Trash_Ratt

someone sedate me

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Not much for me to introduce, I speak for myself, but this is my shitpost channel unlike my very serious art account

Name: Ratt

Pronouns: He/they(thanks!)

Oh and also only one thing to know if we ever talking:

- Don't post/mention very heavy suicide in any manner without warning please 😔🤞

Trash_Ratt

behold! my art account! the other one is filler

Hre's my art only acc for those who only want my art

Anyways, that's it :>

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You know its funny how recently how the toxicity of the internet has been pissing me off so Ive been regressing back to the basics like markiplier and jackcepticeye with videos that were released eons ago amd im thriving

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Where are they

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You are not immune to propaganda

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How in the hell do kingdom mfs decorate their kingdoms because I can't make a fucking circle bruh its always so lopsided help

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Rare doodle post on this platform with COOKYS !!!!!!!!!!!! (New art style)

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Tw: rambles about heavy life stuff, traumas allat

Apparently the only comfortable place I feel venting is on a social media platform but I dont have a very big following so like just ignore this, I just wanna get this stuff off my chest without being a bother to anyone

So like, I made a big realization on one of my friendships recently and like, man, Ill never be able to escape it huh

First freind kills themselves when I was 12 and I wasnt able to save them, second manipulates me to never leave them otherwise they'll kill themselves and uses the first one as leverage

Then after I escaped all of that I realised I ran back to square one because it happened AGAIN with a different person and forced onto me some sexual shit for a couple years yet made me beleive they were the victim in that situation

I fucking can't bro I'll never ever get attached again evreyone hurts me always its bound to happen like its literally evreyone I've ever met

And I'll never feel actually loved because of that, they're either here because of my body or the fact that I'm a literal doormat because of years and years of manipulation

And yet I still miss my abusers, like I want to go back and pretend like that never happened, like just living in a cage seems more comfortable than freedom but also thats stupid

Idk man I'm a terrible person lowkey but Im trying to be so better right now but I know I'll either hurt someone or be hurt there's no third option

Anyways, if you read all of this, yeah, there's that, maybe it'll explain some things you've been wondering, idk, I'm #out

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Ocd been really flaring up today and I need to post this for reasons

But to those who have been my friends or currently are, I formally apologize if I ever unintentionally hurt you, especially on one of my bad days, my minds been telling me you lot all hate me for some reason

Anyways, love yall, especially to my current friends, even if we dont talk a lot, just know I'm thinking of you otherwise, love yall <33

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Its kinda weird, as of late I've just felt a constant state of bliss, like nothing can hurt me anymore, right after I dropped the one person that was making my life misrable

Weird, I fear about being alone with nobody at my side, yet the moment that comes true, I feel happier. Though, I do have people at my side, it's just I fear attachment of getting so close again

Doesn't mean I have a constant state of happy thoughts, my mind is downright miserable, I feel as if I'll die any day now with evrey problem at hand, yet I dont exactly fear it

But still, I hope this feeling never ends, it's a nice sense of peace after evreything I've went through at such a young age

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Eating strawberries while also rewatching dazz letsplays of pikmin 2 makes me forget how cruel life can be 😌

Makes me realise sometimes you need to focus on the simple things that are in front of you, like a good strawberry 🍓

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Oh my gawd I just realised why his mic glitches is possibly because of him being self aware

That mic could literally be the reason why he's aware of being in a game in the first place

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Perhaps the real reason why Black Sapphire cookie is so shippable is because he can literally see all his options right in the game files

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CHALLENGE !!!!!!!

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Do you think he's also mourning the loss of his friends pre-corruption

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Cookie doodles with definitely not Black sapphire in sight

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Why is it that when I start writing it looks like some 12 year old that just came out of wattpad spat all over the paper with smart words that they saw when randomly opening a dictionary and writing the first word they see and just running with it because they think it looks smart but infact, is complete word garbage that makes a person lose braincells trying to read the damn thing

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"Hey I haven't thought about code lyoko in a while and the anniversary of the fixations is coming up what should I-"

Oh.