Hi there, this is not susie, this is her roommate who somehow got access to her computer and happens to have her Tumblr open. Iām so so sorry and I don't know how to say this but whoever she talked to here or any friend who she made here and all her followers, please pray for her. she is in a desperate need of it, it has been 4 days since she is in the hospital for trying to overdose on pills and have not yet woken up. we all didnāt know how she felt, she was always happy and smiling but inside I guess she wasnāt doing good, for her to take this step. I didnāt know she was in pain and was self harming for months. depression and anxiety can really ruin lives. but now I guess what we can least do is pray because I want her here and I don't know about anyone else butĀ I'll really miss her. so even if you thought she wasnāt that close at least for once remember her and pray for her recovery.
also,Ā I'll be logging off in two days giving a final update, meanwhileĀ please send her something good.
This is the same anon who is a fan of your series Action and I want to say that you donāt have to finish the series if youāre unmotivated/donāt feel like it! I donāt want you to feel pressured! I love the series, but I respect if you choose not to finish it! Send lots of love!ā¤ļø
ANON!!! Youāre so sweet but wanna say that I really wanna finish it because Iāve the whole story planned and the culprit and the way it goes but like itās gonna take some time but thank you so much for loving action! Iām really proud of that piece
Have you ever been to South Korea or do you ever plan to? Because I just scrolled a little bit and you I think visited Singapore! So I thought just maybe
Uhm... yea I do and I actually was going this summer July to be more precise but the thing going around there right now made me a little nervous and anxious for a female solo traveler so rn I postponed my plan to visit Seoul
I love your series Action so much! I love how itās written and itās nice to see this type of fanfic since Iāve never read anything like it before!ā¤ļø
Thank you so much anon!! This meant a lot to me, like this random asks make me super giddy and motivated because honestly I donāt get any feedbacks or anything so when I start to write something my motivation dies knowing no one really comments or give me any feedback or even in hashtags so maybe they donāt like it SO thatās why even a keyboard smash means a lot to me THANK YOU again for taking time and sending me this anon because I really really appreciate your effort and yes Iām actually working on chapter 4 (both action! And destiny) but Iāll not make promises cuz I canāt keep them
Word count: 1633 (I went overboard a little I know, Iām sorry)
Description: A simple evening can lead you up to unexpected situations.
A/N: so this is my little drabble for @nunchiwrites :) as a part of @exo-writers-net secret valentineās drabble. Hope you like it, I did my best. Also Iām back after probably more than a year, so please anticipate this :) (idk please read this on desktop, mobile app is trash and donāt make a gap between two paras and itās so clogged that you canāt have a good reading experience)
Youāre constantly looking from the wall clock to your phone checking time, wishing that the time goes by a little faster today.
You brighten up your lock screen, to check how many minutes passed by. You sigh, putting down your phone on the kitchen counter for the nth time in the span of two hours. Just a minute, it felt like an hour though.
The windows behind you are continually clattering even though they are closed, winds thumping the window panel, making them bang against the frame. This has been the only noise in the kitchen except for the distant noises of chattering of people and rumbling of dried leaves.
The weather is windy, cloudy too but not somber, sun rays are still visible through the clouds making it pleasant to view.
You stand, leaning your back against the counter and your hands crossed over your chest. Lightly tapping your foot on the cabinets, You look at the wall clock.
Itās exciting how youāre so eager to meet him again. Itās only been couple days when he left for his business meeting and he will be coming back by any time now. A smile forms on your face thinking about him.
A sudden ding startled you from your reverie. You look over your back, shifting your eyes from the counter to the oven. The lights inside are off and it shows the time at 0:0.
āFinallyā You mutter, taking out the pan of cookies from the oven.
You put the pan on the dining table opposite to the counter, when you hear the doorbell. Your focus immediately shifts from the cookies to the noise. You take off your oven mitts before starting off.
You take long steps, almost running to the front door. You can hear your heartbeats, loud and clear. This is the moment you have been anticipating from the past two weeks and it's finally happening. You turn the door knob and open the door.
There he is, looking at you with those hypnotizing eyes and then he gives you a smile and a tight hug, which is genuinely sweet with just the right amount of tenderness that unexpected warmth rushes through you.
