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What do u know about depression if u’ve never lived in Russia🤷🏼‍♀️🙈

I don't know what I wanna say. That half year was very happy (no). I knew what I like, whom I love. I understood that I'm so fucking fool. I gave up. I don't feel smt in my soul that can force me to make a step, to open a new page as it was before. The whole autumn I wanna lay on the floor. I wanted sorrow. I don't proud about it. U're the one whom with I wanna be. Even now, when u made evrthng to keep me as far as it possible from u. I said that I'm fool? Yeah? Great! After it, I know, u made sure in it. I can't see u, I can't think about u without tears. Also, I can't pretend my life without alcohol, drugs. And u. Блять, хелп ми нахуй

Let's drink

Do you think about me when I'm not around? Am I imply smth for you as you for me? What are you ready to do smth to see me? I can answer each of these questions in negative to you. Just because I think so. The absence of you tearing me apart. Every cell in my body screams that it wants to be with you. And you? I do not see it! So why do I nag myself with thoughts of you? Why do I mock myself when I miss you? Why do I imagine you with other girls? Why am I looking for reasons to see you? You broke me. As the girl. As a person. I lit up when I was talking about you. Smiled whenever I saw you. When we stopped seeing each other, I stopped living. Oh God, what is wrong with me? One step in my direction. And I will make a hundred thousand steps to your. I don't ask so much if you haven’t noticed. Just one imperceptible step for humanity. And one huge step for the person.

U'll kill me one day

Find strength to fight

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Fuck them all💜

One of my friends constantly says that I’ll never be happy in the “perspective”. He believes that what brings fleeting happiness is unworthy of attention, because this happiness quickly passes. Every time it hurts me to hear something like: «You’re standing still. It gives pleasure only now, but not in the future. Let you’re happy right now and think that I’m cocksucking, but you don’t need what you’re doing right now.» A literal quote, by the way. But a couple of minutes ago I realized that this was a fucking lie. It’s important that you are happy at this fucking moment. Never believe those who say that you are doing something wrong if it makes you happy. Nobody knows what makes you happy, bitch. Nothing will make you happier than happiness right now. Because happiness in the “perspective” is very muddy crap. Don’t let anyone break your moment of happiness with their fucking babble. If you didn’t do what you really wanted, in an hour you can fix it, but after 10-20 years you will regret not having done this. Sugar, please, be happy. Nobody cares about your happiness. Except you. I believe in you, honey.

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let’s get lost

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Once I was asked: "what are you thinking now?" I think... I think the best half of my life passed, and I feel nothing, absolutely nothing there in the past. There's nothing I could be proud of, no matter what I do, I always quit halfway and eventually left with nothing. Again this shit, again I'm confused myself. I live my life in vain, considering what is happening - dress rehearsal for something more worthwhile and important. And I don't see how rush seconds folding into eternity. Again, waiting for something. Hope. You can fool yourself, but still, reality will catch you. Want to smoke, but taking the first mouthfuls, I understand that I'm sick. Not from cigarettes. From this empty life.

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