfect. Wanna eat something here or go get your stuff then go to a café?”
“We should go get my things first, then eat. It’s a beautiful day after all, let’s go out.”
The darkness of your old apartment made you feel miserable. Sure you had Seungyoon next to you, but with the curtains shut and the lights turned off, it brought back the nights you spent crying and questioning why he left.
While you emptied your closet, your boyfriend took care of the things in the kitchen and the living room. He told you that some men would come by some time in the afternoon to pick all the furniture up, you only took care of the small things like clothing, books, dishware.
Eventually, you left the building, heading down to your favorite coffee shop. It was the spot where you had your first date with Seungyoon, the happy times came back to your mind, making you smile. There were little pictures of their main guests on a billboard. Your picture with him was still there, the two of you were in your school uniform. You were asked to feed him a piece of cake for the picture, which was one of the most embarrassing things you could have done in public. You stopped seeing each other after that but met again at the same shop and reconnected after the awkward first date.
“We were such babies in this picture, oh god.” Seungyoon chuckled as he looked at it.
“Let’s not remember about that time, I still feel so awkward for thinking about it.”
“Babe, you look cute in it.”
“As if! I look like I killed someone and the police found me.”
“_______? Seungyoon?” The manager’s voice called.
“Manager Lee!” You said in unison.
“You’re finally back! Gosh, I thought the two of you broke up and never wanted to visit ever again. Did anything happen? How are you two doing?”
“Still as happy and in love as ever.” Seungyoon beamed, putting an arm around you.
“That’s good to hear.” She said. “Okay okay, come sit down! What would you like to eat?”
“I’ll just take a muffin and a coffee.” You said, not even touching the menu.
“What?! No way! Get her a bagel with cream cheese, a burrito and a panini with steak and cheese!”
“What?!”
“Good idea, Seungyoon! You seemed to have starved for weeks, __________! Did you finally decide to feed her today, Seungyoon?”
“No, no. We just took some time off, I guess. But there was no fighting or anything, I just had to move our things to our new house and I wanted to surprise her.”
“Oh, young love.” She sighed. “Very well, now what do you want?”
“The morning breakfast, but with extra bacon.” He winked, hoping that would actually get him more.
The manager laughed and walked away with your orders. While waiting for your food, your boyfriend spoke up.
“So… what have you been doing, lately? Like, while I was gone?”
“Oh, just… Working.”
“Ah yeah. You seemed to have become really friendly with Jinwoo. I mean, I get why, he’s a great guy and all.”
“He is.” You suddenly smiled as Jinwoo’s face came in your thoughts.
“Why are you smiling like that?”
“What?” You answered, blush covering your face. “Ah, no it’s just the fact that we’re together again.. It makes me happy.”
He smiled as well, then followed the conversation with a talk about your future. He wasn’t even there to celebrate your 100th day together, now he’s already talking about that? Everything felt to rush, especially when you weren’t sure if your feelings were still stable.
Wait, I do like Seungyoon. I don’t care about Jinwoo. This is complicated, okay, I like Seungyoon. I am in love with him. I don’t want anything with Jinwoo.
The next day, the two of you went back to work. There was some kind of awkward tension between your cubicle and Jinwoo’s. He wasn’t doing the thing he usually does, like looking over you, asking you dumb questions or inviting you to do something. There was no interaction.
“Hey, ________.”
Your heart thumped against your chest as soon as you heard him say your name. “Yes?”
“I’m going downstairs to get some coffee. Care to join?”
He kept a serious expression, no usual smile or playful head poking. “S- Of course!” You stood up as soon as you answered. Without taking a second to wait for you, Jinwoo left before you did.
Something in your mind made you want to sit back instead of following Jinwoo downstairs, but you didn’t want to stay away from him. Even if it felt like he somehow hated you, you wanted to be near him.
You sped your pace up to keep up with him, finally getting to the cafeteria where most of the employees were subtly slacking off. Expectations established themselves in your mind, you were waiting for JInwoo to do some flirty movements he knew about like moving a strand of hair behind your ear.
But he didn’t, he took his cup, filled it and paid. He didn’t even wait for you finish your exchange, he already took the path to his office. You were upset, angry and certainly confused.
“Jinwoo!” Your call echoed in the entire room.
He stood there, barely glancing at you before making his way to the elevator. Without thinking twice, you ran towards him, grabbing his arm and unintentionally pulled him back. His glare felt like a bullet, you didn’t expect him to make that face.
“What? We have to get back to work.”
“Why are you mad at me?”
“Who said that I was mad?”
You crossed your arms. “Are you kidding me? You are definitely angry at me and I don’t even know what I did wrong.”
He took a look outside before sipping on his coffee. Nothing came out of his mouth until he swallowed the drink. “All right. You want to know why? Because I’ve been deceived once again.”
“And you’re taking it out on me?”
He let out a cold chuckled. “Wow, are you really that oblivious? Are you simply too blind to realize that something was up with me?”
“Can you just get to the point? I don’t have time to waste on your little game.”
“You don’t have time to waste on my game? You’ve been making me waste my time around you the second I met you.”
“I never told you to hang around me.”
He scoffed at the loss of words he had then turned his heels to the elevator. You felt some string in your heart tug. It didn’t feel good. It made a wave of emotions run through you, you felt tears sparkling out of your eyes. How bad did it hurt to see Jinwoo give you the cold shoulder? Why did you even care that he reacted that way? Was it because you were losing a friend? Or maybe it was because you saw him as more than a friend?
