Ana

Current weight: 133.8 Goal weoght: 100 I need to get skinny so I can be a cheerleader

[tryingtogetskinny2008]

Saturday

( mini rant and vent, kinda)

Okay so on Saturday I have to go to my aunts wedding I don't have to wear a dress, THANK GOD, but my parents are probably gonna make me wear a short sleeve shirt. I live in Kansas and the weather hear changes like every five minutes. My scars are healed but VERY noticeable my foundation for some reason won't cover them. I hope that I can convince them to let me wear a long sleeve since part of the wedding is outside. Or at least a sweater or something. I know my parents would lose their shit if they found out. I remember my dad and stepmom saying that if me or my siblings tried to kill ourselves or self harm they would just put us in a mental hospital. They wouldn't even try and find out why. Like what the fuck. I probably wouldn't tell them if they asked but still. I also just checked my grades and I have an F in 2 classes and 2 C's. When my parents find out they're gonna flip the fuck out. I tried to tell them that my teachers aren't even trying to help me understand and I have no clue what to do. I need help but all they said was to get it together. I'm slowing losing all my friends, I've been super depressed these past few days and keep eating even though I shouldn't. Everything is going to shit and I can't stop it. I swear if this doesn't get better imma just jump off a really tall building. That's how I wanna dies.

-Thanks for reading about my pathetic life and I hope yours gets better-

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This summer

Don't you wanna be skinny for this summer?

Don't you wanna look hot and sexy in your bathing suit?

Don't you wanna feel pretty in crop tops?

Don't you wanna not be ashamed when you have to change for P.E next year?

Don't you wanna wear tiny dresses and skirts?

Don't you wanna feel excited when you run into people from your school and see the expression on they're face when they see your new body?

Don't you wanna lay in the sun in a tiny bikini and feel the eyes of boys looking at your new hot skinny body?

If so try harder

Even if you feel like your about to binge or "recover" think about the outfits

Think about how you will look if you skip out on food

Think about how you can act pretty much any way and nobody will think anything of it because your tiny and pretty.

Think about how you won't be the dumb ugly fat friends

Think about how you will be the hottest out of your friends

Think about how all the boys will wanna be your boyfriend

Think about how that cheerleading uniform will look on you

Think about these things before you shove unnecessary food into your already fat body.

Think about this summer...

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Insta

I just made a private Instagram account that full of thinspo ish and tips and stuff. Please go follow me!! Link below!!

https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbi-SVSLnkXdboq8xQqshAlW4zHo8Y9IG16ST00/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I NEED my thighs to look like this https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbi-ajQrBOb3RJVYEMObRWSW65VKHd6wypqUFA0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Actual goals 💕 https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbi-XNmL3sYuP8aarRyZuxs-jbV8sO0eUPjmrY0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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So true though https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbi-SVSLnkXdboq8xQqshAlW4zHo8Y9IG16ST00/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I love this collage https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbi-PEzLlizadzcDYOjzeS7_I__WN0bk_pf2Qc0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I need to be this 🤤 https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbi-EJ5rnY6tS--06NChUV_u65Bqs_wxvqzjX80/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Hopefully soon this will be me https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbi97IALDJKjXCy3yPHmsZe2FIa_X7lmbQLBH00/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Follow me on tumblr!! Link in bio https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbi92eSr7z1fFTgc_9__Vd5Olue4ZGJToWCOJw0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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DM me for suggestions #tiny #workingonme #tryingtoloseweight #tryingtobehappy https://www.instagram.com/p/Cbi9wDir2KAW6Y-tT0LKzfSBDl_EMjhXysz1ck0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I went way over my cal limit because I went to my cousins birthday party and my whole family made me eat a cupcake and then my stepmom took us to McDonald’s and made me eat food there and my mom got dessert and I know that she would get suspicious if I didn’t eat it. I fucking hate my fat ass. I have to do better tomorrow. Probably gonna self harm later :/

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Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.

Stephen Covey

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Trying this today! 

Day 1: Stats

Start weight: 137 pounds

Current weight: 133.8 pounds 

Goal weight: 97 pounds

Height: 4 11

Age: 13

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I swear my younger siblings are devolving eds and that terrifies me. Like my sister never eats and when she does she rarely gets seconds. And my brother is always eating. Maybe its just looks like a lot because I never eat. But he is over weight so I don’t know. I really hope I’m wrong because I never want my sibling to have understand what I feel everyday. 

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My mantra

In 2 weeks you’ll feel it

In 4 weeks you’ll see it

In 8 weeks you’ll hear it 

In 2 weeks you’ll feel it

In 4 weeks you’ll see it

In 8 weeks you’ll hear it 

In 2 weeks you’ll feel it

In 4 weeks you’ll see it

In 8 weeks you’ll hear it

In 2 weeks you’ll feel it

In 4 weeks you’ll see it

In 8 weeks you’ll hear it

In 2 weeks you’ll feel it

In 4 weeks you’ll see it

In 8 weeks you’ll hear it

In 2 weeks you’ll feel it

In 4 weeks you’ll see it

In 8 weeks you’ll hear it

Also I lost 4 lb. this week!!!!!!!!! I know its not a lot but its something. 

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Help

Okay so I have braces so I can’t have gum but I know gum like helps you not feel hungry but is there anything else? Because I need to know. Please tell me...