A Tiny Kingdom at the Bottom of the Trees

I'm Natalie, and this is a blog of things I love. Don't forget to follow my equestrian blog, emergency-dismount.tumblr.com

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[wowgrimes]

“I’m the sweetest damn thing you ever saw.” Angel Baby

[treehouse-kingdom]

learning how to exist in a new city 🌃

[dailymarvelheroes]

[missnothingquotes]

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[feijoaaas]

if straight girls knew of even half of how much lesbians and bisexual girls hold themselves back and restrain themselves and dilute themselves in order to appear non-threatening and non-predatory to those same straight girls

once we’ve made you aware of our orientation, we barely allow ourselves to look at you and smile at a joke you just told, in case you’d assume we’re into you, just because we smiled at you once

but guys can catcall, make inappropriate comments, talk about girls as trophies, talk about how they ‘become a real man’ only after they’ve had sex the first time, break girls down into body parts, take revealing clothing as an open invite for sexual interest, go on about how good they are in bed after receiving an initial ‘no’ as if their dick is a product that the girl just doesn’t know she wants yet and the guy didn’t sell it on his first try??? and many more things

@ straight girls, please. please. take your homophobic hypocrisy and realise that girls who like girls are not your enemy.

if we flirt with you, because not all of us have amazing gaydar and sometimes we just gotta try, and you’re not into us? if you just say so, the most likely scenario is that we will sincerely apologise and then move to the other side of the room or in any other way leave you as well alone as we possibly can.

we are not your enemy.

and we don’t like girls just because you’re girls. you are not body parts. you are not a trophy. we don’t call your outfit cute because we want to get between your legs. you are not new territory that we want to conquer. you are not an area on a map that we want to mark with an “x” so we can brag about how we’ve been there.

you are not a pussy that we want to defeat.

the predatory lesbian and the hyper-sexualised bisexual is a myth.

we are not your enemy.

[usbdongle-deactivated20200531]

having parents that were really angry and petty and abusive when you were young is weird, because it makes part of you grow up to want to be kind, to generate good things, to be a source of peace and wellbeing for others; but it makes another part of you grow up to be quick, and sharp, and spiteful, and that’s always the part that shows itself first in a hard situation, so it’s a struggle between your hateful gut reactions and your wish to not add any more misery to the world. it’s a hard balance, and the people who really, really know me - i know they see that anger flash in my eyes before i quiet it, if i quiet it…i want to overcome years of conditioning, and with gentle, constant force, i know i’ll mellow it. it just takes time.

[kways]

[wormsdyke]

Growing up, I heard boys jokingly shout “Rape! Rape!” when wrestling with friends. Growing up I was taught to shout “Fire!” if a man tried to attack me because people respond to fire but not to rape.

Growing up boys are taught how to look impressive to girls and convince us to like them. Growing up I was taught how to run to a neighbor’s house and ask them to pretend I lived there incase someone was following me.

Growing up boys are taught that no means she likes you. Growing up I was taught how to hold a key so I could punch with the tip and inflict more pain if I was attacked.

Growing up boys are told that they don’t have to be mature, boys will be boys. Growing up I was told that just because a man was in uniform doesn’t mean I can trust him. If he tries to touch you, run away.

Rape culture is very, very alive. End it.

[ulibeanzz]

this was for a school project but also a power move and my favorite pic of me

[lilbanili-deactivated20181129]

listen i don’t know if this was the original point of the piece but this is literally one of the most powerful images I’ve seen in relation to female artists and sexuality

it is a HUGE issue to get modern art historians to recognize historical lgbtq+ artists, especially women. A female artist could have never married, spent time with other publicly lgbt figures, and been living with a female partner for most of their lives, and yet you still get art historians who will jokingly be like “I guess that makes them a lesbian right? haha!” um yeah, professor janet, it does, and it’s not a joke

with that context, this piece gains an incredible amount of depth. I could write a full ten page paper on this piece alone. This is a self portrait (which beautifully and ironically emulates classic Renaissance formula) says “I am an artist, and I’m gay” in a way that by definition cannot be removed or questioned. Power move indeed, holy shit

[ulibeanzz]

what a nice and wholesome comment on this!!