āI missed you, Jongdae,ā you mumble, hugging him as tight as your power can allow.
āItās only been two weeks that Iāve been gone, Karaā he chuckles, enveloping you in his warmth and kissing the temple of your head.
āSo you didn't miss me? I see!ā
āDefense rests, I missed you so much that I didnāt want to attend the meeting and come back as soon as possibleā
āLiar,ā you scrunch up your nose to jut out your lower lip at him.
He shakes his head and burst out laughing. He enters, breathing in the citrus scent of the home that comes from the candles youāve placed on every countertop. He looks at you and gives you an appreciative nod with a smile before removing his shoes and wearing his slippers.
Before he can say anything, you take off his coat and hat with his luggage to unpack and give it to the laundry āIāve prepared the tub with hot water and essential oils with light music as you like, towels are in the middle rack with your pajamas right next to it. I know youāll be tired and will need some relaxation, so Iāve prepared this for you, if you need anything you know Iāll be right here,ā
He seems to be taken aback from all these but nod anyways. You give him a smile but before you can leave, he pulls you into a tight hug, kissing you deep and passionate. His hands in your hair keeping you as close as possible, in the process you drop his coat and hat and your hands wrap around his neck to give him all he wants.
You sit down on the couch, waiting for him. Crossing your legs, you go through your phone to check any mails or texts when Jongdae suddenly puts his head on your lap, snuggling into you more. You smile, putting down your phone.
āHow was your trip, Jongdae?ā you ask, ruffling his hair.
āOkay,ā
āIt was a two week trip and all you gotta say is okay?ā
Silence fill the room for minutes while you are playing with his hair. So you think he is asleep and donāt ask any further questions anymore.
āBecause you were not with me,ā
You chuckle. āAlright, ok so Jongdae donāt freak out from what I am about to say,ā
He sits instantly, looking at you with serious eyes. āWhat?ā
āJongdae, I saw a strand of gray hair,ā you say, pursing your lips and holding back a laughter.
āWHAT!!ā he shrieks, standing abruptly, eyes wide, mouth wide open from terror or funk, you canāt decipher.
He stand at the same place in same horrific manner for couple minutes, looking like a live wax statue but can breathe. His hands are on his side loosely hanging as if not knowing what to do with them. He is not blinking and for a second you think he has lost the ability to do so.
You can hear his heartbeat, loud and clear. Heās alive, thank god. You blink, unable to think what you should do next, this is not how you thought it would turn out. Itās impassive but also funny. You keep looking at him before you gulp, hard and raise you hand to shake him from his state.
āJongda-ā before you can complete his name, he growls - loud enough for you to be surprised and terrified that you have to hold your chest to calm yourself down.
He starts pacing in circles, hands in hair - ruffling, tousling and pulling them until they are all over the place and disheveled.
āOh my god, oh my god, oh my go- NO,ā he whines, blinking rapidly and halting suddenly. He looks at you from which you are taken aback, āNO, I shouldnāt have tousled my hair, I LOST that gray hairā¦ā
He starts pacing again, hands in air, trying to make the situation understandable to me(more like himself) looking more confused than ever, āwhat if you canāt find it again, wait- no, no, that canāt be,ā
āJongdae, what canāt be? What are you saying?ā you ask, confused.
āYouāre kidding with me, right? This is a prank, knew it, knew it Karaā he lets out a brittle laugh, stopping in his tracks to shoot a glance at you.
āIām not kidding, this is not a prank, let me sho-ā
āNO, donāt. I donāt need to see,ā he yelps, before you can stand up he starts pacing again.
āI need to cut that strand of hair,ā he say, rushing to the kitchen and bringing back a scissor. āNo, no, they say if you cut one strand, it will be multiplied by two, no.ā
āBooking my appointment at a salon, right now.ā he picks up his phone, and put it right back on the coffee table, āNo, dyeing will damage my hair,ā
āI need to hide the gray hair,ā he asserts, pointing at you, āyou also help me hide it,ā
āWhat if, what if people see it and make fun of me? What if our future kids will see and think of meā he throws a tantrum, pacing again, āno I canāt let that happen,ā
āWhat if all of my hair turns gray now?ā he covers his mouth with his one hand and holds the cough with another.
