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Hello, & Welcome to my RP Blog. Traumatized by Mel! This is a Criminal Minds OC, based rp blog. Containing Dark Themes and Triggering Subject Matter, please use caution when deciding to follow. We are a Mun Friendly, Drama Free, approachable Mun. No Hate, ship shaming, blog shaming, purity culture, cancel culture is allowed here. If I see any shaming or hating of any kind you will be automatically removed, no warning given. Please remember to read my rules and my C.A.R.R.D before approaching for interactions. <3 <3 <3 Thank You all so much.

This Blog is a study in Behavorial Analysis, Unsubs, Satanism, Murder, Rape , Child Abduction, Sex Crimes, Seriql Killers, Mental Abuse, Violence, Sex , Death, Blood, Gore,

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Hello Everyone, I am still alive, Madison has been MIA for a bit. And i've been on my other blogs as of late. But I am back again. I am so sorry, to all of you. But she is here to say she loves you ll and if you still want to write with us. Give this a like, so we know. Thank You all for holding on for so long. We apppreciate all of you so much.

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She knew asking Rosemary about day, could potentially be a bad idea. She has had a fucked up childhood, just like she has had. Maybe even worse if not the same, and where the two of them have always been close. There wasn't anything that they didn't talk about. Or share with one another, but , there were some things you just didn't want to tell anyone. Not even your Best Friend, everyone knew them as Thelma & Louise. It was kind of a running joke in there school. Chocolate hues took in the body language of the other. Noticing the signs that she knew herself all to familiar.

She didn't want to talk about the day, and Madison understood that. But she had turned the table and asked Madison about her day. And brought up the one thing she couldn't get out of her head, Chris. God, when she said she shared everything with this girl, it was truth. She had told her that there was someone at work that she was in love with. She was so in love with but she couldn't possibly date.

❝ You mean Chris? Oh my god, he is absolutely gorgeous. And I have spent alot of time around him, girl. And during that time, I have fallen in love with him. But I can't, I can't there, we work together. But gods, look at him? ❞

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" if you’re suggesting that i did this, i’m offended! " she feigned shock, a hand to her chest. " how could i manage all of this alone? " she hadn’t been alone. elle was her secret accomplice, but she’d take that secret to her grave.

" if i had to hazard a guess at it.. i’d assume that there was a gift shop of some kind that was going out of business that happened to have a ton of ceramic ducks that were meant to be sold as pocket charms. and the person responsible for this crime probably wanted to support the owner and took their stock off their hands at a discounted price. that’s what my profile would indicate, anyway. but who knows with sneaky mischief doers nowadays. "

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If one were to look in on all of this, they would most likely think that Madison was the accomplice. Working in the background , to help pull off a grand prank on the entire office. But, sadly she had to admit. She didn't have any part in this elaborate masterpiece. So whoever it was, she tilted her hat to them, in complete respect. But she had her suspicions of who she thought it was. After all, she knew a few people who would step in and help Alyssa. Corners of her mouth perked up, as she set back. Arms crossing over her chest, while Aly tried feigning offense to the accusations thrown at her. At lease someone could say this office new how to have some fun, you had to. To get through the nightmares they witnessed on a daily basis.

❝ Hmm, is that so Al, So, these little small adorable ducklings weren't placed here by you. I wonder, whoever else could do such a thing? *CoughALYCough* ❞

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She didn't expect to recognize any faces when she stepped into the bau. It was supposed to be a fresh start for her. Her way of getting back into the field after being off duty for almost a year because what she went through. Was she really ready to start? No, but it beat sitting at home alone surrounded by memories that would consume her if she stayed alone for more second. This way she could keep herself busy, maintain something healthy in her life. She was being given a small tour of the place and shown to where her desk would be. She followed Hotch, quiet for the most part, observing everything. That's when she caught sight of a face she remembered, and it made her stop in her tracks. A small smile pulled her mouth. "Madison? Is that you?" She called out softly. They were friends in high school before everything changed in her life so quickly for the worst.

