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that trauma feel when feel free to submit. read submission guide for more info if your ask is not a submission and you want me to respond, please add a * (one asterisk) somewhere in your ask. if you don't want your ask to be posted and are talking to me/want to be answered privately, please add ** (two asterisks)

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return

i’m going to make an attempt to return to this place. i have a few plans for another mental health blog, so i want to try to work on that as well. I have a lot of old asks to look through, please be patient with me as i work through them. my old rules to submissions and questions still apply.

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im tired. wont be posting or answering for now, sorry. i dont know when or if I'll be back.

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if you don’t add a * to your ask that sounds like a question for me i will not answer it.

i’m getting asks that i can’t tell if they’re supposed to be submissions or questions. please add a * if it is a question directed at me.

also, please don’t submit very specific situations that look like vents as a non-ask post. i didn’t make this blog for personal situation venting, i’m not comfortable with posting submissions like that. if your submission resembles a personal vent, i won’t post it. if you don’t add a * (or correct yourself with a * in a following ask) i will not answer or post it. 

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being afraid that someone's only talking to you to use you, make fun of you behind your back, or blackmail you

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always feeling usless and unwanted or needed

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missing memories because of trauma and also not believing what happened because of missing memories and wanting to be hurt again just to show yourself you aren't faking.

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i’ve been assaulted 5 times and i feel like i’m doing something wrong ppl keep telling me i am and i thought that was a myth but there’s this part of me saying it’s my fault and i could’ve done something

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praying someone sees your bruises and marks and notices how you go to the nurse every day for icepacks and helps you. please take me away.

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always feeling like you're in danger

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paralyzing anxiety through your entire body when anything bad happens. you seize. you can't move. am i too scared or just unable?

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anxiety making your body heavy and slow. fear making you speak slowly, quietly, and carefully.

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talking quickly out of fear of being cut off before you can finish your sentence, even if who you're talking to has never cut you off before

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flinching. all the time.

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I submitted the ask about my step parent and the porn. I noticed a comment from Licorneunicirnis, he said "and no one stopped him?" Or something like that I just wanted to say that maybe once or twice would my mother tell him to stop, but no one ever really said anything. @ that point in my life most of the adults were drug addicts, and 60% of the time my step dad was punching my mom out. So really what would anyone say

(adults not stopping child abuse after/while whitnessing it or hearing about it is more common than you'd like to think, especially if the other adults are in a similar state/mindset of the abuser)

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* idk if this sounds really stupid or not but does roleplaying sexual themes with a 13 year old when you're at least 18 (probably a bit older tbh his beard was Very Well Established) count as sexual abuse? he was gross anyway but idk if my experiences with him were Problematic yknow? it's ok if you don't wanna answer this

legally i think the answer is yes? morally definitely yes, that's gross, personally i dont believe children under 17 should be involved in any sort of sex acts or exposed to non-educational sexual content (it happens anyways and i cant control that of course it's just how it is)

i especially dont believe its at all appropriate for a 18 y/o to do that with a 13 y/o. the 18y should know better. a 13y might not fully get why that's not okay and say it's fine but because of that the 18y can take advantage of them. plus, roleplaying doesnt suddenly make it okay because it's fictional. that's (intentionally or not,) sexual abuse.

that is problematic and wrong, but it isn't at all a child's fault for what an adult did and at that age i can say with certainty you could not have understood how bad it was

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The flashbacks won’t let me breathe. It’s been 2 months since the incident and I can’t sleep anymore I haven’t slept in days. I’m so sorry i’m so sorry I can’t forget I still cry over it.

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I feel so dirty. I'll never wear a skirt again