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[the-amazing-boy-catastrophe-dea]

My reasons for doing things:

1. Spite 2. The Aesthetic

That’s it.

[booksquoteslove]

there’s a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I’m too tough for him, I say, stay in there, I’m not going to let anybody see you. there’s a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I pour whiskey on him and inhale cigarette smoke and the whores and the bartenders and the grocery clerks never know that he’s in there. there’s a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I’m too tough for him, I say, stay down, do you want to mess me up? you want to screw up the works? you want to blow my book sales in Europe? there’s a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I’m too clever, I only let him out at night sometimes when everybody’s asleep. I say, I know that you’re there, so don’t be sad. then I put him back, but he’s singing a little in there, I haven’t quite let him die and we sleep together like that with our secret pact and it’s nice enough to make a man weep, but I don’t weep, do you?

Charles Bukowski, “Bluebird” (via booksquoteslove)

[treehouse-kingdom]

Some real creepy shit, get your fix.

Some real creepy shit, get your fix.

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

8. How often do you listen to music?

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2015?

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

13. What about ‘R’?

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

16. Are you going out of town soon?

17. When was the last time you cried?

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

24. What are you sitting on right now?

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

30. Does anyone hate you?

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

35. Did you have a dream last night?

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

44. What’s the best part about school?

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

48. Were you single over the last summer?

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

52. Are you nice to everyone?

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

56. Do you think you like someone?

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?

60. Do you hate anyone?

61. How’s your heart?

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

70. How do you look right now?

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

72. Can you commit to one person?

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

74. Have you ever felt replaced?

75. Did you wake up cranky?

76. Are you a jealous person?

77. Are relationships ever worth it?

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

81. Last person you cried in front of?

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

85. Are you over your past?

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

97. Who do you have texts from?

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

ask me stuff?

[votedami]

The thing I hate most about depression is that it tricks you into thinking you don’t have depression. It makes you think that nothing is wrong with you, that you just feel this way because you lack value as a person. Whether that’s in your relationships, your academics, or a view of yourself, it makes you think you aren’t good enough for any of that.

“It’s not the illness,” it says, “You feel this way because it’s who you are.”

[adhdedrn]

“Mental illness is like fighting a war where the enemy’s strategy is to convince you that the war isn’t actually happening.”

[disease-danger-darkness-silence]

Me: I can’t get out of bed today, what is wrong with me. I’m so lazy and terrible and I am a huge flake and there has got to be something wrong with me. My brain: There is no war in Ba Sing Se.

[survingthestudylife-deactivated]

Home alone you know what that means *listens to super gay music outloud instead of through my headphones*

[elysewillemses-deactivated20181]

what your fave les mis character says about you

Valjean: you’re a genuinely kind and loving person who believes in the good in people or a tenor who really wants to play starring role

Javert: you’re VERY sad & gay or really edgy

Fantine: either you’ve gone through a lot of shit in your life or I Dreamed a Dream is YOUR solo song and you kill it EVERY time

Young Cosette: your childhood SUCKED, i’m so sorry

Grown-up Cosette: you’re very, very boring, sorry it’s true

Marius: you’re a hopeless romantic & probable soft boy, Empty Chairs never fails to make you sob, also you’re kind of extra

Eponine: you’re very very bitter about your unrequited crush

Enjolras: you’re a social justice warrior, also very gay

Grantaire: you’re very, very, VERY gay, maybe an alcoholic

Any of the other Amis: you read the BOOK holy shit i’m proud of you, also you’re extremely gay

The Thenadiers: you’re a chaotic neutral

Gavroche: you love suffering