No, what the hell! That’s so wrong! I’m in a happy relationship with Seungyoon! We’re engaged! We’re in loved! You repeated to yourself.
The sleeves of your shirt catched the few tears that appeared. You took the path to your desk, trying to keep your mind focused on your work.
Time flew so fast that your heart still balanced between Jinwoo and Seungyoon. Despite that, Seungyoon fell even deeper in love with you. And your wedding was next month. But you had mixed feelings for the two of them. You were convinced that you would love Seungyoon even more during the honeymoon, but you couldn’t wait until after promising a huge deal to see if you truly loved him.
But you did. You loved Seungyoon. But he wasn’t the only one.
“Hey, _______.” Jinwoo muttered.
It was 11 o’ clock, very late on a Friday night. There were still a bunch of people in the building. You were minding your own business, typing out your invitations until he called you. The guilty heartbeats you felt when he said your name made you unconsciously erase the whole page of the invitation card.
“Yeah?”
“Did Henry say that the statics on the company's stocks were necessary for next week’s meeting?”
You nodded, blood rushing through your face when he looked at you for your answer. “Shit, I don’t even know what’s going on with our stocks. Do you have the file?”
“Uh, I don’t have it with me but it’s in general room.”
Without thanking you, he left you to find the documents he needed. About a quarter of an hour later, he reappeared, empty handed. “Could you come with me? I can’t find it.”
You joined him into the very filled but small room. Stacks of papers were unorganized in the area, letting a sigh escape your lips. As you searched through the piles, you hear the door click, as if someone locked the door. You turned around, his eyes staring back into yours.
“Why did you lock the door?”
“I have to tell you something.”
“And locking the door is necessary?”
He doesn’t bother answering your question. Every step closer to you make your heart beat fast against your chest, anticipating so many things at the moment. He slides his arms around your waist, his head resting on yours. It felt so right. But wrong. It was wrong. Completely wrong. But you loved the feeling and didn’t bother stopping him from it.
“I love you.”
It was sincere. It was warm, like his touch. It gave you goosebumps, you felt your lips tremble as your mind just buzzed like a TV when it wasn’t connected to any channel. His grip tightens around you.
“And it kills me. It just hurts me. I hate the fact that he treats you properly. I hate the fact that I don’t stand a chance. I hate the fact that I can’t save you from anything because you’re in a perfect relationship. I hate the fact that it’s him and not me.”
Your eyes keep looking around, adrenaline rushing through your system. You spot the papers he needs at the corner of your eye. Your trembling hands attempted to grab them, but his hand grabbed yours.
“You need th-”
“I don’t need them.” He declared. “I need you.”
What made you agree to enter the car with him? You needed to get home fast, and clearly public transport didn’t associate with the word ‘fast’. He was the only option.
It was a cold ride home. Usually, it would have been Seungyoon driving you two to your favorite restaurant then you’d head home. But today, you were with Jinwoo.
He finally parked in front of your house. But you couldn’t get out. You wanted to answer him. Give him an answer to his confession. He was probably waiting for an answer too.
He didn’t want you to leave. He didn’t want you to go home to him. He wanted to take you to his house. He wanted to cherish you. Love you. Kiss you. Hold you. But you weren’t his. He couldn’t do anything to you.
“So... See you next we-”
“Kiss me.” You whispered in the lowest and weakest voice you could speak in.
Your gaze drifted from your lap to his eyes. His eyes that wouldn’t stop staring at yours. His eyes that showed most of the reaction he had on his face. “Please.” You muttered guiltily.
And he leaned over. His soft lips grazed yours, then slowly pressed themselves against your trembling lips. It felt good. It felt like you were walking on the right path. You felt your heart pounding hard and fast, your hands gripping his shirt as his hands went from the wheel to your waist. Soon, you brought your makeout session to the back of the car. Somehow, you ended bare underneath him.
You did it once. Maybe twice, but you promised yourself only twice. But then it became thrice. Then you went to his house every night for 2 weeks before your wedding. You loved it. You loved the way he would touch you. You loved feeling him inside and against you. You loved hearing him run out of breath as the bed shook underneath the two of you.
But then came your wedding day.
You knew you were going to say ‘I do’. You knew that you were going to marry Seungyoon.
You stood at the other end of the aisle, your dad holding you closely as he whispered his wishes for you. The more you approached Seungyoon, the more you felt your heart sink. He was gorgeous. He was beaming. His smile was contagious, but somehow you weren’t affected by it. You wanted to run away and cry, but your dad was leading you to your future husband. He was leading you to the path you didn’t want to take.
You finally stood in front of him. Your eyes nervously searched through the crowd for him. He was there. At the very back of the room. His expression was different from the other guests. He seemed angry and upset. Now you felt scared. Would he object? What was he going to do? Did you want him to stop the wedding?
The ceremony finally started, your eyes kept looking at Jinwoo, not at Seungyoon. How badly were you distracted to make Seungyoon realize that you didn’t seem to be interested in your own wedding? He even noticed that you were looking else where, but didn’t want to ask you about it.
At night, you celebrated the rest of the wedding on the rooftop of a hotel. It was in a lovely garden, food was being served and pictures of Seungyoon and you through your years together were being projected on a screen that the staff prepared for you.
You felt tired after the photoshoot you had this morning, so you went to the lobby of the hotel to sit on one of those comfy cushions. You noticed a couple making out in the hall. It seemed pretty intense, as if the guy was forcing himself to kiss her. The two of them walked towards the receptionist. You assumed they rented a room since they received keys. Then, the man looked at you. He wasn’t happy. But Jinwoo had to force himself to get over you.