āWorse, what if I go bald?ā he vouches, utterly shocked. He is bewildered, throwing hands in air in weird directions, sometimes screaming odds, sometimes whispering crazy, continuing with his circles and only stopping when he comes with his new āwhat ifsā.
You try to interrupt him, telling him to stop but he seems like his hearing ability is at stake too, he canāt seem to see youāre speaking and if he do, he donāt let you speak. You canāt think while Jongdae is pacing in front of you, it was funny at first but now, it seems it's getting out of control and you canāt do anything about it.
āJongdae, calm down. Itās just A strand of gray hair,ā you try to reason and stop him from his dramatic quarter-life crisis but failing miserably.
āJust, just? Just A gray hair? NO, ITāS NOT. Not for me, Iām getting old, oh god Iām looking old,ā he unlocks his phone and checks himself on the front camera.
āJongdaeā¦...listen,ā
āIām looking old, Iām old, so what if...what if you leave me, what if you donāt want to be with me, Kara,ā he wraps his forehead with his palms, stopping and looking in void.
āJongdae, no-ā
āWhat if you want to break our engagement after this and donāt want to marry me?ā
āWhat ifā¦ā
āJONGDAE,ā you shout, making him look at you and stop talking.
You stand up from the couch and walkover in front of him, as soon as he opened his mouth again, you cup his face and kisses him. Itās slow and soft, comforting him in a way words will never. He reciprocates, resting his hand below your ear and pulling you closer until your breathes mingle.
You break the kiss after couple minutes, āJongdae, Iāll never ever leave you, I want to be with you as long as possible and Iāll marry you no matter what,ā you smile, wrapping your hands around his waist.
āAre you sure?ā he ask. You nod still smiling at him.
āAnd for our future kids, theyāll think nothing because itās natural, also stop thinking about whatāll people think of you,ā you cheer, gaining his smile.
āOk, so now stop worrying and eat this cookie I made for you,ā you say, stuffing Jongdaeās mouth with cookies.
Note: I kinda went over the limit a bit but I did my best to shorten it, This is for the Valentines drabble at Exo Writers NetworkĀ and my valentine is @treasure-exo I hope you like it!
Alright, Iām done with secret valentineās drabble. I just have to edit it and then Iāll post it as soon as I wake up tomorrow.. this will be my first writing piece after so long and Iām excited yay finally
Hello, our fellow members! Weāre back with another networkās event, yay!
February is upon us; February, the month of love. This event is gonna be a bit different from the previous ones. This one is gonna be a Secret Valentine.
How does it work, you may ask? Itās very simple, really. This one will have the same dynamic that a Secret Santa has. Letās explain it, shall we?
1. First, you have to reblog this post to let us know youāre participating.
2. Then, you have to fill this formĀ so the person whoās going to be your Secret Valentine knows more about you.
3. You have until the 31st of January to sign up for this event.
4. On the 1st of February, we will tell you all privately who is your partner for this event (shhh you canāt tell anybody ok?) and we will release a document with all the participants and their preferences so people have an idea what to write for them.
5. You have from the 1st of February to the 14th of FebruaryĀ to write a drabble for your partner, minimum 500 words, maximum 1000 words more or less. Weāre not asking for anything too complicated or too elaborate, you can consider this a little drabble game to practice your writing.
6. Works must be published between the 14th of February and the 17th of February.
7. No prompts, just your imagination.
How does it sound? Fun, right?
Remember to tag your works with the networkās hashtag #exowritersnet and the eventās hashtag #exosecretvalentine19 and more importantly, remember to tag the person youāre writing for!
We hope you all like this event that we organized for our members only. If youāre not a member yet, applications are open until the 27th of January so thereās a chance you can still participate.
