not to disappear

digital diary of a girl who is trying not to fade into the background because survival is insufficient

[trying-not-to-disappear]

me (while eating a tomato high): this is some sick form of masochism

zak: average vegetable consumer

[mournfulroses]

Nikita Gill, from Fierce Fairytales Poems & Stories to Stir Your Soul; "Seven,"

[petaltexturedskies]

Angela Carter, from "The Lady of the House of Love" in The Collected Stories

[daily-spooky]

[anxeious]

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— rhythmicrhinoceros

[wemustnotcursethepassageoftime]

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[implied-divinity]

god didnt give me a cis dick because id have a boner at the sound of pouring rain and that wouldve been really embarrassing for me

[echoesoftheinfinite]

I'm a pile of unfinished things, unsaid feelings, unthought thoughts, and unlived lives.

[lolababyy]

I was never meant for dating. I was meant to love one person with my entire soul forever.

[trying-not-to-disappear]

social interaction activates my fight or flight

[strokeofserenity]

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned.

[orwell]

Red Letter No. 8 by Jen Mazza

[trying-not-to-disappear]

mitski should not have written the line “i only want you when im finally fine” because it has had a very damaging effect on my brain

[trying-not-to-disappear]

brb just wallowing in my guilt as a daughter and an older sister

[trying-not-to-disappear]

the roof is leaking

i’m hearing things again

and the air smells like february

[manincaffeine]