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butchharrison

another work in progress

#dexterson #dexter x harrison #dreamy sigh #tender affection

butchharrison

#dexter x harrison #dexterson #adorable hnggghh 🥹#peak

demisexualdexter

I love the idea of Harrison becoming obsessed with forensic psychology because he thinks he'll find answers there. He takes crim psych and does his research project on psychopathy. But every description of a psychopath feels wrong. He ends up writing three different versions of his essay. The first is a pretty standard take. It's well written, well researched and would probably have gotten him at least an A. But it feels wrong. Like a lie. The second is too personal. It's about Dexter. Like some unholy cross between a case study and a love letter. The third is a take down of the concept of psychopathy. A critique of the diagnosis itself. He gets a B-. It's creative and shows an understanding of the subject matter but its not what his teacher asked for. But at least it felt honest. No there are no answers in forensic psychology.

demisexualdexter

Harrison mentions the psychopathy project to Dexter. It's an awkward conversation where neither of them want to acknowledge the elephant in the room. Dexter is terrified Harrison will read something that will scare him off for good. But what can he fucking say. Please don't do your homework. He ends up sneaking a look at Harrison's drafts. He just has to know. He reads the first one and feels sick to his stomach. Is this what my son thinks of me? But then he reads the second one. It's terrifying but in a good way. His never felt more vulnerable or more loved. The detail Harrison notices. The love. It's a fucking revelation. Harrison catches him reading it for the 5th time in a row. His ears red. "I know it's too personal I'm not.. I'll submit the first one." Dexter pulls him into a big hug. "I love you". Harrison cries. He doesn't submit the first one. Writes the third one instead. He doesn't show it to Dexter because he's not sure how he'll feel. Knows he's attached to the diagnosis. Psychopath. Whatever that means.

deadgirlinvenus

dextaaaaar go kiss your son

deadgirlinvenus

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

deadgirlinvenus

very simple but it’s very dear to me

#dexterson #loving the mood the blues are giving #gorgeous

codeinejurors

not scripted btw, christian just wanted to better bond with his costars❤️ isn't he the sweetest

demisexualdexter

Dexter loved Harrison from the moment he laid his eyes on him. It’s a selfless paternal love. Even abandoning Harrison, while misguided, was an act of selfless love. Dexter truly wanted a better life for Harrison. A life he felt he could not give him.

It’s not until New Blood that it starts to shift. Dexter’s so desperate for someone to love him. Really love him in all that he is. When he finds that straight razor it’s like he’s being offered everything he’s ever wanted. All wrapped up in this perfect boy. It’s intoxicating. It becomes this almost delusional love. He’s so caught up in Harrison he losses sight of everything else. Nothing else matters except them being together.

When it all falls apart in the woods. He didn’t see it coming at all. Of course he wants to die. How could he live without him.

demisexualdexter

#he genuinely tried so hard to be a good parent#Harrison’s anger at being abandoned is completely valid#but i remember when s8 finale aired it genuinely felt like Dexter didn’t see another way to protect Harrison#I think he should have left him with Jamie not Hannah but#I can see that he wanted to remove himself so he doesn’t ruin his son’s life#and it’s different in new blood#because Dexter is different#I cannot stress enough how being so completely removed from his environment#fully unmoors Dexter#it’s not just losing Deb#it’s having no one who knows you#not even your name#not your history#nothing that makes you you#and then Harrison comes and he DOES know Dexter#and it drives him insane#he wants to die because he hurt Harrison but also#no one could ever love him#no one can ever really know him after#who else could love him like Harrison could#resurrection makes me happy because Harrison so clearly misses Dexter#despite the lies. despite killing someone innocent. he does genuinely love him#even if he’s not a serial killer maybe that can be enough for Dexter @ladyculebras

Resurrection is their chance to try again. And yeah maybe Harrison doesn't understand him the way Dexter thought he did. They way he so desperately wanted him to. But Harrison still loves him in spite of everything. They get to try again.

#prev tags #metaref #oh my god

butchharrison

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#dexterson #harrison 🥺#he is triggering my cuteness aggression..#gorgeous gorgeous boy

demisexualdexter

Ok but what if Dexter was the kind of dad who's always trying to give his son condoms. Every time Harrison's going out he's like do you have condoms? Here are some condoms. After Harrison comes out as bi he gives him the you still need to use condoms speech. When they fuck for the first time they don't use a condom. Because Dexter is a hypocrite.

#:)#dexterson #metaref