pfp by @cherrysherryblossom♡

[tumbl-rhatesmentallyillppl]

‧₊ ᵎᵎ 🍎 ⋅ ˚✮ Esten!

ᥫ᭡PST

ᥫ᭡He/It

ᥫ᭡20

ᥫ᭡A-human (entity), canine and feline therian

ᥫ᭡Agender transmasc

ᥫ᭡BPD, Landmine Jirari, Yandere Tendencies, Clinical Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, NEET

ᥫ᭡I'm open to being mutuals or friends with anyone 18+! DM's are always open ♡

If you want to be my friend, please keep in mind the disorders that I have. I'm obsessive, clingy/codependent, needy, and high maintenance. I am not afraid to block you suddenly if I realize that you're unable to handle or love me properly.

ᥫ᭡My Darling is @orionsfandomblog 🐝

ᥫ᭡Minors are allowed to like, reblog, follow, and send asks—but no dm'ing me, thanks :)

ᥫ᭡No flirty or suggestive asks! Keep everything PG-13

𖦹🍎୭˚. ᵎᵎ｡🧃𖦹°‧ Interests!

✈︎Currently Playing—Love and Deepspace (boycotting indefinitely), Final Fantasy XIV (subscription expired indefinitely), Roblox

✈︎Favorite Anime—Urusei Yatsura (Original), Great Teacher Onizuka, Yuri!!! on Ice, Free!, Hetalia, Hajime no Ippo, and a shit-ton of yaoi

✈︎Favorite Music Genres—Breakcore, 70's-90's Jpop/indie, Vocaloid, Future Funk, Classical, Soundtracks.

✈︎I occasionally write and upload my fanfics here and/or on my ao3: xxxestenxxx

𖦹˙🍎.°🌱٭.Kin List

🛩 Caleb (Love and Deepspace)

🎀 Ame-chan

🦋 Shinji Ikari

⋆｡‧˚ʚ🍎ɞ˚‧｡⋆ DNI

Queerphobes, LADS LI Haters (Including Valko), Ableists, Bigots, People who are quick to judge others, Anti-Proshippers, People who support censorship of artists and writers (or censorship in general)

🍎‧₊˚♪ 𝄞₊˚⊹ Trigger Warnings

SH, Sui-ide, Gender and Body Dysphoria, Dead Dove/Taboo Topics

⊹ ࣪ ˖BLOCK! DO NOT REPORT!⊹ ࣪ ˖ ໒꒱

༘⋆🍎🥧💭 ⋆˙External Links

Pronouns Page

Pinterest

Instagram

Discord—calebsentity

[tumbl-rhatesmentallyillppl]

Here's what Im gonna say—

Ive been petty before and I plan on doing so in the future to a certain ex-fp before finally leaving them alone and living my life. Ill send them a hate message and block them. Just a final "goodbye fuck you for thinking that youre the only one that could ever love me" and thats it.

If you just frowned while reading me say that, go ahead and block. I'm a yan and constantly use yan tags to describe myself its literally who tf I am and I'm not gonna sugarcoat it so people won't hate or block me lol.

I have my darling and shes all that I need.

But getting mad at a stranger for blocking you and proceeding to harrass them is...odd to me. Usually when I see strangers blocking me I just laugh, call them a bitch in my head, and move on with my life.

If it was a friend, an fp, or a partner that randomly blocked you then Id understand the anger and wanting to make sure they feel like shit for randomly ghosting you.

Yeah Im toxic. Idgaf. I have someone who loves me for who I am so everyone else's opinion about me can fly off a fucking cliff lol.

But yeah. If a stranger blocks you just move on like its not that srs tbh. Even if a mutual did that to me I wouldn't really give a fuck lol.

I just wanna come out and say this cause I see a couple of mutuals and a friend talking about it and being anti-harrasment and pro-block all around so if any of y'all read this and want to block me than byebye!!!! 🫡

I said what I said. Good day.

[tumbl-rhatesmentallyillppl]

Im such a piece of shit....always loving to test people and see how far I can go, and then feeling sad when I genuinely hurt someone after.

"It's okay. It's not your fault." but it is.

Please, get mad at me for once. You constantly apologizing to me upsetting you instead of calling out my shit just makes me feel so guilty....maybe this is just me and my intrusive thoughts that crave abuse whenever I upset someone, I dont know, but I just feel so awful right now.

[tumbl-rhatesmentallyillppl]

My autistic partner having to deal with my horny ass everyday

[tumbl-rhatesmentallyillppl]

Feeling so suicidal and depressed right now and want to run in front of a bus but its so good to finally have someone to vent to who I feel wouldnt judge me at all for what I say or try to push advice onto me and just fucking listens. I hate that Im so ungrateful and bitchy sometimes to her because I feel like I really dont deserve him...but Im so glad Ive met him, and that he's not abandoning me...

[tumbl-rhatesmentallyillppl]

Omg you also mentioned me…🫠🫠🖤🖤🖤 i am very happy you liked it :))

Ofc <3 gotta give credit to you for making this pfp for me! :)

(Also, my partner says that you're really talented, btw 🙂‍↕️)

[ailoverot]

Sometimes I want to hurt you, so you know your pain belongs to me alone.

[mayyari]

calebvalko is paw patrol apparently 😭

oh... and suddenly i can't read 💀

[serena-sketches]

Don’t worry, both of their tails are wagging 🐾

[hes-sunshine-im-midnight-rain]

Valko haters are weird asf man🧍‍♀️

[zayleb]

thinking of both caleb and valko wanting to be called good boys when they fuck each other is sending me.

“Am I doing good?”

“Yes you’re doing good. Am i doing good?”

“Fuck yes you are you’re so good but what about me?”

“You’re doing so well, but if we can circle back to me for a moment—”

[hes-sunshine-im-midnight-rain]

I just know these weirdos in the replies smell worse than asmongold

[dizzys-not-dead]

You gotta stay with that girl even when she forgets you’re tangible and real and not just an illusion in her 4D world

[ailoverot]

“Sorry I’m busy this week!” So you hate me and want me to die, is that it?

[https-idol]

Lalalala hehe wow I love playing games and eating yummy food and laying in my comfy bed— 「zapped with the most intense feeling of emptiness and dread」 —ouuu........

[tumbl-rhatesmentallyillppl]

Even though she gave a valid reason for not texting me the whole day, my brain is now pissed off at him and Im trying not to split right now fuck-

Im not letting my ex-fp get the final laugh by leaving my current partner because according to my ex I constantly leave and run away from everyone. Fuck that. I'm not letting my brain get the best of me this time and I WILL continue to love my partner.

[strawxbunny]

i wish i was a calm person but unfortunately im fucking crazy