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[traumadoodles]

u still there?

yes! mod t is just a bit busy as of late….will be back soon!!!

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Do you have any other blogs mod t? Just curious

my main blog is @earthbooty !!!! 

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My 'abusor' was abused and idk if I'm valid, I was in a platonic relationship with them and it started out great until I began to depend on the emotionally, I think they depended on me, too.. then they got paranoid that I would leave, so they guilt tripped me anytime I hung out with anyone else or even nothing. I just.. I want to know if I'm overreacting I'm confused, sorry if this is too much but if you could help me I'd appreciate it a lot!!

i don’t think you’re overreacting, but i also think they may not have abused you. if guilt tripping is the only thing they did, i think they were just in the wrong, and doing a bad thing. unless they were using you, or being hurtful aside from guilt tripping, i don’t entirely believe they were an abuser. i may be wrong though! they could have done some other stuff too, but i wouldn’t know is all. my advice would be to confront them about it. i know that isn’t easy, but it’ll be much more clear once you two have talked. stay safe!!

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fucking stab me with the bluntest thing you can find.

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i've always been hesitant to mark down my experiences with csa and violent sexual assault as something serious until hit me as hard as they do now. originally my brain blocked those things out and ignored them. some nights now i cant breathe and i panic so hard i black out, and i've been wondering if this is a symptom of ptsd? i'm kind of scared to self-diagnose though, could you help me out, please? if it not bothersome...

i’d say this is definitely a sign of ptsd…do you have flashbacks or vivid nightmares of the instance? do you find you’re reliving the instance a lot? these are signs of ptsd.but of course, please seek medical advice for a better understanding of your illness. i am not a professional, but i can advise you to get some help. stay safe! ilu!

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is it wrong to rely on a dog's feelings more than anyone else? like if she barks at anything I leave because I don't feel safe anymore. I don't trust my family I only trust her.

no, i don’t think so. dogs are smarter than we give them credit for, and i think if you rely on them for things like that it’s okay! of course, there’s always times where you have to decide for yourself, but i don’t believe you’re doing any harm by relying on your dog. stay safe!!

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i wish you'd stop texting me. but i can't say that. and i can't block your number. if it was allowed i would, trust me. all you do is guilt and manipulate me. fuck off and stop acting like everything's fine.

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Why don't you love me anymore? You used to treat me so well and now you don't even smile when you see me anymore. What have I done wrong? I just want to know what I did wrong. Just tell me what I did wrong. I can do better. Tell me what I did wrong. Please.

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Is my trauma valid if I am emotionally abused? Or does it have to be something physical??

yup! any emotional trauma is valid. you are valid. abuse isn't always a physical issue.- mod t

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May I submit a drawing?

yup!! go right ahead!- mod t

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Has anyone else's parents refused them medical treatment for a life destroying illness, and then given illegal drugs as treatment? Cause it's fucked up and I'm really scared.

that is fucked up. and it’s certainly trauma. i’m so sorry this has happened to you, please try to locate and tell your local authorities.

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Do you think self diagnosing is valid? Even before the age of 18?

yup! i do believe so! -mod t

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sometimes i wish the seasons would stop changing and the night would live forever. at least that way i'll be more at home than i am now

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Hey.. I don't like doing this kind of thing but I have recently realised I'm being abused by my parents. Its not a regular thing but I kept thinking it was something I did, that I made them want to shout at me and hit me. Idk why this didnt match up in my brain but I am still only like 15 and I cant leave or do anything about it. Its really affected me as a person and I seriously think I have more mental disorders now. Its screwing me up.. I just don't know how to cope or feel.. Any help?

try calling a child protective service. they’ll at least give you more advice than i can, and they might even push legal charges i wish you the best of luck, and im so sorry this is happening to you. i love you!! stay safe!

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im so tired......i cant even express it.