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The team had been prepped that morning that a new Agent was coming on board to the Team. Of course, it was always exciting to see a new face. Madison could remember when she was the new Agent. The butterflies, and the worry if the other agents were going to like you. You never knew from one moment to the next what was going to happen. And she had been greeted with such warmth and love. Course, the excitement was escalated and also shot down.

Cause the minute she met everyone a case came in, and off the went aboard the jet. She had just set down at her desk, with a cup of coffee , and was doing a daily check Chris out , while he sat at his own desk and just existed. Course she did her work, but she couldn't help the glances up in his direction. The sound of Hotch's voice pulled her from her eyeing Chris. To turn toward Hotch, to get a look at the new body.

At first she saw a beautiful blonde, and she couldn't help but get instantly jealous. Chris was probably into blondes too and was definitely noticing her right about now. God this sucks, Look at hi..... She froze, did that agent just call her name. Hotch hadn't said her name and her plaque was not in view for her yet. She stood up slowly, so she could see her. She acted like they knew each other already. She did know her, soon as she got closer Madison noticed her right away. Rosemary! She knew her, had met her and became friends in the one year she had went to high school.

❝ Rosemary, Omg I, yes it is me. We have alot of catching up to do soon. ❞

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❝ You shoot me down, but I won't fall I am TITANIUM ❞

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“ＣＯＭＥ ＯＮ ＹＯＵ ＧＯＴ ＴＨＩＳ.” Chris stared into the mirror image of himself in the bathroom mirror.  His hands gripped the sides of the sink. He was giving himself a pep talk. It wasn’t that Madison and him haven’t been paired up for a case before, but this was different. This time they had to act like a young married couple. That meant he had to be close with her, sleep in the same bed, hold hands, kiss. It wouldn’t be so hard if he didn’t have secret feelings for Madison. He was attracted to her, and she was always on his mind. He had been pining over her for too long but always kept his mouth shut. This time it would really test him, and he wasn’t stupid he saw the signs that Madison felt the same way toward him. They would have to make this convincing. This unsub was smart and wouldn’t even take the bait if he even got wind that it wasn’t real. He could act, but this wasn’t acting when he wanted so much more with Madison. He heard a knock on the door and Hotch’s voice telling him to hurry it up. Chris straightened up and gave a deep breath. “Yeah, I was just finishing up.” He called out. It was a lie but it seemed to satisfy his boss nonetheless. Chris opened the door and turned the light off as he stepped out of the bathroom. The moment he stepped back into the living room was when Madison was coming out of her bedroom bags in hand. His eyes locked with hers for what seemed like minutes. He cleared his throat as he heard her words. She always looked so beautiful. He had to reel himself back in, be the agent that he was. He gave a smile, a genuine one. “I’m more than ready.” Chris heard Morgan give a snort, and he gave the agent a look. This wasn’t the time for his jokes. He thought of Derek as a brother but right now he could strangle him. He turned his gaze back to Madison and held a hand out to her. “Shall we go then, Mads?” There was already a place for them waiting, and he wanted to get there as soon as they could to get everything set up.

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She stepped into her living room, and her eyes fell on Chris instantly. God he looked good, those muscles were visible through his tight black shirt. Not to mention those tight jeans, that clung to him snuggly. Making it rather hard not to take notice of his entire package. And when he turned around, god the view was even better if that was possible. Come on Mads, get it together girl. We can't get caught up on him right now. We had to be professional, and not goggle your fellow agent.

Her eyes finally lifting to meet his intense gaze, pleased to hear him say he was ready. Those chocolate browns held the others gaze for what felt like forever. And if you could have sex just by staring at each other. This would sure be it, she felt her breath hitch in her throat, as she pulled her eyes away from his. Walking across the room, ignoring Morgan again. Giving him the quickest middle finger which got a wicked laugh to roll from his lips. This was going to be the toughest assignment of her life. She could easily loose herself in him and forget that they were only pretending. At least you could say, she'd be putting on a Oscar winning performance.

Chris had his hand outstretched for her to take. And she felt herself tighten, the second she laid her hand in his, Electricity erupted across her body. Those eyelids fluttering closed, for a brief second as she gathered her composure. Giving his hand a reassuring squeeze as they made there way to her front door. With the team right behind them. She knew this unsub picked the married couple that drew his interest first. He liked a couple who was very much in love, the type who was always the ones that showed the most romantic type.

