Its been a while since i’ve posted anything. a lot has happened in 2017 and i ended up deleting my tumblr. maybe i do need it as an outlet to vent.
im almost done with school and ill be getting my esthetics license soon. im so nervous. i know i want to work in the beauty industry i just don’t know where i belong yet. there’s so many outlets i can get into. but i have to push myself. i have to push myself for this career to work to my benefit in hopes to be very successful. i never thought about leaving long island but maybe one day it’ll happen. a change of scenery would be nice you know?
as far as my relationship goes, me and dan are still together and coming up 3 years dating each other. i can’t believe its been 3 years already. we have our issues but, we always work them out. lately i keep having the re-occuring thought that he doesnt care anymore, or hes bored of me. i’ve brought it up to him but he thinks im being ridiculous. hes usually always very honest with me and the fact hes never brought up being bored of me or anything. just his nature towards me has changed. i know the honeymoon stage is long over but i missed when he chased after me. i miss the never-ending compliments and how he always made me feel beautiful you know? its like since we’ve been dating so long he expects me to just know those things. but i like the validation and i like the reassurance. i just feel like our whole relationship vibe has been different. or is it all in my head?
