P O W E R

Hi I'm Tyrell/Maria and I'm an asshole.

[tyrellicks]

ACCIDENTAL HACK, HAHAHAHHAA

- the great and powerful space goddess

[tyrellicks]

I don't feel comfortable here anymore knowing my stalker is actively pursuing not just my roleplay blogs but my personal blogs as well. It makes me feel gross. It makes me feel sick to my stomach at times to know that he could be stalking the people I love as well. This blog has honestly been my sanctuary so to know that the one person I wanted so desperately to never find this blog has found it is just so panic inducing. I haven't told anyone because I don't wanna freak them out but the stress and terror caused some relapses in my mental health issues- including my eating disorder and anxiety/depression. I've started having panic attacks in the middle of the day, it's hard to sleep at night. My epilepsy has gotten worse again- ive had several small stress-induced fits this week. I feel like I cant have a safe place anywhere anymore- if i say one thing he can take out of context hell try to paint me as a monster. Hes done it on my other blogs for four years- i doubt he wouldn't do the same with this one. Ive blocked him but its not enough. He can still see my blog- he can make other accounts if he wants to harass me. He's blocked on my other blogs but roleplay is one thing and personal blogs are another. When your stalker finds the blog you use for real life, it's heartstopping. You no longer have to worry about yourself or your image in a roleplay community- you have to worry about the people that you love and care about. Your irl friends that follow you, internet friends you've known forever, your significant other- the people that mean the world to you are suddenly in danger of being hurt by him and the thought of them being dragged into his hell is too much to bear.

I'll be making a new blog that the people I love and trust can continue to interact with me on. I won't be giving out the url to anyone else.

[tyrellicks]

The crowning jewel of my whole fucking day has been finding out that my stalker knows about this blog and is actively attempting to involve himself in my personal life/personal relationships by accusing certain friends of mine of not being real and dragging up shit from as early as 2013 to use as "evidence" that I'm somehow a bad person. It's just funny at this point honestly- I can't actually just b r e a t h e without him tryna take a shit on everything I hold dear to my heart. Like, how can someone be so motivated by hatred to attempt ruining someone else's life in every way they can possibly think of? It's bad enough he harassed me (on multiple occasions) in the past- but he seriously just CANNOT let go of shit and it just uGH