Trust No One

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Were you guys ever my friends?

It’s hard to believe nowadays.

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I hope that someday someone will love me for me. That someday, someone will love me just as much as I love them.

And not just because they love being loved without loving in return, or just because I make them feel desired.

I want someone to actually love me, for me.

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My friendship was very real, I had so much love to give; I poured my heart out for you, I loved you, I adored you

But it wasn’t enough for you, and when I realized that it shattered me

I finally realized what I had to do after so many years; I left.

And only then you came to look for me; when nobody else was giving you all that love and attention I gave to you—

It was too late; and even though it still hurts from time to time, I do not regret it.

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I know who you pretend I am whenever we talk,

I’m not as naive as you might think.

Your eyes speak what your mouth cannot.

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I’m tired of feeling like I’m never good enough for you

Why am I never good enough?

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In the end, you weren’t worth it.

You never were, even though I wanted you to be.

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I keep finding out about all the stuff you did and lied to me about. I trusted you, and now I’ve found out that you were the villain all along.

I hope you rot. You deserve to rot.

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I hope everything you did catches up to you.

You deserve to go through the suffering you made me go through.

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We were supposed to be friends

Why did you treat me the way you did?

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I’m so afraid, and it’s all your fault.

It’s all your fault.

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You lied about who I am and twisted what you did to me to make me look like the bad guy, and I discovered that I haven’t been the only one you’ve done this to

And yet somehow, you still dare to ask and wonder why people leave you Fuck you

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Haven’t you ever wanted to spill out every single one of your secrets and tell the world how much you’re hurting, but at the same time you want to keep everything completely private and just keep pretending you’re okay?

Yeah, me too.

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You made me relive all my trauma, guilt tripped me and gaslighted me... And you still dared to ask why I wouldn’t talk to you openly?

Fuck you.

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Why did I keep trying for you?

I was so dumb and blind.

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Why do I keep opening up when I know I’m just going to get hurt all over again?

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You’re vile, you’re an awful friend.

I don’t want to hear a word coming from your mouth ever again.

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You spew so many lies and then snarl at those who lie back.

You hypocrite.