' The House has been prepped and ready for the both of you. The rest of us will set up base campa few neighborhoods away. You two shouldn't talk about the case or anything to do with this , or the F.B.I while in the house or in publIc. There will be a room, that is sound proof and is a safe room. You can go in there to video call us and talk over the case. And whatever else that you need to report to us. We will be monitoring you on cameras set up around the house. Not all the time, but just know that will be happening. Oh, and once he makes move on you. Don't interact, fight back, defend yourself. But know, we need evidence. Soon as we get what we need we can make an arrest. And this will be over. Do you both understand. '

Hotch had started briefing them as soon as they had got settled onto the jet. Going over all the points and info so these two could be prepared. She nodded, getting comfortable on the two seater. She glanced around the plane to see if she spotted Chris. ❝ Yes Sir, I understand. So, will we have jobs we have to work. To make this even more convincible? ❞ Hotch nodded, pulling out two packets and proceeded to hand them to Alexis. ❝ Yes, all the info containing the jobs are in your folders. There are planned parties and dates where we think the unsub frequents. So you can get spotted by him. ❞

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"i wouldn't know how to help," he says honestly, fiddling with his fingers as his nerves spike. he's not very good at human interaction, that much is known as he adjusts his glasses and turns to look at her, avoiding eye contact at all cost. "but i can try. what exactly do you need from me?" if it's about his stepfather, he won't know where to even begin. as long as she doesn't ask him about his claims against him. the last thing he needs is someone probing him with questions about his abuse. Charlie would have a field day about it and he'd never hear the end of it.

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❝ I understand Mr. Bloom, but anything at all would be helpful. No matter how small it may be! You can try liminal thinking, Close your eyes and try focusing on that day that it happened. Concentrate on just the scene that played out before you. It helps the mind to remember. ❞

She knew he was deflecting from something. Something about him he didn't want to share. And she was sure it had something to do with the man in question. He knew him somehow, and if she had to guess. He was Oliver's father, she knew the signs of reflecting from questions. When it came to ones father, especially the kind that was monstrous. She could relate, on that subject more then she liked admitting to then anyone else.

The way he didn't want to make eye contact with her. Told her he suffered with some form of PTSD, or something similar. He didn't do well with human interaction. That was clear, and it made it more obvious he knew something, possibly to his own guilt. Even if he didn't remember it! Or even his close involvement tht could have been forced. She new pushing him could go awry, and prove to be a mistake. But, in this line of work you had to do things you knew were a mistake in the moment.

❝ Oliver, I don't want to ask the next question. Believe me I know all about having a nightmare childhood. My Father is the ' BLACK PRIEST ' ❞ She hoped he knew the name, maybe it would help to know she had been raised by a monster herself. ❝ What do you know about Your Stepfather? ❞

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“Look — I don’t … I don’t know anything. I’m sorry. I can’t help you...”

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❝ Is that so, okay. Well, if you don't know anything. Then I guess I will have to just make sure that the Ghost Face Killer. Stays behind bars for the rest of the time. Cause if you don't have anything to tell me, then there is no evidence proving he is innocent. ❞ Okay so she was misleading him. They didn't have any leads on him. In fact they only had one shred of evidence that puts him around Rebecca around the time of her death. But it wasn't enough to get an arrest warrant. And she could tell by Dwight's body language that he knew the male very well. And he had proof, that would seal his lovers fate for life. Which is why he was claiming he knew nothing. But if she pushed hard enough he would crack. She knew how to push , she was after all a GIDEON.

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The sight of seeing Chris falling apart was hard to witness. Not because she was ashamed of being around him, when this happened. No, that was the furthest thing from the truth. It was because she hated seeing him broken, hurting. What happened to him when he was a child, was horrible. Having a father who was a complete monster, wasn't lost on Madison. She knew to well about that, more then anyone else would. They both had a horrific childhood, but you add that up and throw in a more recent trauma then you were setting up an environment. Stout with severe mental issues.

