Berume

Just trying to be the best Father and Husband I can be. Sometimes I fall short. Sometimes I go further than I ever imagined.

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Today I'm feeling a little on the fence, or ledge. Not sure really how I feel. Im angry, tired, a lil pissed off, a lil bit hungry, hangry. Lol. I despise social media and yet here I am post a journal entry. Today is 10/01/2020

Haven't had a drink in 6 days. Having a couple tonight. I have no one to really talk to.

Sometimes I would like to tell my wife things but it always seems to get twisted. She told me that I say things and they come out hateful, so now I'm afraid to even speak.

I logged in to fakebook today after about 3 months. I realized why I don't fuck with that shit. I say a very attractive picture of my wife there that I hadn't seen before. I was burnt. I bust my ass off at work, I hardly get to spend time with my family. I'm tired. I work about 90+ hours in 7 days/nights, couple days off and do it again. I'm tired.

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Two weeks until my 1st Ultra in Breckenridge. Haven't run much. Been battling a knee injury. Been rowing lately. See how this plays out. Goal is 8 hours. Be happy with 10. Shit, be happy to finish.

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Today I didn't participate in the Boy Scout Triathlon here in Pima but I did put in some training. Bike ride for 14.80 miles (1:39:02) and run for 6.27 miles(1:02:52). Total 21 miles of work today. The last 2 miles were a little rough, started getting hungry. Time to refuel my body. Total time was 2:47:54 including a 6 minute change from bike to running shoes. #hungrylikethewolf #traineveryday #traineverywhere #nevergiveup #neverquit #keepgoing (at Pima, Arizona)

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A little bit of my work today. Back squat, 175×3. Yes that is a sissy pad on the bar. Feels nice on my back. Looks like I can get a little lower. Been working the Squat Every Day Program the past 13 days without missing a beat. #squateveryday #homegym #running #bodybuilding #gains #swollisthegoalsizeistheprize (at Pima, Arizona)

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Funny thing, The United States Government holds the patent for Cannabis ( US 6630507 B1 ) because of it healing properties and yet Cannabis is a schedule 1 controlled substance by the United States Government and is still illegal on the federal level because there is currently no medical treatment use for Cannabis according to the D.E.A. and their schedule list of drugs. Marinade on that for a minute. Still think the government doesn't lie to you? #freetheweed #cannabiscures #freeyourmind

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at Mount Graham

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at Mount Graham

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Just me. (at Mount Graham)

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at Mount Graham

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Hello New Year

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My beautiful wife. If I don't get some actright, I could lose this beautiful lady. I love you @mamaberume , even if at times my actions have you second guessing me. You and our girls are my everything, without my family I am nothing. #nofilterneeded #beautiful #wife #stolenpictures

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My beautiful wife. If I don't get some actright, I could lose this beautiful lady. I love you @mamaberume , even if at times my actions have you second guessing me. You and our girls are my everything, without my family I am nothing. #nofilterneeded #beautiful #wife #stolenpictures

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You never really change like they say, you only become more like yourself.

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Lately I feel I've been in a funk. I haven't worked in like six months. I started drinking regularly for the past 4 weeks. Im not sure what I'm doing sometimes. I tend to say too much when I'm feeling the effects of the drink. I'm still lifting and running about 5 days a week so I guess that's a bonus. Still, I need to figure out what the hell I'm doing.