Land of Sirens

nature and exploration, intricacies, fitness, and food. And now i just vent here

[uknohaooo]

I miss my friend

[uknohaooo]

Receiving praise for being able to “handle” things and be “strong”

Also comes with understanding that that result came from hardships growing up. Mentally psychologically financially

[uknohaooo]

To me

Youre working on things at the pace you can handle with what you can do.

[uknohaooo]

Thoughts

How do you tell a close friend hard truths when they dont want to hear or they distract themselves from problems? When you notice certain behaviors that they repeat to not confront issues? And them creating space to avoid those conversations?

How do you confront someone and solve a problem with someone if they’re not willing to acknowledge the issue and then go on their day and life as if nothing is wrong? When they understand they’re running away but won’t own up to it?

How do you decide to stay or go when the one you want is there for you and is trying their best, and working through their demons, But they’re taking time due to fear of outside factors? As if almost triggering and panic attack provoking?

Where do you go to get away?

Why is it so hard for people to love and be loved?

[collectivevibe]

After A While

After a while you learn the subtle difference

between holding a hand and chaining a soul And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure that you really are strong and that you really do have worth And you learn and you learn with every goodbye you learn… by Veronica Shoffstall

[uknohaooo]

“I’d like to get things done before you get back”

[uknohaooo]

Recently i had to tell my partner something that was difficult for me to say as well as something that was probably difficult for him to hear, and without hesitation, his immediate concern was if i was ok. And I’ve never felt so loved and seen...

[uknohaooo]

Lunar New Year

I’ve learned as much as you’d like to continue your timeline with someone, you cant force their cooperation, it just happens. If you force it, it’ll break. Things happen when theyre meant to for whatever reason its pursuing. And thats ok.

An outlet I’ve learned is to speak of the events in my life, mostly because I’ve been trying to open up (due to not being able to growing up with strict parents). What I’ve learned is that some people need not know that much into the events of my life without care for my emotions or well being. And maybe that was on me on speaking to them but at the same time, as life is, trial and error. And we know better now lol

Happy things

Lunar new year is coming and my person of interest, understanding basics of the lunar new year, has impressively participated in me trying learn about my culture. He knew what we needed to get and what i wanted to do, and the little traditions that came with it. He mindfully has been wearing red, making dishes, and trying to find other traditions we might enjoy. And im so impressed.

Vday

I don’t often, if at all, receive nor ask for flowers as much as I’d like them. I was told I don’t seem the person to enjoy them. And yet two bouquets. Favorite snacks, a date to favorite foods. And though our circumstances call for space, i think they’re truly trying not to lose me. And im grateful for it

[uknohaooo]

Been feeling like it's a difficult balancing position, to keep someone accountable but be considerate of their situations. Do i add to the pressure or is the pressure going to help?

[thequeensofbeauty]

Tessa Thompson by Thomas Whiteside for Marie Claire, 2019

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[driftforlife]

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[uknohaooo]

I think i said it before but i think the thing i miss most is people to talk about things with, in not a superficial sense...

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Mood

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[isthislivingg]

Someone once told me that we’ll never really be stable or “ready” for a relationship, that you need to let things happen when you love someone, and when you love someone sometimes you need to go out of your comfort zone to be with them to discover the true beauty of a relationship, and that really opened my eyes