It was still unclear to her or the rest of the team, on what all went on. While he was missing for those weeks, that he was missing. ll she knew for sure was the unsub that had him was off there rocker. And tap dancing on the line of unhinged. Chris never wanted to delve to much into that time, and she never did push him on it either. And she never would, until he was ready to talk. She would pretend it never happened, so she didn't cause herself to worry and wonder what they had done to Chris. She had felt him pull back from her, when she had set down by him.

Her hand falling onto his shoulder caused a reaction that had him jerking backwards. He didn't like to be touched, a lot like her. So she got it, and it never made her set when she got that reaction. Glancing over his shoulder as he continued to talk,. Noticing the Jack Daniels bottles laying around him, and the tear stains that she could spot. He was torn up over the death of the child. That was one thing that always got to a agent the most. But to those like her and him, it had a deeper impact on them.

❝ Chris, it isn't your fault! You did everything you could to save her. But believe me, I understand where your coming from. Listen to me, you need time to process this. To grieve, come home with me? Let me take care of You? ❞

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she’d been prepping for the trip all night, a last minute, whirlwind adventure just the two girls. it had been a little bit since she’d gotten to take a little vacation and have a little girls time. normally vacations included a book, a lap, and time with the man she adored more than anything. she had been hesitant to leave, but she’d gotten reassurance that he’d call, and she made multiple promises to send pictures and tell him every little detail about the trip. she was excited, and that showed more than her nerves did.

" coming! " she called down, rolling her eyes playfully as she looked over her shoulder toward the impatient fellow agent. there was one more kiss, a hug, and then alyssa was hopping down the stairs with her suitcase.

" you and penelope have no sense of the word patience. " alyssa stated as she came up to the car, opening the back door so she could load in her luggage. " it’s the first time since the wedding that we’ll be separated for a reason outside of work. be gentle with me. "

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OH SHE KNEW ALL TO WELL, about being separated from the husband for the first time. She was hardly out of Chris's presence, unless she was going out with friends or going shopping. It was possibly one of the hardest things she has ever done. But then again, a little time away wouldn't really hurt her. Would it? No, of course not she needed to learn to not be around Chris all the time. It wasn't healthy. But got the time she spent in his presence, was something she had never known. Eyes lifted as she caught sight of her bestie as she questioned her level of patience. True, she didn't have very much patience. But she was working on it, honestly. But right now was valid. Since there plane was scheduled to leave in an hour and a half. But if she had learned anything about airlines. There could be very well a delay. Either way, they didn't want to miss there flight.

Leaning over, she opened the car door, and pushed it open. Knowing Aly could get it, but she wanted to help out in any way she could. Especially since she had her luggage in her hands. A relatable smile coloring her features as she waited for her partner in crime to make herself comfy and buckled into the passenger seat. Before pulling out onto the road, driving toward the airport. They could very well have driven to there destination. But, it would have taken way longer, and by time they would have gotten there. Well, they wouldn't have long enough to really enjoy there vacation.

❝ First off Al, I am working on that okay. Besides, it was hard for me to leave that bed this morning. I could easily have stayed right there in those sheets with Christopher all day. But I think we both need some girl time. Before we get to the air port how about some snacks. Or did you pack you some already. ❞

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Demon OC Loosely based in Supernatural, and Head Canon Based Biblical Themes.

[ C.A.R.R.D Is complete, except Mains and Verses. But the Important info is up. Go read the rules and his info over, all of it. And give him a follow. <3 ]

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" Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me "

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Mun's Notes: Blog & Carrd are both UMFC, & This is a Sideblog to this one. So if you follow Him. Then he can't follow you back, but if you are following me then He will already be following you.

Levi is short for Leviathan. His Backstory is going to be very Dark, and Triggering. You have been warned!!! You may go ahead and follow him if you wish. His Carrd and Pinned Post should be done by tomorrow.

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New Muse, Supernatural Based?

