Video games, gay stuff and depression

just a random queer gamer that cannot have any normal thoughts

[kosmogrl]

one day I’ll get over it and the lump in my throat when I try to talk about it won’t exist

[trashkingoftexas-blog]

There are times where I just hate having friends, like I feel like I am a shitty friend because a majority of the time I just dont reach out because I feel weird about it. When I do talk to my friends I always feel like I end up doing something to ruin the mood and I spiral a little bit, like I always say something weird and I just like make everything feel so off in the end. I love hanging out and talking to my friends but I wish there were times where I didnt have them, like not because of them but because of me. I just feel like its easier for me to just be alone than to be with people.

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How does anyone get out if retail and customer service jobs? I cry damn near every shift and the pay isnt worth it. I really dont wanna go back to college because i dont know what to go for or if its worth it just to end up still working the same shitty job.

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How does anyone figure out what they want to do with their life?

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Despretly need someone to just play all the souls games for me, in exchange I will play all the resident evil games or metal gear solid games for them.

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cheering you on with your cosplay endeavors! seriously, i hope you have fun <3

Thank you random stranger!

I have been wanting to make my own cosplay for what feels like forever and I am glad I am actually gonna do it. I'll probably post about any updates I have while making it but so far I have a sewing machine I am borrowing and I plan to get started on my next day off.

[trashkingoftexas-blog]

I am gonna try and make my own cosplay soon. I hope I'll be able to finish it before a convention I have later this year but I am not gonna hold myself to that, if I dont finish it or am just not happy with it I'll just leave it at home and maybe use it for a different con or Halloween. I am very nervous but also excited because I really just need a hobby to get my mind out of the depressive episode I keep ending up in, I have a basic idea on what Im going to do and I know the very basics of using a sewing machine but I think I can do this fr this time. I do have some fabric to practice with and pretty soon I will set up a little sewing area so i can get started.

[trashkingoftexas-blog]

I'm trying to get back into this blog again, I stopped using tumblr back in like 2018 or 2019 and I cant really remember why, probably because none of my friends used it and I didnt want to seem weird. I think aside from repost of stuff I like I want to try and just blog more and be creative, I am going to make a youtube channel hopefully sometime this year and it will be mostly video essays and this can just be like a way to start my creativity I think. I also just like to write and yap about anything really and I want to get back into writing fanfic as well, so tumblr is the best place for me to do that imo. I loved the place for years, I even remember when I had first made my blog when I was like 13 and granted thats a different one from this I still have good memories and I want to relive that joy again. I know I dont have many followers and most are people I already know but that doesn't matter to me, I just hope to find people that like the stuff I hope to make!

[milesmandel]

im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal im normal

[rifleman787742-deactivated20240]

shitty tiktok audio stuck on my head

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Sometimes I forget this is my blog and I can just post whatever I want, I will soon be posting my ramblings about the video games Ive hyper fixated on from the past few years.

[fascinationstreetmp3]

Ocelot, you get too many kicks from your “art of interrogation”.

[jageshemashftw]

If you’re not familiar with the Metal Gear series, I have to assume that the fandom must seem completely bonkers to you.

I mean, this guy…

Is one of the most beloved characters in the franchise, and this guy…

Is one of the most despised.

This guy…

Is a completely different character from this guy…

Yet he’s the exact same character as this guy…

Who’s a completely different character from this guy…

And don’t even get me started on this fucker!

[your-fave-is-forklift-certified]

Screaming Mantis' Psycho Mantis Puppet from Metal Gear Solid 4: Guns of the Patriots is Forklift Certified!

[residentevilnet]

Resident Evil: Vendetta (2017)

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Not that anyone really cares, but I think im gonna try and start making video essays or maybe a podcast. I enjoy talking about video games and the fictional men I obsess over so that would give me a place to do it, I dont think ill get much of an audience but it would at least get my thoughts out of my head.

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So im not dead, i graduated in 2020 and tried to do some college and had to drop out. Past year has been pretty rough but i have a hopefully better job than the ones ive had before. I am way more active on my Instagram, if anyone wants to find me there just message me