Dear followers, thanks to you I have reached 500 followers š Itās certainly not a big thing for some of you, but it means a lot to me since I donāt really give you something really productive or pleasant. But.. just, thank you so much ? Even if youāre not interact with me, I still see you in my notifications and it make me so happy ! Since Iām not going to tag my 501 followers, here some of my mutuals/people I follow who are very important to me:
Hi again everyone I just want to wish all you Happy New Year and this year came with a lot happiness and healthy life for each one of you and the ppl you love ā¤ and again I wanna say thank you for everything and share all your stories with us and also make me feel a lot emotions with your stories and I love your blogs and I hope I still keep on touch with all you and share a lot memories in this New Year and I wanna say I Love You šā¤ @exosthetik @exostace @just-come-baek @thinkyoureholy @oh-so-scenarios @ohh-baekhyun @ot-nine @singingunderthecurtain @kpopfanfictrash @marshmallow-phd @beautifulpaperhearts @treasure-exo @httpgu @pcychedelic @angstyexo @teampandawang @exo-sow @crappyfics @0506lover @92byunie @exoprexo @relaxedreptile @cloudycrystalkpop @dorkyungsoowrites @cherrydae @bubbles-bacon-and-sheep @bunnyjeons @kpurereactions @tynctrack @xtemptaetionx @neonlights92 @thatswritemytype @noona-clock @tendipity @bwueu @byuneebuns @lowkey-sexing @baektempo @scftuan @itsmeayishaa @chenbaekxi-exo @byunfirstlady @winterheated @kiwees @happyunniewrites @shay-the-turtle @kimjongdaely @bvidzsoo @yeolaltair @omyeol
sending love you way!!!! šššš dont feel bad for not updating or anything. your well being comes first before anything. hope youll feel a lot better. ā¤ļøā¤ļø also not sure about the doctor you went to but mine usually just ask me to talk about my day even when nothing much happen - i talk about dreams i had or my horoscope sometimes. itll get easier trust me. also if you dont want to answer just say youre not comfortable talking about it. hang in there love!! š š
Iāve read this ask for over 20 times now and that I want to tell you, Iām actually so thankful to you, the more I read this the more I feel at ease. This really helps sometimes more than seeing a therapist and believe me it made me feel a little better and Iām not sure if Iāll see a therapist now because I think I should probably go to a psychiatrist first, so you know they can at least prescribe me antidepressants so after then Iāll see a therapist (at least Iād get some energy until then) and thank you again for writing this to me anonšš
In which i am crazy enough to classify all āmyā baekhyun fics reblogs since 2016, why am i doing that part 2 / part 3
First of all, I would like to thank you for the time and energy you have devoted to your writings. When you canāt close a page, and you say āgo, one more writing and I stopā is that the author did a good job.Ā I would like to tag you to congratulate you and thank you very much for your exemplary work.Ā I feel much more alive every time I read one of your writings, I pass through many emotions and thanks to you. You do not even have to write for free, and yet you do it? You are all the pearl of readers.Ā
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Gif is mine but credit toĀ _withntuĀ for the video. (this is amazing)
So I feel I need to get this out my chest or something so Iām on hereš
First Iāll start by saying Iām really very very sorry for not updating anything in a very long time almost a year or even more maybe, I keep saying/promising Iāll update this, Iāve written this part and currently editing and stuff which is true but the thing is that the last few months were the worst like Iām totally screwed. I come here the day I feel a little better and make a promise to update and go back to edit some stuff and the next day I wake up I donāt feel to get out of my bed even. My depression and anxiety are overpowering which I know and can feel it but canāt do anything. My state is getting even worse and I donāt know what to do. I know everyone suggests to see a therapist which I tried in the start but I just canāt, they ask me to open up and I donāt know what to open up about like ???? Iāve nothing to say what do I even say?? That I feel like shit every passing day? I canāt get out of my bed and be under sheets all day? I just fear now facing too many people at once?? Or simply just canāt with my life anymore????? Iāve nothing to open about and thatās the truth. My midterms are right around the corner and I donāt feel a bit of it rn Iām numb Iāve no motivation or anything Iām just in my bed I can even say somedays Iāve not even seen the sun. This is getting longer than I thought anyway Iām getting better? I guess??? idk but Iām trying because I know this will not do me good in any way possible so I went out yesterday to you know see the sun and take a stroll even if it was chilly Iāll try to contact my college friends and idk who but I want to get out of this and Iāll do it somehow and Iāll update surelyš I donāt want to be like this Iāll do my best I think new year new start
stay healthy and happyāš¼
Regards Susieš„³
Iām sorry. if youāve read till now thank you hereās some bunny exo to brighten up your mood
