To a person who probably won't read this, but I hope she does.
Dear you, You know who you are. If you see this, you know your own name. And if you see this, you know who I am. You should also know this; you, you are the love of my life. You are my happiness, but you are also my sadness. You are my drug, but also my heartbreak. We spent two years together. Two long, long years. And we both loved it. Until you stopped. Of course, I can’t blame you. Maybe I did change, but that’s not my fault. I do know that throughout every single issue that I ever had in my life, and every issue we had together, I loved you with the entirety of my heart. Unconditionally. Immeasurably. And you know that. We loved each other immeasurably. Unconditionally. And for the days and months leading up to our departure, you and I continued loving each other just like that. For every night, every single night, we’d call each other. Just to sleep together, like we’ve wanted to have together in real life for years. Every night, even the night before you were gone. We went through everything together; happiness, hardship, loss, and no matter what, we were unbreakable. Of course we weren’t perfect. Of course I made mistakes, of course you made mistakes, but we always forgave each other for our words and actions. Why? Because we loved each other. We were so deep in love that we couldn’t handle the other’s pain. My pain was your pain, and your pain was my pain. I know, I hurt you, but I never meant to. I never wanted to. I was insecure, scared, and it was the death of me. You told me you miss me, you told me you love me, but you miss who I used to be. I know, I know people have always told you that people can’t change, but love, for you, I can change anything to make you happy. I learned from my mistakes love, and that’s the strongest form of change a person could have. I know you don’t believe me, I know you dont want to believe me. But love, for the two years we spent aching to feel each others embrace, to listen to each others heartbeat, please give me a chance to show you that I am the person you fell in love with. You’re the angel in my nightmare. You’re the happiness in my despair. You’re the love of my life. I just want to make it up to you. I just want to heal with you, and build a life with you again. I miss you, you miss me. Allow me to be the very best I can be for you and your life. Help me heal you, and help me heal us. I’ll do anything, absolutely anything, to make you happy again. I love you so much. You’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever met. On the inside and out. Please, to save us both from heartbreak and heartache, give me the chance to make you happy once more.
