buy her a goldfish

abby | graphic designer | adult | canadian | eh?

[tryingtodrawinfinity]

I would also love for fucking once me getting something that is special and exciting only for me. Is that too much to ask? Because so what I’m getting the cute flower pcs of my two boys.. because everyone else in the fucking group chat are getting them.

I really haven’t ever had something that’s just mine and it sucks. Nobody is ever excited about anything I get ever. It’s all just stupid trivial dumb things but I just want to feel special for once. I got those stupid pcs as gifts that I cried about but no one cares about those. And it just makes me stupidly feel like no one cares about me.

[tryingtodrawinfinity]

I’m just tired of feeling like an after thought to a lot of people I keep around in my life. Even though it’ll be at random moments when I shouldn’t be feeling like that. I also can’t stand just having my feelings ignored.

These feelings are going to pass but I never know where to put them and I feel like a burden to people when I do because I just want to talk it out over and over and over. And when the stop acknowledging my feelings it just hurts and it sucks.

Don’t say you’ll be there and it’s fine to rant if it isn’t.

[justiceleague]

Megan Fox for InStyle Magazine (2021, ph. Alex Harper)

[just-shower-thoughts]

Everyone you’ve ever met thinks differently of you. The person that you think you are only lives in your head.

[tryingtodrawinfinity]

I always go back and talk to/with people when it’s too late and then I just feel like a fucking idiot.

The whole mood is just smacking myself and going “stupid stupid stupid” I’ve also been crying the past like hour.

[naturaekos]

[tryingtodrawinfinity]

It’s been a weird last 5 days for me. I’m stuck between knowing I have friends and people caring to just thinking it’s all fake and I don’t deserve any of it. I let one thing trigger me like knowing I’m excluded from watching things together as a group on a phone call to knowing someone excluded me from knowing things. Even if they didn’t mean too.

I’m trying so hard not to be annoying and sad all the fucking time and totally fuck this up like I did last time but I feel like I’m really close to just fully breaking again and I can’t do that again. Nobody deserves this side of me.. I don’t even deserve this side of me. I constantly just want to scream because I know how stupid I am and these people just constantly prove to me how genuinely sweet and kind they are and I’m here constantly telling myself (and them) I don’t deserve it.

I’m half joking when I say I hate it here.

[jiminrolls]

iheartradio music festival — spring day

[just-shower-thoughts]

Death is when your skeleton hatches

[jessicaroux]

[cottagesongs]

tea + knitted cardigans 

[jinv]

it’s the pajamas for me | for @kimchitae​

[tryingtodrawinfinity]

I lowkey can’t feel my entire body.

I don’t get how you could have that sort of conversation with someone and then not talk for a month and then think it’d be okay to say I could come to a hang out.

Honestly if I’m not talked to within these next two weeks fuck you.

[jinv]

he is so fine and for what [cr. c_a_leaf]

[tryingtodrawinfinity]

at this point I could really just cry on demand.

[jordanmarvelley]

It’s okay not to be okay.

[vaporwavesimulator]

i am fine thank you for asking! though recently there has been a darkness growing within me