Eccentric Spirit

Allison | 30 | Bisexual | If anyone needs somebody to talk to, I'm here for anyone that needs it.

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

recovering people-pleasers say it with me:

I am not LYING, MORALLY COMPROMISED, or IN DANGER…just getting used to enforcing boundaries & saying NO.

It SUCKS that I had to live through what I did, and now that makes me feel all these negative ways as a result of positive actions. It REALLY SUCKS and it’s my reality, but it can change.

I can actually say NO without compromising my safety, security, or quality of life. It was really hard at first but now I do it all the time.

I can’t believe how much of a people pleaser I USED TO be. I’m so glad I’m NOT anymore <3

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

it’s okay to grieve yourself it’s okay to grieve the person you used to be it’s okay to grieve the person you once hoped you’d become it’s okay to grieve the person you can never be it’s okay to grieve the version of you that you thought you had to create it’s okay to grieve the version of you that you had to abandon to survive it’s okay to grieve the version of you that never got to grow up it’s okay to grieve the version of you that died with your childhood it’s okay to grieve any parts of yourself that you have lost, past present or future. It doesn’t have to make sense to anyone else. Please allow yourself the time and emotional space to grieve, and concurrently, please have grace for yourself. I cannot stress this enough.

[yuumei-art]

Inner Child The older I get, the more I keep my inner child locked inside. I used to talk more about my past, about my dysfunctional family and how they've hurt me. But these days I feel pressured to be positive, to only paint happy things because the world is sad enough already.

Since being diagnosed with CPTSD, I've gotten therapy and it has helped a lot. But that doesn't stop the nightmares from happening and there are days when I can't do anything but cry. I used to draw myself strangling my younger self, but it never dies. There will always be a part of me that longs for a happy family, for parents that love me. Maybe one day I'll learn to co-exist with that part of myself.

[vangoghcore]

by briscoepark

[eclipses-relationship-adventure]

Hypersexuals who were traumatized by one event, I love you.

Hypersexuals who were traumatized multiple times, I love you.

Hypersexuals who grew up in traumatic environments, I love you.

Hypersexuals who were traumatized at a young age, I love you.

Hypersexuals who were traumatized at an older age, I love you.

Hypersexuals who are still in traumatic situations, I love you.

Hypersexuals who said no, I love you.

Hypersexuals who "agreed to it", I love you.

Hypersexuals whose actions are greatly affected by these experiences, I love you.

Hypersexuals who cope by making jokes about their trauma, I love you.

Hypersexuals who cope by venting about their trauma, I love you.

Hypersexuals who talk with "inappropriate" language, I love you.

Hypersexuals who get uncomfortable talking with that language, I love you.

Hypersexuals who engage in risky behavior, I love you.

Hypersexuals who are scared of intimacy, I love you.

Hypersexuals who show these parts of themselves, I love you.

Hypersexuals who hide these parts of themselves, I love you.

Hypersexuals who are trying to learn healthy intimate boundaries, I love you.

Hypersexuals who struggle with intimate relationships, I love you.

Hypersexuals, I LOVE YOU!

Your experiences are valid, they'll always be valid, and they do not make you less lovable.

[hypersexualcultureisx3]

hypersexual culture is wanting to touch yourself/be touched all the time, even while you're doing other things. the moment i start to get bored even a little bit, my mind goes to sex

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[breadism]

gay person struggle is seeing an abandoned house and having to decide whether to say ethel cain or resident evil 7

[musemochi]

me when my attachment/abandonment issues start acting up and i can't do anything about it

[abuzd]

daily conversation with myself

[50shadesofloveanddukh]

Love exists, good people exist but just not for me. I am not meant to be loved but rather fill someone else’s voids of loneliness and love deprivation. The sooner I accept it, the better it’ll be. The little hope that I had is now destroyed.

[full-of-rage-and-adoration]

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[2ndguessing]

i wish i knew how to love myself the way i love others

[zephyrine-gale]

consume | expel

[welli-moon]

“I was good, i was really good”

[bpdmaxxer]

“But he was just a child”

So was I

And I’m suffering and he’s not

[pallmallsandashtrays]

[ed-recoverry]

I love you everyone who was raped by a woman.

I love you everyone who was sexually assaulted by a woman.

I love you everyone who was molested by a woman.

I love you everyone who was sexually exploited by a woman.

I love you everyone who was groomed by a woman.

I love you everyone who was sexually assaulted or raped by a mother, sister, aunt, or grandmother.

Your trauma is real.

It was rape.

It was sexual assault.

Whether penetration was involved or not.

Whether oral sex was involved or not.

Whether there was physical contact or not.

Whether you showed physical signs of arousal or not.

Whether it was one time or many.

Whether you were a child, teen, or adult.

Whether you’re a boy, girl, intersex, trans, gnc, ect.

Whether you were intoxicated or sober.

I love you everyone who was sexually violated by a woman and is now sex repulsed.

I love you everyone who was sexually violated by a woman and is now hypersexual.

I love you everyone who was sexually violated by a woman and is now traumatized.

I love you everyone who was sexually violated by a woman and is now suffering.

I love you everyone who was sexually violated by a woman and was disregarded because your abuser was a woman.

I love you everyone who was sexually violated by a woman and she was never punished because she was a woman.

I love you everyone who was sexually violated by a woman and you weren’t believed because she was a woman.

I love you everyone who was sexually violated by a woman and was laughed off when you opened up about it, saying you “should have enjoyed it.”

I love you everyone who was sexually violated by a woman and is now sex repulsed.

I love you everyone who was sexually violated by a woman and was ignored.