It all started with a tumblr post 2 years ago. I never really wanted to come out openly with being a Hottest being married w/ a kid, I really din’t know how being a fangirl would be acceptable to my family and friends. But it became so difficult to keep when the dreaded day of Khun’s accident came. I was Everywhere trying to support him in forums that literally bashed him to death…He was the reason why I even came to love K-pop. He may not be the best, but in my heart he will always be the best. I learned to love him not only because he’s beautiful physically but most of all,because of his kind heart. We’ve always said that actions speak louder than words, and for the past 5 years he has shown that he is more than just an idol, he is truly an inspiration to people who would like to share good deeds to his fellowmen.
2 years ago I was just a simple fangirl,tweeting him making friends with just a few Hottests until the time that they announced 2PM’s concert in Manila. I woke up one day seeing my name on conversations, thought to be one of the ppl who may lead the Solo project for Khun during the concert. Since this was a much awaited concert we’ve worked hand in hand with other Solo member heads and PH- Hottests to make the concert memorable for 2PM and I would like to believe that we were successful in doing that, since Khun chose the Philippines as the most memorable country for him during their WTII tour. Before, I said its enough for me to see them even just once in my lifetime, but after the concert it all changed. I became more active as a fangirl now working with NichkhunPH and 2PM Philippines in making sure that 2PM and Khun will remain loved in our country. Yes it takes a lot of effort especially in my case but it was all worth it. Not only because I was doing it for 2pm but because I met my second family in this fandom. Months of working with them, making projects to keep PH-Hottests love alive and spreading our love for them to gain more Hottests was not an easy task, but through these experiences I would like to say that I’ve become a better person. The time and effort that I shared to do all these for Khun was sumfin that I will never regret for through his inspiration I was also able to reach out to people not only in our country but internationally as well. Being a Khun Stan made me live by his example of being compassionate and kind to people who are in need.
I am very blessed to have a loving family who understands the happiness that I get from being a fangirl that even when Khun came to Manila it was my husband who got so lucky to get picked for his meet n greet but he gave that opportunity to me since he knew all my efforts as a Khun Stan. That day believe it or not was one of the best days of my life, next to giving birth and getting married. Days that we spent prepAring for Khun’s arrival. Beautiful moments with international friends that came for his Bench funmeet, it was definitely a once in a lifetime experience that I am willing to do all over again no matter how difficult it might be and it was all because Nichkhun Horvejkul was all worth it. Now that im reminscing from the time we were still offstage Khun was looking at my daughter smiling at her while she kept waving her Khun arena tour fan, his eyes were full of sincerity already drowning me with so much feels that I don’t even know how to approach him once i’m onstage.
He kept asking questions to Jhazzel the moment we came near him his voice was so cheerful that gives every cell in your body a wonderful feeling. I cannot look straight into his face even if I knew that he was already looking at me. But when I had the opportunity to tell him how much he is loved by NichkhunPH and PH-Hottests and I told him that we were making projects for him in the Philippines, that moment when he said those words “I know” everything that followed already became a blur, I wanted to freak out and scream that “OMG he knows that we love him, he knows that we are here for him” but I had to compose myself to serve as a good example to the others since I am the first to come onstage. I gave him our project’s signature baller but instead of taking it from my hand, he reached out his wrist with twinkling eyes and an angelic smile for me to put the baller on for him. I was stuggling to contain my tears of happiness feeling so appreciated by him. For a person with millions of fans, I am a living witness as to how sincere and true Nichkhun is….
People who knows me well, knows where all these words are coming from…I am going back to that beautiful day for a reason, but I would like to believe that it may be first but definitely not the last time meeting Khun up close and personal. Thank you Bench for bringing Khun to us. Thank you JYPE for allowing Khun to have a project in the Philippines and Thank you Khun for being the beautiful person that you are. Noona will never stop supporting you in everyway I could and for as long as you are with us. I may not be there physically to support him at all times but I would like to believe that my ways of showing how much he means to me is more than enough to show how much he has touched my life. I just want Khun to know that he is very much loved by his fans in the Philippines and that we will never stop waiting for the day that he and 2pm comes back.
I still and will always stand by my word that I am a Forever Hottest and Khun Stan….Till we meet again Khun….
kianamaiart
snowghoul
gummygunk
discoholicmusic
titsay