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𝙲𝙾𝙽𝙵𝚄𝚂𝙸𝙾𝙽 𝙲𝙾𝙻𝙾𝚄𝚁𝙴𝙳 𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝙵𝙴𝙰𝚃𝚄𝚁𝙴𝚂. Chris knew that Madison still struggled with everything that he father put her through. All the trauma, all the shit that she endured. He understood it. Hell he knew what it was like. He was always careful of not touching her, not unless she was okay with it. He made sure she knew that she wasn’t alone. They had grown close, and he knew that she had feelings for him. So did he for her, but he tried not to let it happen. He was afraid of hurting her. He felt unworthy of having her affections, and she deserved so much better than him. “Mads, this is the real me. I would never do that to you besides your father did not send me.” He said softly, gently even. He wanted to desperately pull her out of this. Make her see that what she was saying was wrong.  He wanted to go to her and pull her into his arms, but he wasn’t sure if that would make things worse. Her next set of words were like a knife to his heart. The pain showed in those blue eyes. He was worried about her and he knew this was his fault. They had been spending more time together, and she had been giving signs that she had feelings for him. He always just kept it friendly. It wasn’t that he didn’t feel the same because he did. “You have overcome so much, your father can’t touch you here. I would never do to you what he did.” 𝙁𝙐𝘾𝙆 𝙄𝙏. He paused as he moved slowly toward her, slowly raising a hand to brush back a strand of her hair and tuck it behind her ear. His eyes searched hers, pleading with her to believe him, listen to his words. It was now or never and he couldn’t hold it in any longer. She had a right to know that he felt the same way. “I have feelings for you, do you hear me Mads? Do you think for a second that my split personality would say that to you. I can tell you right now he wouldn’t. This is not me fucking with you. This is me telling you how I feel.”

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SHE WAS SINKING FAST , DROWNING in her own scarlet crimson. The baggage outweighed all of the good she had in her life now. The trauma had been dwindled, cut down by her very own foster father. But all the Trauma Dumping, didn't completely clear her of a lifelong list of issues. And the feeling of abandonment, and the ideal of trusting another person fully. It was something she could not rise up out of, no matter how hard she tried. Things had been going well, she trusted Chris, he made her feel safe. Which was a completely insane thing for her to do, since his split personality was apart of that Satanic Cult she endured for her entire childhood , and almost all of her teenage years.

But she could see him, the good part, THE REAL CHRIS. She had been able to trust him, cause he had proved to her that he was not that side of himself anymore. That he had control of his own body once again. So why was it, she felt like this entire time had been a lie. That he was lying to her, only using her. He wasn't, he wasn't always going to be able to be there when she called. Nor, could he read her thoughts. But she had been gaslight by her birth father so much. Ignored by everyone in that compound, when she tried voicing her wants and desires. So, it stuck with her, even to this day, so there were times she did this to others. It was no wonder, why people would leave her.

Up and run out on her the moment they got chance. She was used to it, even though it cut deep, every single time it happened. Cause she deserved to be heard, to be understood. She stopped, when she heard his voice. God, that deep, German accent, it did things to her. Breaking from her thoughts, she turned to watch him. The pain and concern in his eyes, was hard to look at. She could feel his sorrow before he spoke those words. ' YOUR FATHER DID NOT SEND ME! ' There was so much raw emotion in that one quote, that she felt her fears being flushed away.

She could tell , he wanted to come to her, pull her into his arms. But he didn't know how she'd react. But she wanted nothing more, then to have him hold her. To pull her against his broad chest, and never let go. Fingers clasped together, as she began tugging at each one. Nervous habit she had, but as she opened her mouth to speak, he was declaring to her something she should have paid attention to. He was right, his split personality would never say something like that to her. The second the words poured from his lips, that he had feelings for her. She felt the butterflies perk up inside her, fluttering against a baited breath.

She watched him, close in on her. Until he had closed off that space between them. The feeling of his fingers pushing the hair behind her ear was electrifying. Pushing up, onto her tippy toes she slid her hands up his massive chest. Collecting her fingers behind his neck, she didn't speak a word. She didn't trust herself to do so, instead, she brushed her lips slowly across his. Which caused goosebumps to explode across her flesh. Her body tightening in unseen places, before she pressed those soft lips harder against his. Slow kisses become hot and more hungry for more.

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